gone

(this is a super late post so... fark >_<)

there, i lifelessly lied on my bunk bed, starring at the wall cracks of the ceiling.
it's gonna be my last night here..
my heart beat with excitement, yet with a mixture of fear and reluctance...

***

been ages since i'd blogged, so guess my life's quite a toll out there.
it's true you see, why NSF use this famous phase that goes "where got time??"
yes, where got time? this inevitable rite of passage which took 2 years off our life is what Singapore men have to go through.

turning back the clock, i enlisted on the 7th Sept 2011. yes, i really do wanna blog about my NS life then. but.. "where got time?" (yes you know it)
the confinement week is definitely crazy, really crazy. fucking crazy. I went numb after 3 days, marching like a lifeless robot, listening to command without qualms. But the happiness from book out... God i was so happy when i'd seen civilisation. The likes of coloured cars and the beautiful buildings. I was happy, and deep inside, i was really proud of myself that i'd finally gone through level 1: confinement period.

My Company (Coy), is a rather welfare coy i guess? And it's definitely not as bad as i thought. i believed the army's improving and yes, it's actually not bad to be inside. Moving on, i'm really thankful for my superiors for making my journey a beautiful one, and also how they honed me to be a better person..

***

back to life in tekong. i curse when i board the train, curse when i board the bus, sigh when i'm on the ferry and... there im back again.
with all the usual routine, i'm back into my bunk.
was unpacking my stuff and humming some random tune to myself.

we'd all gotten pretty close i'd say. so close that we're one mini family now. but yes, i'm an oot.
yes...

was talking with one of ma' mates david, when my pc came in.

what's this look, am i going to be screwed?...

"Eh Ronnie, i'm here to inform you that we'd received news from your posting and.. you'll be posting out to.."
Initially they thought i'm be in airforce, half sad, half excited, airforce would pretty much be a privileged and rare experience in the same time.. but alas, there's some mistake and yes imma fuckyeahstoreman.
Guess i'm not flying after all..

this news hit me like how the waves hit the sea rocks. strong, but overtime, grinded to sand..

***

we exchanges regards, contacts, we sat together that night. having a pretty normal conversation, all talking to me, as if giving their attention to me to the brim as it's my finest hour.

never did i thought it would be my last night in here and i never thought things would end so fast..

we talk we laughed. i laughed too..

***

lights was off & there i was lying on my bed, oblivious to my fallen earpiece, i lay lifelessly on my bed, looking at the rotating ceiling fan. with the filtered music playing, i feel like my soul's drowned down to some unknown. while half captivated, a quarter excited, and also, fear..

i close my eyes and told myself it'll be all good, but i just can't bear leaving my bros, i know we gonna pass out, but i just dont wanna board this train first.

***

i rushed up, to do my final checks, going thru the whole platton hi fives, hand shakes exchange contacts and regards...

curse the damn lift. (spoilt)

-thud thud thud- i move slowly, carefully to keep my duffle bag balances as it trots down the stairs..
-thud thud thud-

"eh bro, posting out today ah? where u go?... ohh okok, takecare ah"

"wah where u going sia? i see i see, good luck man"

before i knew it, this surreal feeling. i'm at the office, exchanging my last words with my PC, before i'll be gone.

***

i heave my duffle bag up to the shuttle bus, heave it up the ferry.
i'm given half a day rest to prepare for tomorrow.

called up some guys and i pull the duffle bag off the ferry terminal..

"wah! oot! you're the best man! (Y)"
a roar of laugher and congratulation came from the guard room, cheering for me, as if i'd done a heroic act

"siam tekong, 8 to 5 good leh!"

why i don't feel that it's heroic at all?

***

"Uncle, bukit panjang, senja"

"can anot?"

"okay ah, u say one ah?!, uncle open the boot lei, i got a big duffle bag (points all the way 10 steps back"

***

i smiled to myself and i close my eyes.
yes i'm going home...

sky

tears formed in my eyes,
i'm just afraid.
afraid of everything,
anything.
i put my mind into froze mode, processing slow, just like a slow drifting cloud who won't move unless wind calls.
yes, i just wanted to stay next to my sun, the source of life.

there...
i'm going...
counting the hours,
lining up the things to get on my last day.

for once, i stoned at home, because i dont wanna do anything.
i just want time to move slowly,
while i'm starring at it, making time seems slow.
but yet my helpless daze did none of those magic.

there..
you'll be going, into a whole new life,
fighting in the jungle,
while me, in another jungle on some island which i probably dread visiting.
of cos i'm looking forward to NS,
but the harsh truth that's hidden below the leaves and the earth,
i'm still afraid, for the worst.

then you'll be gone, together with the wind. while i'm miles away from your scent.
the air i breathe, full of sweat and blood.
physical obstacles that put my delicate body to the test.
only think i could look forward too is my sharpened pecs, you and my friends.
brothers in arms, lets heed the call and unite on the 7th

i know we're both afraid.
let's just hope that things work out,
while we're still under the same skies.

J

my days are numbered.... before i serve the nation!
it's a mixed feeling actually, really hope NS could made me a better man. a more discipline man with balls.

rested at home today, and i finished up jungle fish 2.
a beautiful drama, no doubt.
all in for the music.



"i wanted to pat your head, hug you, telling you everything's gonna be alright"

u

might actually wanted to did alittle blogging before i sleep.
been blogging in my brains for the past few days so i was too lazy to type it all out when the commotion's over.

Was suppose to work today and yes, with a friend of mine.
i'm not sure whether do i call him a bro or whether did i earn his respect or did he even see me as a "bro" before flying me a last minute aeroplane.
you always know how it feels to threw the bomb, yet you always did it to us.
i was more disappointed? i'm so afraid of you now.

that's why i didn't wanted to work with friends to begin with. When you're all out there, it's better to fight alone isn't it i guess?

alas, it went better than i thought.
alot better? it's a long story explaining everything, so basically it's a stock taking job that requires partners in phase 2.
however, we're assigned randomly after that, and yes, i guess 1 small action would pretty much change our lives in the slightest unimaginable manner.
went to patrol 1 round before walking back up, and thus...

i was assigned to a guy who's easier to communicate with. the one before's pretty english thou D:
moving on, when i reach i sorta picked up afew loners who might be easy to socialise with and yes, them :D people who're working alone as well. might be hard to break the ice at first, but before we know it, we're eating snakes. But basically alot other people are as well, and we didn't manage to finish up on time thou ~
you guys know how much i love randomness and peculiar characters and this is one of the best social links that i'd gotten this year. There's this ang mo speaking guy who looks like wolverine, some pk look alike w/ ang kong & a very ordinary typical SIM guy well i'm the maknae thou D:

P.S. all in late 20s and have completed NS.

FML on that one.
guess that'll be all for today~ nights.

i knew you were having problems.
goodnight baby

r

this is obviously not an act of insomnia, no idea how i got the drive to get into this page despite chrome having an auto log in function. but i guess i sorta enjoyed life to the "fullest" so far but enjoying everyday.
yes, everyday. Finding something to do everynow and then, and even expanding my social link with Adel's Mum.

went over for a hair cut, but it's still awkward to get a sleek & short hair cut. I still think i looked pretty dork TwT
but i appreciate the cut thou, mum says it's so far my best so i'm having my fingers crossed.

no idea what i'm been doing despite enjoying everyday. somehow i'm wavering amongst my goals. I finally started working, short term day basis: Stock taking.
and i seriously missed blogging despite my fingers not being smart enough to get to this page.
i'd been doign quite alot lately and life's pretty fast paced.
all there's before i got in, just afew important things i'd to do:

- Army Phone
- Magical Items from E-Mart
- Passport
- Exercise

my heart's been beating so darn fast lately, and i'm really glad that i'm still alive. I know i'm no tony stark, but i'm being rebellious and also didn't dare to get a check up done. Would be covering the things that i'm doing these few days,

was into a gaming Social Link for the pass week, but i'm not as hardcore thou, just clocked in 2 hours or 3 each session. Met up with those dudes but guess i don't belong eventually when they migrated into an RPG game and guess i left sooner than i expected. To think i thought of playing that during the closed beta D: ah yes, Dragon Nest. go google it gamers, but dont get addicted please.

Gaming aside, i've more than enough supper session with my guys and also, unexpectedly getting pretty close with Robs and from here on we had cooking session, mac orders and also movie marathons. And for the first time, i created my very own curry noodles w/o any other sauce/ flavour which is a pretty "lame" achievement to my cooking career. Manage to get my brother back on track, but unknowingly thrown him into the abyss of kpop. he's so so into t-ara now. so i guess that runs in the blood.

Been sliding down on the r/s thou. Thou i'm feeling drained thou
Nightmares, my retarded sensitiveness. I know you're more than i could ask for. you're more than a guardian angel. but somehow i just lack the balls to do the leap of faith.
i'm not a phoney person either, i reply messages late, i know but it might be something that i wanted to change before i shave my hair.
wanted to set our r/s stable before i raise the sail.

Maybe my life's too fast, or maybe i'm too lazy to finish my quest but roam around and be an ass. I felt pretty drain and probably getting my body clock back is a good idea. Doing reading, by coffee sounds fantastic.

Gigantic turmoil down on my secret career/ dont ask me why.

Friends. During this pass few weeks. i see colors. yes, true colors. whether you're being and ass, or are you acting you know it yourself. Being sensitive on one side, i could see what cards are you having in your sleeves, you're easy to read, but i still trail along and play. but true friends, i admit i didn't have much. didn't have much.
not being subjective but i was once that ever desperate, to get engulf by this gigantic epiphany. your true friend is non other than your lover. I know the bro-code. bros before hoes, but how many of them actually honour this code nowadays? gentlemen or slave you decide. praying to myself that i could actually stretch out my hands and pamper adel before she runs away.
i know you guys might say, nah, your lover can never be your friends. But if you could just think for 1 minute without your dick, without sharing who's hot on the other side of the street or who might you bang if she's keen for an ONS. i assure you, with great communication, a lover being your best friend is no problem.
that's what they termed it soul mate right? yes. it's not just a key to your heart. it's a fucking masterkey that opens everything there's to it.

Problems with my friends was what it kept me busy sometimes as well.
it's hard to play therapist when you have to endure the session where they share their pain. but you could only listen. You know you can only talk and give them strength, but there's all there's to it. If there's no solution, you could only gave them the same old theories that everyone knows, the dawn's breaking, or the sun will shine after the storm.
Hate this ridiculous feeling, and then i tweeted

"hate this feeling of utter helplessness. i can only watch you burn and then sprayed you with a fire extinguisher."

we can never compare people, only products as for people there's a long string of personalities and traits combination that might seemingly be limitless, but it's still hard to be placed into somebody's shoe. I'm not living in bliss as well, i hate it when people are crawling bit by bit beside me.

This is like one gigantic report for me to read up and all.
But nevertheless may all goes well.
Guess it's sunday now, so guess it's time to wrap this gigantic blogpost up and get going. & OH, this is my first post for august 2011. must've been a joke.

Schedule for coming week

MON: vivo w/ robs (unconfirmed) Jogging
TUE: Jogging @ Noon/ Working @ Night
WED: Work ends @ 9am
THU:
FRI: Meet up with WDL
SAT: E-Mart w/ Hing
SUN:

Additional things to get down before this few weeks

- call up starhub
- take a friggin photo for my passport

u nvr knows how much i hate this fucking feeling.

nth's every probably happening in my life now that's why it's so blank D:
of course there're some epic-ness that i'd missed blogging into here, but blame my lazy ass for this ~

brains are rotting.
i feel less intelligent.



didn't realise SG had sucha flash mob

people change.

didn't really had any drive to blog. been lazy around in the day, and active at night.
my nocturnal persona just completely took over me and i'd been organizing night activities for me and my mates. Just so you know it,s nothing dirty :D

we'd been over changi for a night, suppering @ timah fragging cultural dishes and even to the extent of fooling around at our old hang out, the multi storey carpark. Brings back memories thou. Stopping the car, and chatting inside like 5 old married men, that one's pretty funny thou.

Kbox for Monday :D as there's a $8 per pax for a 3-4 hours session in the night on a 7-2 time frame, you'll get either 7-10 or 10-2 if you're lucky. it's a pretty cool perks to get me start vibrating my vocal box. Things pretty much went wrong at first, but i'm glad it turned out well.
went to met vic with my brother after that for supper but i really didn't imagine it would last that long, when we had a post supper chat.

saw 2 flens there as well and we kinda engage in a small conv..

FML it
(soli no mood) ._.

~ ~ ~

DR2M

double or triple layered dream today.
it's still kinda vivid.

rest at home cos' had a day out yesterday.
so i just lay down at home, waking up at 2, and hoping for lunch.
didn't get my hopes up since it's 4 then, and i just ate chips and cookies waiting for dinner.

can't believe all happened in a span of 2 hours.
got so fucking tired that i missed the 6pm's music bank.

***

i always enjoy dreaming & somehow usually i'm in control to carry out actions & all and today's pretty much fresh
surreal feeling and in i went, it all started out in a classroom, where some guys and i planned an expedition out to some random country, train travelling's the in thing and we decided to travel by train and explore the gigantic plateau.
Somehow we know that it might be dangerous and all since there're people missing their rides, and got lost.
but travel agency always provide this "customer service" thingy, inwhich if you were to miss your ride, u can always get onto another ride, or u still can get back to your country. by flashing the proof of purchase card u're covered of all travelling expenses via train for the trip back home.

so there we go.
but there wasn't any concrete places where we stayed so it felt pretty weird still..
we travel to a variety of places, and i remembered london :D fanciful hotel doors and it's beautiful city-scape. it's more like a class trip, but happiness doesn't last long.
nightmare arises as soon as 5 of our mates got missing. *doing headcount and realises* but there's this system so we didn't worried.
stop at England or Britain where we went over to 7-11 for a 15 mins break.
get the drinks and stuff, and derrick and i sort of horse around by the counter.
and yes, we missed the train..

so we waited and waited..
saw a train coming down and derrick say he'll run ahead to check first, but since it looked pretty far away and somehow it's downstairs. i waited for awhile and god knows why and how i jumped out of the window and onto the train, i zipped in by the window and i was astound by weird natives before my eyes.
by then the train'd started going & there's no sight of derrick at all.

GG....
i tried pleaded for the conductor to get me down, but outside i saw seas of blue and green.
probably no way to get down. It's a train from china, going to some countries for war. Would take 1 month before they return (when i can transfer). I'm dying inside but there's this strange girl in purple who told me to get used* to it.

what comes after is a month a epic drama which i don't seem to rmb. At least i rmb i ran in a bulletstorm.
and alas' i'm out.

>>> layer 2.
awoke up in some chalet like dormitory, it's early in the morning and some of our gangs are up.
some of us are brewing coffee and beverages, while others sat by the dining table talking and stuff.
i kinda overhead kunda recounting his experience and apparently we shared the same dream..

*phone calls*
it get's sorta fuzzy and it went back into semi conscious mode

>>> layer 2.5
happens after awhile, and this is super real.
i was closing my eyes, half asleep when i heard the door open, someone putting things down and all.
i thought it was adel, and i was literally beaming inside when i thought she came over and visit me. so after all that, i can feel someone climb onto the bed, lying next to me. i faintly open my eyes and saw a solitude but it all ends when i tried to hug her

was too seh to feel wtf but fuck this shit.
anws. i guess it's because we haven't met for ages.

FO

Family Outing: Kpop Karaoke~

almost brought lot2 down to the ground.
first we sang kpop songs, yes u might ask, i just know alil' but i was babbling nonsense while they do their stuff.
did all the 2pm and SNSD stuff and D:

*i swore i plan to leave kpop for good when i know i'm a listener of many genre, but 75% of my household members are addicted to kpop*

we started out well, and of cos i sang my fav qiu fo too :D
took the atmosphere to the next level sing my bro's there & he's a clubba-maniac.
god knows when we started screaming off the lyrics and jumping on the cushions like unfed monkeys.

FML chui voice x999 naoz.

Amazing KBOX PERKS @ lot2 on Mondays, $8 for members! call up & book now!

R

adel really need a denim jacket
i really wanna get a denim jacket for her

# i'm a sucker for vintage/retro stuff ~

huatah.
today's a sucky day.... ever tried waking up during evening/night time of the day?
well today's not the worst, but certainly it sucks to overslept on a Sunday





***

planning my days for this week and..
it's pretty much empty O_O

MON:
TUE:
WED:
THU:
FRI: out w/ rangers
SAT: out w/ rangers
SUN:

things to do

- update passport

listening all the at sing now.
very seh and high.

pardon my sing-gar-por-li-ang slang.



feel like tearing some building down w/ my blardy voice naozzz

u R

you're my little star...

chanced upon this song, and i clicked it by mistake, but the first few verse swept me off.
what's better than healing you soul with some acoustics while chilling in your room?

***

Day's rather good. glad that i woke up early..
been slacking and up on my com, and yes i'm a game hopper, so expect me to get bored of super street fighter in 2 days.
just dropping in occasionally to play a fight or 2 before exiting D:

mood's pretty at level 0. lazy to do anything, and thought i'll be lazy to socialise as well. Probably be heading out for some dinner with poly friends and of cos, including 2 female classmates which i portray a very quiet persona too so...
expect me to feel uneasiness D:

anyways, things turned out pretty.... well i guess?
at least better than i expected. & i tried my very best to maintain my gentlemenly-ness and not embarrassing myself D:

meet sue by my house and wooo yes i didn't went home and we got onto his wheels and zipped to clarke quay :D just some "sight" seeing and walking around. yes, more like an exercise actually, walked over to marina and loop back, just some emo-talk by the river.
we're not really that close, but... well we can made do with some emo chat about society problems and rants about poverty can't we?
get to timah to prata before coming back :D
***

saw this by girls day.
try it! it's quite interesting, taking up the concept of the dating sim game

RM

it's pretty late so i guess i'll do some blogging before i sleep.
plan to turn my body blog back, so i woke up pretty early,
hmmm what time was it? 9?

anyways, had churned up this weird concoction of food down in my stomach and i'm feeling pretty weird after that.
bananas + coffee + bread w/ butter.
got myself a copy of super street fighter arcade edition and i'm doing some training before Adel issue me some impromptu challenge.

kinda slacked my day off before heading out for a haircut.
didn't manage to find any alternatives so i'm back @ sunshine again. & well i'm not sure whether it failed me or not butttt, my back's pretty thick O_O

&omg i was kinda stunned by what someone whom i forgotten who, (one of adel's friends) or 2?
well here's a MR removed version of t-ara Roly Poly. what's really happening at then..



i was obviously dumbfounded and quite disappointed thou that doesn't stop me from liking the song but... WOW? D:
and the fans before that shouting, sounds really like some hokkien peeps, but wow.. i dont really have a beautiful voice myself if you'd seen me struggling to sing @ kbox which i don't know why i enjoy paying to embarrass myself, and alas, the power of MR. it's like singing alongside with the original singer's voice, covering ur *ehem* not so good voice.

credits to sookyeong as i'm finding out what's the MR removed all about...

There has been recently a craze amongst netizens to post up ‘MR removed’ videos on the internet which also led to many comparing the vocal powers of various singers.
‘MR removed’ videos minimizes any MR (music recorded) in the song and maximizes the vocal of the singer – the singer’s vocal will be the only thing audible possible.
For a singer who cannot sing well, with all the sound magnification and voice companion at the chorus, the song may sound alright. But with the ‘MR removed’ version, only the vocal of the singer will be clearly audible.
Especially recently, a lot of ‘MR removed’ versions of live performances have been posted on the internet, and netizens have been comparing between singers on their vocal prowess.
Currently, the hot favourites for ‘MR removed’ clips are done mostly on popular groups and also other singers – but dance songs have been given especially sharp evaluations by the netizens.

But wow, i really gotta admit that SNSD's really good on this one.



& no doubt f(x) doing very good too!



***

OMG, kinda chanced upon this.
wow can't believe some malays are actually so damn good @ music :D
ZOMG, and it's dream high and someday~
not really about the vocals but, wow D:

Dream High



Someday



i'm secretly hoping that kpop will unite the world (:

MAPLEmonday

woke up at like 8pm today?
zomg wtf, kana fuck
went pasar malam, nth much probably sleeping soon. & planning my week...

MON: out
TUE: hair cut..??
WED: dinner? (not sure)
THU: meeting adel
FRI: meeting aaron/rangers
SAT:
SUN:

Things to Do

-update passport
-act, win 7
-report ic found
-get a fucking guitar &*^&*@^##$@!!!
-start running

***

am bored and was finding random private server to crash @ while doing nth.
so after that, my curiosity sorta escalate and i went on to find out some korean maple updates.
imma spamming maple video.
maple monday.

D:

SG server's moving so slow while korea's so imba, zomg.
*sorry for video spam, saving the vids for myself* D:

now can even PVP ~



So if' i'm not wrong...
it goes like this...

Big Bang > Chaos > Technology Age > MapleLegend~

Tech age trailer. zomgsocool X3



Latest AKA up coming w/ job previews.



cannon shooter,



mercedes,



CIAOS~

welloy

yes. movies!
pretty good day to start my month of july right?
my june postings are not done yet, but i'm moving on first yo.
PS. gmarket GSM is so hard to use~

well pretty much, been a robot fan ever since imma kid and transformer's always on top of my list.
of course, there's medabots & metal arms, but i'm pretty much a closet yellow fan you know, so all of my fav robots are pretty much...
alike...?

Metal Arms




Medabots




& transformers~




hellyea i miss bee >_<
anw while i'm at it, let me show you one of my top items on my shopping cart :D




***

moving on, head out with the guys today.
Derrick, Jon, Kun & Vash.
been ages since rick n jon join us for our late nights out @ town but, alas~
anyways, did nothing much, just bused over to iluma @ 9 caught movie, slack and chill and home sweet home~
been a pretty short day for me since i woke up at 5!
awwww, i forgot all about roly poly >_<



thank goodness jiyeon no dog hair today~

***

3rd instalment of this trilogy titled dark of the moon and yes :D
it's worth the watch, despite some pretty dry up content.



and yes i so agree that the film's much more emotional.
soundtracks scoring more for this one rather than the film




sad to say, there're too much coincidence to make the film pretty dry, and you're not gonna be shaking at the edge of the sit. Of course, there's some drama in there, but pretty much overwhelmed by the intense, and sleek graphical renders that got your eyes wide and popping.
and yes, finally my "english-song" mode kinda kicked in since this movie used lots of beautiful song.

sadly, this marks the end of this awesome sci-fi movie ain't it?

# PLANS THAT MAKES ME SLEEP EARLY

- meeting adel @ 10 on sat
- zak morning pop on sun

dance w/ the geeks

dance with the geeks.
i'd came up with this term when i'm mixing with this gaming clique that'd been born from my secondary school.
pretty sleek, they're game spenders, someone willing to pay, for consoles and games, even at a periodic bases.
i won't do much, since i'm more of a hopper, but my holidays took a different turn this week and we're sorta geting in touch with each other this week or so.

suppose to be having lunch w/ 'em tmr (later) before meeting up with aaron. let's see shall we?

*posted 5 BLOG POST. zomg FIVE*

Xpo

it's like morning while i'm still unable to sleep. can't believe i'm praying that i can get on my bed asap 6 hours back?
been doing nothing much in life, probably just admiring the sceneries and i would probably love lying down, staring at clouds as time flies.

had so much to blog about, but overwhelmed by my laziness.
a break a break.
been telling myself that for ages.

*might wanna slot in a few entries for the past few days*

list of stuff imma wanna do:

- start jogging
- lesser gaming?
- pick up guitar
- business
- hair cut
- meet-e-parents
- get my bloody ass back into blogging and get things back on track

and i'm not really that much looking forward to this week, despite it being my birthday week.
well maybe not really looking forward too when i'd to meet her parents and also act as an extra waiting for the lift. Been a very negative person so i never know what else could went wrong.

My Weekly Schedule: if it went well
not really sure but...
JUNE
27 MON - lunch w/ rangers + slack w/ aaron
28 TUE - quiet birthday
29 WED - haircut
30 THU - meet e parents
01 FRI - meet up w/ hing & vic
02 SAT - casting as extra
03 SUN - Zak's POP w/ Hing + Iman

& god it's amazingly full for now.
but i'm not expecting much...

alright, let's get to today shall we?
right after 8th June, obviously i'd opened up a new social link in life, well probably one of the most significant ones as they're adel's cliques.
not that bad, hmmmm they don't bite even thou they'd got razor sharp teeth.
and just a bunch of warm and nice funny people.
guess that's too much for my balls to handle that's why i'm like O_O while i'm with them.
kinda hate this dual persona thing going on, when i can't get real noisy and crack up some fireworks and brighten up the atmosphere. & my english kinda sucked so...

went out to flea today, together as a whole and i'd say it'd been rather fruitful D:
even thou it kinda feels weird when adel and jl bought their bfs over, which's me and yj. it's a weird mixture of awkward and scared soooo.
well moving on, this mega flea isn't that mega since they're not occupying the whole of the expo hall, and only a section of it. yes yes yes, all because of the high rents, so there's like a big square for people to just simply do nothing because it's nothing much different from an gigantic empty hall with some pushcarts.
expected myself to buy some things home since i don't wanna get back all empty handed after a journey to the east, but i did anyways -.-
resist myself from the kites, crystal light, cinnamoroll plushie, jack union stuff & Ambigram couple tags.
we ended it off with dinner together @ BK after watch them do their nails at subway while thinking of places to go.
it'd been a long and extremely tiring day since i didn't slept much cos' ... *refers to prev post*

things really turned out as differently as i thought.

runk

weird that i'm spamming post at this time.
and adel'd been saying i'm having my "period".
DAY NOW. 27 JUNE 0530.

i guess so...?
not sure i'm shredding my emotional skins before i grows up officially,
no-what-so-ever.
but i just wanted to get crazy today.
really crazy..

call up my buds, and after settling numerous obstacles,
we manage to head out at 9.
people might ask, why i'm doing all this, but after everyone's out and enjoying and stuff, it's really worth the hard work.
been rather separated from kun recently thou D: probably coz' his tp's coming, he's meeting ama everyday and he's gaming with rick & co.

i'd drawn my lines too, mixing with my l4d community, and also ages since i played with my leagues of legend friends.
this tiny social link consist of 2 ang mo guy, but they're pretty interesting.
2 best friends, 1 studying philosophies and another, engineering (working @ alaska now)
a pretty unique mix right?
god and all because of the failed ip hider, i'm unable to go on.

*adds that to the list of things to do*

back on track,

went out to timbre
*skips scene*
GOD, timbre's where i really wanna be.
all the coziness, under the TREES, & live-performances.
god this place kick ass.
but we have to wait quite abit, spend near 1 hour waiting for seats, long queue -.-
and even queued like 30 mins for the toilet?
if make cake i die le.

didn't drank much.
BUT. the duck meat pizza is the sex.
omg

*after drinks + food*

i'm always high when i'm drink
but no one believes i'm not DRUNK D:
when i laugh at myself, or started to laugh, they say i drunk liao :(
no wor.
then they say i cannot keep quiet.
then i talk they say i drunk le wor T_T
nabeh.
i recite multiplication table they also don't believe.

~ ~ ~ \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/

was so damn high that i ran around,
did lots of stuff that i never thought i might did
and we kinda went to the 24 Hour Challenger @ funan it mall. AND MUHAHAHAHA i'm so genius :D i couldn't help but praise myself for being the first person who guessed the secret entrance to challenger >_<
*demands for a medal*
di siao the people there, and playing their on site demo consoles and wasting time.
kinda high and i went on to plug my phone into their portable 4 x mini speakers and blast songs while walking around with it.
played iPAD 2 too.

*squeals*

ipad2, being a leisure item, isn't much of a need, but more of a want.
but blasting kpop performance via youtube there, with the sleeky "much bigger" screen, is really.. jjanggggggg ~
done with that and off we went.

took NR3 and we ran like a dog.
after everybody got down, we manage to get vash to cab us back.
and imma still high then, but well, conscious STILL PLEASE.
and i kept singing hands up while trying to get ourselves a cab.
waving frantically by the road side, pointing middle fingers to those who didn't heed.

speaking of which, i can't believe that they filmed the MV in SG.
zomg?



*back home*
tired and drop onto the bed like a shagging dog.
zomg, flea tmr w/ adel + the rest

WM

went out with wayne to marina.

society problems.
- slack
*GALLERIA IS OPEN! NEW MARINA KOPITIAM, ADEL LETS GO TGT SOMEDAY*
- dinner @ mac
- walk to orchard
- went orchard central
- game shop
- 313 SOMERSET
- walk back down to take bus
- home

- TEAM FORTRESS 2 ALL THE WAY.

trac

TRIES REALLY HARD TO BACK TRACK

not sure whether it's the 23rd
or what..
but well, here it goes,

did you came over?
think u did, mum's emo-ing and we're eating red rice.

not sure by but thoughts started to purge into my head..
been talking about this to alot of my friends when i'm in a more of a senior/experienced 99 in life persona or even in therapist-mode.

well, there're lots of things u won't know?
now she (girls in general) haven't went into working society, how u guys can see the world,
how grim and dark it is, the cruel truth behind the balance of life, give and take.
maybe after working, she'll have goals, dreams, and what she wants. what she really wants.

your vision sharpens, you see clearer, u hear clearer.
u saw your wants.
and maybe even willing to gave up things to get what you want.


***

yes... sounds like i'm giving myself a reality slap as well.
maybe, you will see what you really want.
i glanced over at your back view while you're using my mirror from where i dine.
it's as if we're playing a game, pitting against each other. we never knows how things would turn out.
but i would indefinitely be very sure, i don't wanna lose you.

so many things i'd ought to do.
but at least i'd done quite abit.
downloaded photoscape, ran into some obstacles, but nevertheless i'm secretly praying really hard that things would be fine.

not a very nice day actually.
been just up late and mentally cursing when i saw the time.
not sure what to do, and well today might not be a good day to strive.

#rants.

XX

Tuesday six twenty-first.
same as any ordinary day, but yes we finally went out on a date after ages.
i know someone's beening piled with projects.
anyways i'm like forcing myself to do some posts that i'd been reluctant to drop by this page to write up on.
anyways, pretty much a bad day at first.
we missed out movie timings, and we'd to plan on the spot.

** do pardon my lousy blogpost because i'm pretty much in a confused state.

anyways, we sorta just went on with what we've and things sorta went pretty much smooth sailing. & i nvr like the idea of watching guy-movie with my gf, but Adel wanna watch green lantern cos' her friends're watching.
*wonders if she's actually watching for ryan :/ *

i'd got friends who'd watch that show too.
but well it wasn't that mundane isn't it? at least i know the lantern act as a wireless charger.
and i pretty love how things flow, but maybe 115 minutes just ain't enough to squeeze in every single bit of detail, but the movie's pretty near perfect i can say :D
might be one of DC finest.

behave like any other couple after the movie, and simply just strolled down the "god knows why it is so mother fucking crowded despite being a tuesday" street on orchard. went off and look at her shoes coz' adel doesn't want slippers. but she wanted slippers with a strap behind. O_O
and there we go, zipping through shops by shops, thou i only remembered mimosa. but alas, it's always hard to find a proper shoe isn't it?
head back early thou, and it's technically a short day, but we wanted to take bus from marina because we wanted seats.
got up some bus and, got down when we saw some enormous bunny balloon sitting outside SAM and we both got down and act like retarded asians taking photos with it, wasting time & electrical energy.
leg's about to give way when we got up the bus, and we totally slept throughout the ride.

=3

the reunion

the reunion's pretty good today.
it feels pretty different and awkward thou,
i'd say since all of us grow up now?

meet up with guys at 3 and take our stuff.
yes finally taking our diploma? thought we could leave them until we're out from national service.
smiled weakly and ticked an item off my agenda in my mine.
everyone'd changed so much.

jiawei, felix.
didn't get to see sam and frank thou. missed them to bits. only 2 guys amongst the 4 whom i can get into ang mo mode with.

*

U OVERTURN B1A4 U WRITE DOWN, THE 4 U NO CONNECT. U GET HELP with an inverted P

pass

twisted fingers, twisted thoughts
all the mind battles that i'd fought
swirling in my mind like a whirlpool
end of the day i wondered, am i actually the fool
crawling with blisters on my fingers
with one hand clinging on your mother fucking picture.

i just wanted a place to rant,
a wall that i could scream at and wont echo back as if challenging me
a doll which i can bitch around to but smiles back at me and tell me it's alright.

i'd got no idea,
really no idea.
well it's a strange side of me,
cancerians, are pretty twisted isn't it?
weird sea creatures that dwells in 1 shell, that hermit.
afraid of change, and wont step out of their comfort zone.
no idea what's in this gigantic black void that's lingering below beneath my heart.

if you're wondering my story's been a fairytale, then you're wrong.
so what if it's a book with a golden frame.
u just didn't realise the torn and jaded pages, and if you look closer over that, the prince is not me, i'm actually the one being tied up and dragged across the town by the horse. D:

i had my fair share of suffering oh hell yes i do.
ever tried getting played? waited like a dog.
i'm not sure if dog is the right word to describe my "then" state? but i'm sure u treat me worst amongst ur past stead then?
throwing me and let me wait alone for like 4/5 hours?
moreover i got no idea ur social circles extended to even the dark side.
with all the names down in your phone.
i helplessly lingers when i watched you fly into the storm.
how u treated me like an old play toy, casting me off when u don't need me.
how you stood and watched as i cry, as i teared and throw off my pride as a men and went down.
i can't even run, and i stood there. alone.
maybe it's worst than alone. there, my parents watched helplessly as i lay down with my pillows and act out a funeral scene like in the movies. LIKE NOW
as if it would nvr put things right again.
sad

tons and lots of stuff that i kept locked into my mine where i don't wanna retrieve.
such twisted stuff, that's indescribable purged my head like a poison lotus set within a pond, kill other creatures as it blossom. Not that beautiful after all isn't it?
such twisted things that changed how i thought, and i how i changed the weight of importance in my heart. even to the extend of actions that i'd do.
i regret every ounce of it that'd stained this book.
but i know the pages can't be rewritten.
i'd been rob of what i had,
the kind in me, all gone.
how it all shaped me, turning me into a monster.
i'd got no patience never would i want to wait.
better let the world down then the world let u down, let Mr CaoCao said,
i'm scared of thieves, thats why i woke up every night despite having 3 burglar alarm. I peer out of the window every night to check despite having installed security cameras, having afraid that it wont capture their faces.

once bitten twice shy, a burnt child dreads fire.
but what if i'm helplessly in love with the flames that eats my skin.
i could only falter.

we're all twisted.
u and i.
you'd got ur story and i'd got mine
but when the coin's flipped, it only show one side.
but fuck it, i'm still gonna fight.

i would still walk this maze if it's a dead end.
so much for saying smth sweet. didn't think u care after all -deletes tweet-

helpless lika dog

devil's tears

morning...

R

rarely did i woke up that early.
well, been a week or 2 since i started using my laptop over my fan.
the step up is tedious and once i sat down, i wont even bother to get up.
not pushing the blame, but that sorta explain my late sleeping hours.

After the crash, my life'd been rather planless now, going witht he flow. & whatever i'm doing right now, i'd been rather lazy actually.
*prays* that i get my custom rig by the 2nd of this week so i can end my torment.

woke up pretty early for god no idea why, and well. been a plain rainy day for me. Got myself 3 toast and a cup of coffee while i surf the channels why cursing starhub aimlessly :x
well that happens when u gave us 3 mths of free basic channel and 3 days of all channels. and it's so hard to memorize them. After aimlessly pressing up and down, stopping for 15 mins @ MTV and some nonsensical taiwan variety show, i'd decided to settle down at sreen singapore.

screen singapore 2011 is up now and i'd been loving all the short films that they presented. But is the arts dying? i can't put my fingers on this thought that flows endlessly around my vast ocean of teeny weeny thoughts.
What happen to your dream to make a film & to captivate the audience?
i sorta gave it up when i ended up like "any-other-ordinary-hokkien-swearing-engineering-guy"

even do i do wanna head down to substation & sinema for a day or 2, but alas i didn't have much art appreciation kakis don't i?
mind's sorta fucked up right now but i hope that ppl do stop and at least appreciate some of the amazingly beautiful local arts.

P.S. i do really wanted to make a depressing HDB film D:

anw, mum said i looked like some depress kid. FML.

sharing this cos i saw this just now.
lol, revealing 17 year old xmm D:

PP

awaiting reply from the guy whom lix recommended.
meanwhile pinged up Isaac and i might be able to get a sleek quad core CPU @ 1.2k

well not really sure where to go until i'd got the 2 specs side by side and think it over.
actually this post's for myself for doing comparison.

Lix's

Intel i5 2500 w/ gigabyte p67a ud3 @ 465
Kingston 4gb ddr3 x 2 pcs @ 114
palit gtx 560 1GB ti @ 312
Samsung 1TB @ 72
Samsung 24 x dvdrw boxpack @ 26
Seasonic m12 620w @ 125
ikonik en2 case @ 60
coolermaster 12cm fan x 2 pc @ 20
Samsung s23a350h 23" LED @ 300

delivery + assembly + os installation @ 30

TOTAL= $1506.

Ronnie's

For a budget of $1.5k for a cpu with monitor, I would recommend:

Intel i5 2400 Biostar TP67B+ $368
Kingston 4gb ddr3 x 2 pcs $102 (8gb total)
Palit gtx 560 1gb sonic platinum $286 [GPU from Nvidia GeForce]
WD 1tb blue sata 3 $77
Samsung dvdrw $25
Seasonic M12-520w $110 (buzzing soung)
Ikonik en2 case $60
Coolermaster 12cm fan $10
Dell U2311H 23” IPS monitor $265
Altec Lansing V2621 2.1 spk $69
Logitech K200 usb keyboard $13
Delivery, assembly and os installation $30

Total - $1415 nett
(don't need speaker)

heal

title shld be dance or heal.
but anyways.
it's early in the morning when i'm still shoving my half tired ass right infront of my laptop.
my fingers danced randomly amongst the key, typing whatever i can think of, googling and reading up on random things due to my reluctance to shower.

& well, saw an lizard lurking outside and i ended up shoving my blanket under the gaps of my door. Probably too scared to go out.
anyways, today's sorta a joy.
not really that "god imma under the same sky as jiyeon thing"
i'm like that also when taeyeon's here :D

not particularly a kpop fan, well if you know me i listen to like god knows how many genres of songs, from pop to r&b, celtics classicals and even folklore so..
ya know when i get seh and all to entertain and stuff, of cos imma happy that they're here. and well it's for charity as well so i'm actually glad that the world's doing their bit to help the society. Spent my day at home doing nothing much, but took up business myself.
trade business if i wanted to sound professional.
it might sound pretty weird if i say i'm learning the secrets of trades in my tiny little lair while i'm healing my head. but well it's still a priceless experience for me.

anyways, yes heal the world concert right? got afew vid that you guys might wanna look at:

Orange Caramel



T-ara



of cos! yayaya :D my personal favourite.
ridiculously cute and funny dance :D YOMA YOMA LOVA LOVA YOMA YOMA SUPERNOVA! :D



no offense but i sorta lol actually :(
alot of JIYEON!, HYOMIN! EUNJUNG EUN JUNG! i love you. well all of the screams in the video.
climax's pretty crazy isn't it? how kpop manage to swept our little red dot off it's feet.

plans sorta went off course went i decided to head down town alone. and after which, met only ADEL to get our dinner. I actually thought she would screwed up thru ordering subway as she said she'll order first. well i was 5 sec late so i had to wait for the epic long traffic light outside 313 which usually like to accumulate a whole chunk of dicks before going green.

nabeh, u think make drama ah?

anyways, my eyes went wide when i saw adel holding onto 2 missles. Gigantic large drink with 6 cookies.

well we did have fun anyways, and of cos we made a deliberate detour to suntec to take an empty 700 so we can sleep our way back to BP.
and that pretty much sums it all,

can't believe that t-ara threw their gloves off to the crowd during bo peep



but didn't see them throwing it off thou :(
i wan the claws *rawr*

& knowing that they stayed in conrad hotel is 1 thing.
but who the hell spread that they lived on teh 9th floor? D:
actually that sorta kept me wonder, do they hire ppl to play the role of the *spark* to start the "fire"?

dAnce

goals of the month.

- get a com
- get a guitar (learn a fucking song at least)

FML

wonder by blogger's not working for my on chrome.
unless i go incognito.
anyways,

things hasn't going really good for me. i might sum things up and post things up in early dates to fill you in.
but nevertheless, after the crash. my life was more or less gone in the crash as well.

dreams.

not to heed my brain's calling, i'd been staying at home.
unmotivated, say i can't even work since my neck and shoulder's are sore.
ended up locking myself up in my room, on the aircon, got into an oversized hoodie, curled up and looking at this long rectangular screen.
before i knew it, my drama fangs grew.
i'd officially became a drama freak.

i'd been at it for days.
at home for days

i'm not sure whether i would be working on wordpress soon or anot. but i'd say since the crash, i would be temporary unemployed.
dad's not that nice either, despite me sacrificing my stash to keep my friend's licence. dad's utmost reluctant into paying my bills.
come day 1 and 2 yes he paid. but once he saw i took a slice of cake here, he have to cut down on the next serving.
yep. there goes my allowance.

no allowance at all. well what a dad ._.
we did spoke, but just to show him that i'm alive and i could respond normally.
but i wondered what happened to my brain.
dreams had been really wacky, and usually my dream was a whole.
but now it's everchanging scenarios.
i can't really describe. but just that it's so much different now.
a different person? well i'm not sure, but i'm an unusually skeptical person about this and i regard myself as a defect now since i'd suffered from an injury.

funny isn't it? flawless since young.
i'd proven to think with my brains and not jump off chairs and sofa thinking i'm superman.
and that includes not exposing myself from too much of a risk and stuff.
but there... it happened.
right now i'm still at it,
screen gazing, 8 hours a day.

fml.

LIFE

guess it's time for me to move on.
in life.




been watching the drama LIFE. a short 11 episode drama.
and it's really super nice. one of the drama, that had captivated me from the start, thou i didn't watch it immediately, but it's theme and setting caught my attention.

LIFE is a drama featuring about the dark side of an ordinary japanese school life, where one walks on the strings of risk. How friends betray gossip and eventually how it all leads into bullying. Bullying is indeed and silent scream, which adults even like parents would never know. teachers who just teach for the sake of teaching didn't care.

but this drama, i didn't love it at first. no babes, pace was slow, things was all over the pace. however after awhile, the poison sets in. the plot kicks in and i couldn't help but be instantaneously captivated by the beauty of the drama. i went head on and tackled 6 episodes and only surrender to my bed when dawn hits, and of cos i continued the drama the instant i'm up. & that's a mother fucking record.
i downloaded it initially as it's adapted from a manga, so... that was really unexpected.
never the less Tanimura Masaki did magic.
i can't help it but felt impressed by how much they make use of music, their set of music, is genius.

(i dled it, for the first time, i dl a pack of 20 instrumental music)

but for the first time, i really did experienced the true importance of the music and sounds in the drama. it's instant cuts are so lovable, and it's rumbling bass really builds up the atmosphere perfectly.
& how could i find fault with it's amatuer-like but flawless cinematography? Yes it's shaking at times, but wacky enough to make this an unique drama.

just felt pretty weird.
i know it happened.

but u can be forgive, but never be forgotten.

heard the words from my friends, how selfish can u get :(
just a teeny weeny disappointed.
maybe it just hurts to be kind

pills

the size of the pills always scares me, it's like swallowing a 5 cent coin or something.
always i could only swallow if i close my eyes, and swallow hard.

well, it's pretty retarded, because i can swallow if i'd momentum, like while chewing.

anyways life pretty much sucked for me now.

AA

was reading up on awake a film regarding Anesthesia awareness
which i kinda stumbled upon this, a video of the similar thing.

ANESTHESIA from Roundhay Garden Films on Vimeo.

how does it feels when you're totally conscious when you're in a middle of the operation. With your muscles unable to hear your screams, you lied helplessly there, feeling and hearing every single detail going on.

scary ain't it?

i want to fly.
out of this cage of pain..

can't believe i'm at home watching election videos.
FML.

stuff on the month

2 May Tonage
3 - 6 May Genting
14 May Movie outing

guess i should find a job to cast off my weekdays soon.

things to get this month:

- desktop
- guitar..? :/

the liar & the fool

fuck this shit.
the reason why am i in this little pathetic space of mine which i guess whom accumulated nothing but bytes of thrash.

anyways, happy or sad? i really don't know. i'm not sure whether is it a prophecy or a mere dream since it happened in a "not so far" future.
despite that, i got up pretty much a few things, but only to find myself going back in a gain, i went back twice. and after which i happened to got out of it, it's then a pretty sad ending then.

***

Things happened, i'm not sure why but it's just a huge mass of memories being thrown in together in a blender.
Yes, all the happy times i could think off, like a power point.
and of cos our 5 years old pact.
*it became fuzzy*
I got up, and i tried my luck back again. Yes i got back,
but then of one the guy got into a picture. i slowly analyzed his persona,

lots of things happened, and suddenly we're in a room. i'm with a gang of guys in the room, waiting for something which i don't know about. it's like a sort of a japanese slidedoor class room. & u came and lock the doors, and u told me you're here to say your goodbye.
Neither do you sound sorry, nor are you looking in my eyes. I saw guilt purges through your body. Maybe you're just using me for the moment. like i'm a temporary shelter in the park while you're strolling to find your prince.
(my itunes really feel me, played the same songs 2 times in a row)

"You know he's like that and you're still going?"
"yes.."
"even thou he got a stead and he's gonna just merely jump boat?"
"yes.."

at that point of time, i just simply ran out of reason. I reached out to hold your hand but you pushed it away. It's like you're waiting for the time for sun to shine.

"we texted.. afew times"
(of cos i got into this inevitable rage and starts bombarding question)
"you didn't ask what, so i never say lor"

of cos since the door's lock, we're talking through the window. And i literally got control of the dream, so i just wanted to wake up. NOW.
slammed the roller window real hard, and i'm up.

looks like it's still a grim grim world after all isnt' it ?
i felt as if that i'm reading a book upside down for years. Yet i didn't realize the message hidden within. I took this book cos it's like a fairy tale. But alas, it's a book i'm reading upside down.
The dark earth are not the soil, it's the big patch of dark skies.
The old wrinkled trees are not smiling, are nothing but thousand years old tree demon who'd seen too much of the world.

then i wanted to get back in. i wanted to find reasons why it's happening.
maybe the time's up, and i can't get back to sleep. it's like i keep dialing and dialing yet the other side won't pick. Like a pirate whom kept plunging his hands against the ground yet there's no treasure.
How long do i have to wait, how deep do i have to dig against the pits of love which would indefinitely became the grave which i would fall upon?

i don't know.

Someday

I hope these tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”
But it makes me afraid little by little
I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t
Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out

I hope it helps me now
I hope the God will help me
I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

why..?

wAter

that is why i hate playing the hermit, within the crab.
carrying my shell of burdens on my back, filled with the grim past and the dark memories in which hold me back at the wrong times.

i'd seen alot of things screwed up, this too let me do re-access my risk management. Somehow nothing seems right, somehow when i choose to ignore the potion could only last periodically. My back's sloughing and i'm tired. I want to see the light, yet when i saw, i'm afraid to run when my legs are sore, when i'd been cheated too many a times by the trick for the eye.
Mirage-

* * *

head out with Yappa today. guess we'd really talk things out.
and of cos, it really sucks when we're on adult fare.
i'm not complaining, but paying a dollar or 2 for a bus ride is really a pain to my wallet.

& of cos, we drowned in our pitiful alcohol. A jug each is too much for a rite aint it? but this is what happens why 2 guys whom life's filled with trouble came about.

of cos there're physical troubles, but nah i could do with it. Not being physically fit and stuff are okay. But when having multi personas do nothing but wreck thoughts up on my brain. It's a fucking chore when my brain can't think straight.
I thought i might snap for a bit, but i guess i pretty much got myself together, but i'm filled with fatigue. i'd been filling up my calenders with stuff and i really wish things gone well...

I'm paranoid.
imma paranoid bastard who don't see the light.

self interpretation lesson on cancer.
was reading the book: the dark side of horoscope in love
it's a really grim book. DARK, tells u all the cons and weakness u can think off.
like how some horoscope can be flirtatious, wears multiple mask and slices off ur head like a female mantis.
while others tells about how stubborn u can be, causing damage to ur surrounding.

Anyways, mine's one of the worst i guess.
i'd a mindset of a swinger, a happy go lucky dude who sees the sun, however that's not what my star'd been. They're pessimistic regardlessly. They hog on to the past like no other. i hate history, but some things just are engraved so hard in my heart.
yes, traumatic events could change me, and well maybe for life. & yes i'm very very sensitive an and emotional being.

Our stars just doesn't match, & i just can't get my mind off some stuff that i'd come across.
"cast them off like an used gourd, love them and leave them"
i swear i'm not taking this advice. i want to fight, but how could i slay a dragon with a mere shield?

They say if you love, you become prettier
They say if you love, you change a little
What do I have to do to make the love inside me prettier?
When I think about it, tears came

weary

because i'm weary~

Tuesday, 2nd day of the week.
Ytd's so surreal, booked genting, came back, went out to meet the rangers again.

finally got a chance to catch up with artist nesti.

18 April - Meeting NP WDL
19 April - out with Yappa
20 April - MY DAY
21 April - Adel
22 April - Adel & Rangers
23 April - Rangers
24 April - might be meeting kelv

NEXT WEEK

25 April - hair cut/MY DAY
26 April - hair cut/MY DAY
27 April - Getaway @ RWS
28 April - Getaway @ RWS + open joint acount
29 April - Meeting Rangers
30 April - out w/ bros

NEXT MONTH

2 May - TONAGE
3 - 6 May - Genting getaway trip

rolling

it's been an insanely day for me, for being out since 8 plus in the morning.
well quite a feat eh?!



felt like crying whenever i heard this. it's worst after i'm watching the show. The girl keeps running after the guy, yes literally. She didn't gave up. Whenever the guy shows up, even would she be in the dampest mood will she find the drive to smile.

of cos, she's what a feminine guy like me would wished for. So i could run without fearing that there's no one at my back.

and of cos, how can i not deny that i'm hooked up on the GOS's emo track.
yes, always emotional, and always pessimistic. there are times when i wondered... ever since god stolen my fairy god mother's wand. i'd reduced to nothing but an average chap.
No magic, no nothing.
and well, it hurts to try and it hurts more when nothing happens. i concoct the potion to perfection, but instead of the beautiful pinkish puff of smoke, black water spewed out of my cauldron instead.
deep inside, yes, really deep inside. i know that this unfair laws hidden amongst the rule of love tells it all. You can give it all, but u might lost it all.
maybe i had not lost it, but after countless of sheer unluckiness, i was simply cut to pieces.

nevertheless, not the that my morning got ruin nor despite doing a morning sprint. i got up on 700 thou. thousand blank faces staring at me. Yes this is life i guess. everyone's too indulged into their own business to be even care whatever happens unless someone releases a hysterical scream.

got down the bus and such.. And there i head over to mac..

(i'm typing this on the 15th due to sheer laziness)

and yes, starting my day with the $2.50 deal and perking myself up w/ the 4th episode of God of Study over coffee. Was watching drama and just eating mac on the basement of heeren. yes it's quiet.
& did i mention that sp was on the move swarming island-wide with their flag day?
oppsy, just flag days and camps are not my stuff. and also, it's so hard to reject them when u have to gave the.

i can donate but i can't donate to all cans look.

moving on, which my superb ninja skills, i managed to ninja my way across heeren and to *SCAPE where imma attending the borders sale.
god their warehouse was so big that i'm dizzy upon seeing all the boxes. it's like books all over the place, so much that they only bothered to separate between fic and non fiction.
& WHICH IDIOT PUT PRINCE CASPAIN IN THE NON FICTION SECTION?!
it was pretty empty before, but after 12, ppl came swarming in. GOD, there were lots of milfs, and why just some girls have to wear until so revealing :(
hovering their half covered racks over the books. heng heng lim peh got special training.

that aside, i actually got afew books that would be in used for me, hopefully in the near future before meeting adel after work. So after lunch at plaza sing, we head back to the comfort of my home, after a long detour just to prevent ourself from drenching ourself which was supposing so stupid because we wasted more than 30 mins for just 30 sec of running in the rain.

nevertheless it's all fun& i sorta enjoyed it.

hit the tracks and GOD why is all the yalam and kids crowding my track ?!

i zip around bp anways, and it was crazy. was running and changing routes upon instinct and i ended up from senja to jelapan and from jelapang to fajar and did 2 loops around the gigantic canal before hitting the straight path via segar back home.
yes :D i feel good.

nevertheless i really feel we would work.
you know how much i hate change and how i would not change unless something major happened, but i know it wont change regarding how i feel towards you. but just maybe we just need that sparkle of luck which just extinguished afew weeks back D:
HUAT AH

i'm not sure where this goes.
but from the looks of it, i'm really not sure.
do we really belong together or is this just another sugar dream that will leave me wetting my pillow..?

you're perfect but i don't know what went wrong.

my day today was relatively good, beside this emotional setback. i didn't went breaking down anyways, but my happy go lucky persona was up and while my emo side's on hibernation mode. Maybe that explains the slow replies.

with the drug kicking in. i start thinking when i'm numb.
are we suppose to fight?
i need your assurance, and i know this had been an insanely long journey.
i'm not sure if i'm a social person.
i know i had my fair share of "life" but those were the days.
those "were" the glories day.

i had to put my gym plans aside. and i swear i will go to the gym someday .

i woke up pretty late and despite that, head over to msn and well half dead while catching up on my fairy tail anime.
it's a "bright" anime thou. happy and stuff. yes yes yes i do really need a visual escape from this dark and grim world.
nevertheless i still got my sorry ass up after lazing and met up with Vic & Kd for dinner at lot one.

ages since i met Vic and well we were'nt that close then?
but well, somehow we are now.
&

*My mind was in a blank state when i thought of this*

SBS - si bei sian
SMRT - Suck money really tokong

lolz. moving on, well we got back to my place and they crash and we kinda played the classic monopoly.
and please buy the train station if you have :D
because it's really fucking awesome!

anyways. we sort ende dour day with supper with jon and yes. that pretty sums it all.
but something feels missing thou,
that feeling ... isit like the first time we b***k ..?
i really felt so empty D:
i know something's wrong but.. :/

i hope things turn out well in the end.
nights

zzzzzzzz

mind can't event allocated stuff to my brain.
am i okay to be like that? ;/
oh am i just unfit for long term relationship D:

less

Alas i'm literally back on track after 2 days of procrastination,
despite panting from my rounds, i got my sorry ass seated right infront of my blog page, while my fingers ramble through the keys. Soz, was still honing my mind over body technique and well it didn't turn up quite well as i'm a very pessimistic person (refers previous post). With laziness, cherry on top and darn :(

WAS FUCKING ABOUT TO WALK UP TO MY HOUSE BY STAIRS, when my drive got extinguish the moment some lamp post went black up just above me while walking back.
it's like the only lamp post :(
i wonder if there's any scientific explanation for this, but this just irks me when it's too late at night D:

moving on today is a would be great day, but things sorta fall, "in places" unluckily and yes this trips off the happy circuit and yet unlucky stuff came falling down like domino. & i'm unusually smirking when we were like 10 mins late for the movie and we manage to make it before the credits came rolling, as we entered as the last advertisement ended despite queuing up for like 10 minutes for our goodies.
i happened to be whining like a kid and yes, sorry if i'm too much of a perfectionist and sometimes failure just stabs me like a knife on my heart.

that aside, limitless is a rather anticipated film



& that charming guy there? bradley cooper's one of my man idol next to mr Robert Downey Jr.

Yes, you'd seen the trailer, but how did it really went. The peculiar credits behold and yes i would say this work is one of a masterpiece. awesome cinematography, no too much of a boring still cuts of him popping the pill nor is there any of those lame ass still camp which hangs like a bird eye view while u see things happens.
BUT BUT BUT, limitless would be quite limited as i would like to say :/
despite showing you how limitless he could get, apparently it was rather dry, and as i thought there would be a dark part in the film.
My hunger for the harsh dark realism came about, thought i could savour the fact that he isn't gonna make it or he would be someone who once have it but am now a mentally or physically decapitated man.

But alas, why didn't i notice this book had a golden frame?
& well it's all up to you to decide, but i guess.
anyways, it is all well and entertaining :D
i giving it a 4.5 cos someone tells me RIO is 4 :(

And yes for a moment, i went in a "menopause" mode later on. Yes i know this isn't me, but for a moment, i got no fucking idea what'd got into me.
anyways i sort of went detached with the world for abit and that got me thinking.
what'd i been doing, am i doing the right things? well lazing and doing nothing worth of any beneficial value would it done to me, good or bad?
but i'd like to admit i'm considered a novice when i'm playing therapist to others, but why am i such an amateur when it comes to my things? i should be able to at least analyse and find a quick solution.
but what am i doing? had i gone tired of the lukewarm routine that's never enriching? or am i tired of being .. me :(

And sadly this all drags throughout the night while we're at it.
despite that i'm not going to forget the beautiful performances right by the bay of the marina sands. Bubble lovers, ignore the video and enjoy the sounds and bubbles. it's magical (:

***

anyways, after what happened today, i really thought that love is like a duet, like a mix tape. whether you're both of the same stream, nor are you of the opposite. It might sound beautiful if you play it together. but moreover, this difference only points out the difference in our different views of things, our different perspective of the world...

Love is like singing a duet, likewise those in rhyme sync together.
where lovers of the same kind, came together, singing without any stutter.
this ain't no telepathy, nor this is a chior
but with the likes of the tune, you could see if you can last forever

mine's different, never the same
while mine's the orchestral while indies's my dame's
i had my own cicle, whom i play really well
but another others, only time could then tell
while your's are enticing indies, always embracing others
you got me down at your feet, and then you got my mother.

thou we know we sang differently, but somehow we could compromise each other.
with my loud trumpets honing, bring us joy and laughter.
my song is a difficult one, who is really required only selective listener.
while yours captivates almost everyone, soothing birds of all feathers.
dear, will this song end, for i would never know
but then i would never forget, how our fairy tale unfolds.

however storm may come, dark clouds would still gather
but alas, i hope. For our r/s to get better.

*MOOD* FUCK THIS SHIT D: T_T >x<

Took a trip down memory lane since it'd been quite long since i'd blogged.
was high lighting what i'd been doing lest i forgot :(

seems like i'd forgotten :/ what i'd been doing

Slack @ Home
watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall
Meet up w/ Aaron

4GOT

Tuesday.
i'd been forgetting what i'd been doing and this sucks T_T

GOD!

(4/8/2011 3.29AM)

fuck this.

rmbed i wanted to build my gundam toys that i'd gotten from expo but :/

It's a pathetic tuesday... if i didn't then what did i do...?
did i see adel back from work? :/



*mood* irritated cos i can't rmb what i'm doing on tues & wed.

anyways back from my run and i'm treated to some pretty chio yoona vids (:



ZOMG HER THIS HAIR.



:( gien
si bei gien

dMAN

April Fool! :D
well i didn't trick anyone today, but anyways spend the other half of my day with ma rangers.
MVC @ vash's place is really awesome and i'd really like to admit that his place is one of the place that i'm really comfy with.

i'd been to many places of my friends and well some of them had given me some weird creeps. Say i just felt uncomfy, not due to any supernatural instinct, but it isn't fun at all. No offense but it's like a book with a beautiful cover but lukewarm content. Not that it's boring, some of'em had got their fair share of entertainment, like a gigantic tv & a ps3.
but well, maybe closeness and the attitude of the host is a very very important factor. & also well maybe what we do is something impt as well :D
i enjoyed playing the role of the spectator but obviously not spending 3 hours trying to see you kick ass in your ongoing installment of the RPG.

nevertheless dinner @ subway was great when kunda join and after that followed by Zak who'd just booked out LATE. Was discussing about the new army phones that me and kd is getting and i just realized that i might only have like 20 contacts in my new phone :/
it's a joy to meet up with you guys and it's pretty amazing to see that how much we matured as the topics we talked are not just cartoons and girls, BUT of cos' girls'd always been trending in our talks but also coupled with army, news or any latest epic news.

***

sad to say. i felt really sorry for your friend.
i'd hope that Jill will use every ounce of her strength to make him see the point.

it's the game, and humans of the male species had this thing in them, coupled with pride, i call it the superior blood theory. I'd discussed this with aaron and kd before and yes we do have "superior blood", coupled with the fact that we're chinese. You'd seen how Chinese touched on the fact regarding the importance of pride and all. But also, who's being in control or who wanted to be in control of the relationship is another factor. You can't forget not to look at who's more willing to contribute to improving the relationship too thou

the guy might be disconnected from this link which you'd established regarding contacts of the opposite gender and yes this happens when guys are just guys. common problem.

...Why ang mo are so cool with bgr and didn't think much that their spouse had sex with any other beings of the opposite gender, yet us chained by the threads of traditions takes it so seriously.
some of you might be thinking you're cool with that. there're girls living in this new era of clubbing girls providing one night stands to the likes of lustful wolves or virgin seeking for stories to tell their friends. But main point is, most of us at this generation'd not moved on by this :(
i'm one of the living example.

BUT BUT, for men.
being visual creatures, it's the sad truth that we stares at babes and ladies with hot curves but having an extra company is yet another bonus.
and of cos, deep inside most men. they'd theories like men who play are "ai zai" but women who play is categorized into the "got played" section and she's slut.

Guys who're reading this, please wipe off the smirk in your face and stop crossing your fingers with your left hand. :x

gender equality had risen over the years and i hope people who're in a relationship needs to have a mutual understanding or maybe bind contract against their spouse so as to avoid any misunderstanding/miscommunication.
i'd got friends w/ stead whom goes to club every weekend, him to zirca and his gf to rebel. Some couple are alright with post open exposure of the other halves. yet others are not. I wont call it overprotective or being over possessive coz' one need to learn how to know their limit and some couple might not give a green light.

i would really like to admit i'm one of that kind. I got jealous extremely easily and trust me, i would want to lock my gf in a cage if it's possible :D & i hates if when she talks to some guy -_- or when guys strips her in their mind, despite saying it's very sak ki. i hates it when it happens.
P.S. i know the looks, cos i do that too :)
yet deep inside me i want guys to notices her and sees a guy like me is bathing in bliss with a cute gf D: but moving on,

it happens when you want him/her to be completely yours, of cos seeing is believing, so i assume that by physically "keeping" her would provide the extra assurance that i would need. Exaggerations aside, this is no secrets of the men but us men won't mind to sacrificing things of his possessions with the likes of time and a portion of his wealth to get into the favor of his lady or any lady that's appealing to him. That's of cos when looks/personality comes to play. but when the other half is just a friend while you're attach, at least let the players know the rules. Show her the ring on your finger and that draws the line into the amount of skin ship or companionship she could expect. But sometimes guys are ambitious for a reason, they wanted to have the best of both worlds. That's when china have concubines.
Unless she/he keeps pushing themselves to you, then you better do something about it and guys, please don't let the pea brain below your waist level make any unpardonable mistakes.

i know men find it thrilling to "smoke" the other party, like not letting her know that you're attach. You wanted to give her the tiny beacon of hope and wanted her to "interact" with you like you're single. Or, this gives you the privilege to feel single at the very least. D:
I love pokemon too but that's just men. Gotta catch'em all.

Maybe half of the time i didn't really know what i'm rattling about, whether am i explaining or describing. And whether this wall of text could either be the food for inspiration/enlightening, or even act as an extra piece of general information or might even sadly be categorized under junk D:
Nevertheless if disectecd throughly or correctly would the post be a a huge chunk of text.
let's keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best.

jUNgle

got alot of gadgets that i would need to cough out part of my stash to get, but however my unstoppable insane hunger for fashion apparels are yet my impassable hurdle :(

guess it's the last day of the month and i'm out seeing my girl to work. & if you'd seen my tweet..

"when the clock strike 12, i'm going to turn you into a ballerina X3"

yes we probably managed too, but with some minor setbacks here and there which i wont wanna describe coz' it'll only get me pissed and all.

moving on, back at the shop, of cos w/ ma bro fer his secret perks :D BUT, since i'm the only paying so i'm playing the fairy god mother role here.
and alas, the wings met the long awaited ballerina.




ain't it pretty? the beautiful works of jeremy scotts. i'm initially no supporter of him man :D but after that i do have to admit his designs totally defines my styke :P

and yes, next up on my list would be these!




pretty right? well i'm going for the lightning one i guess. moving on after adel went for work, i went on to bugis to crash at aaron's workplace :D
god the new adi jeans it's VERY DOPE.
and well chatting over some wanton mee and with a gigantic bowl of $4 fried wanton, we completed our 3 course meal with a sundae before he heads back while i wanted some time alone, head over to Bugis Lib for some quiet time. did some reading and of course, updated myself with the 2 latest issues of men's health.

skipping the boring part, i went back and meet up with adel before we had a last min plan to dine @ ramen play 313.
so going back and all i saw people going in and out serving people. my mind stops for awhile and i felt as if i saw an inevitable cycle in this concrete jungle.
well, you always see people being served by those workers, but have you every wondered, on other days, they're serving people too? :/
it might not be 100% true, but most people are coming to good places to dine to take a break off their hectic schedule of stash farming.

it's gonna be one hellofa' reality for me to accept, but when the time comes, i would hate opening the mail box D:

nothing in particular happened today.
D:

just a simple dinner out w/ Adel down @ town after her work ended.

well before i end, let's listen to K-pop In A G6 by DJ Masa :D

NN

*construction in progress*

S2

*29th Mar*

i'm finally back home!
the trip's great, however taking the long bus ride at the wrong time could be tormenting. Adel and i was struggling like lost travelers when we're back at panjang, foraging for a vending machine to quench our thirst.

however, despite my laziness to upload all the photos that i'd taken. i'm actually gonna throw in hundreds of words over here.
nevertheless the trip's entertaining and i'm infact still thrilled by all the things we'd done. Including playing desperados (:

*28 Mar*

i'm up pretty early today, and i'm all set after i got my fix of drugs which got me working. Anyways, i didn't pack my bag until today and i'm the kind of last minute person who keeps going through the list of things again and again until it's really time for me to go.
So anyways, Adel came over first so we kinda got lunch from downstairs, was clicking around the sentosa websites and marking down places we might want to go/should try out if we had time. But anyways our plan was never solid as long as i'm around (:

(it's actually a fucking chore for me to go recollect all the stuff in my mind, but... oh well :D)

after the looooong time at the counter, i wasn't at all happy when they gave me a 6th floor with the view exactly the same as my previous room's location.
it's pretty irritating but somehow it just feels like day 2, since the furnishing, fittings, and even the arrangement of the furnitures are the fucking same. It's so "boringgg" but surreal at the same time as we're here like.... 28th Jan? well i'd never been to the exact hotel twice so.. well maybe that made me feels home.

no going all wowy bowy and going thru all the stuff and taking photos of the whole fucking room, but we just crashed on the gigantic and comfy deluxe king size bed which pretty much took up a significant portion of the space. We ought to follow our plan at the very least, despite nua-ing on the bed. And it was a pretty warm afternoon so why not enjoy the comforts of the aircon first before you're going out to fight against the heat? my mind was all tired and lazy and i didn't even bother to read the map :3 we took whatever mode of transportation that is closest to us and whichever transportation which came first and after changing 3/4 we finally got to our destination by mistake.

we planned to go over to play desperados and the 4D pirates, but however after afew loops round the island we decided to went to the cineplex which Adel reccomended. But on the way while going to the cineplex, we reached the 4D place by mistake and so we kinda just went ahead.
i'm not going to do a detail review about the worthiness of the 2 attractions, which would only makes my heart bleeds more if you know what i meant ^_^
i'm not a cost calculative person, but however for queuing much longer than the duration of the attraction would makes me mad. It's like the KOI theory. i called it the koi theory cos people are queuing an hour or 2 for a drink that won't last for 30 mins. BUT BUT BUT i'd say the attractions are considered fun if screamings and cursing are counted as signs of delights.
but that short hour sure took out half of our budget.

After the couple're done with their "fun", here comes dinner.
clock reads 18.30 and we'd thought we would better find a place to lie & dine before the crowd comes in.

(back from ma' drinking session & i'm good to go)

YES YES YES PEOPLE. it's time to get a credit card if you're getting second thoughts. cos on well the 2nd half of my day revolves around me and my lucky offers POSB card. Things went on pretty well in fact later on despite the credit card malfunction which occurs after the meal @ Ramen Play.

BUT i would really like to say that ramen play i fucking awesome. i'm not a food fanatic nor am i those who sniffed out poh restaurants or hidden good food near well hidden alleys that cos me 3 digits and landed me in the plight of a sore food and a bloated stomach. but this restaurant was amazing. Despite the lack of the perfect ambience, and pretty staff. I like how quiet ramen play is. (well maybe it's a weekday) but it's exterior doesn't look promising thou :D
we decided to crash @ RAMENPLAY when fat girl saws a poster with ramen and that pretty much caught her attention. (she was literally staring at almost every food posters actually)

but i like how quiet things were back in there. & & & & & she wanted me to order some gigantic rice course but i made do with it w/ pork fried rice, and she ordered some.... no. 19 and 24 on the menu (:
GOD, usually some jap restaurant would have problems handling with pork, but this is AWESOME. the gravy blends into food pretty well and it's literally the best fried rice i'd eaten so far :D
i'm not a fan of that, but i think ramenplay just became "our" restaurant from today.

after all the munching and all, we're literally singing praises as we walked out of the restaurant, and can't believing our luck of stealing a extra plate of prawn cakes coz' we're POSB GO card user. but nevertheless we decided to stroll around before heading back to our hotel. Yes, for that moment after eating, our mood kinda got back to normal and the pendulum inside our brain just stops jumping and needed rest. It's pretty hectic if you looked at it since we started off our journey pretty early today unlike our previous trip. SO SO SO, we got back into our hotel. some guy didn't even believed we lived there D:

time was 8.30 when we were flipping around on bed. Yes it's a godamnbig bed, i think it took me 6 rolls to fall. just channel surfing and chatting, and yes probably going thought about today and we're still in an excited mood, yet our body seeks temporary rest. Went to wash up and stuff before we had an impromptu movie call :D
literally running off from our hotel @ 9.15PM when we're suppose to watch the 9.30 show.

titled morning glory, this show's not what you think it is, and it's pretty realistic and funny as well. If you're up for some light laugh and some funny scenes to satisfy your eyes. this movie is absolutely one of the best solution for you. Screw weekdays since there're no later screen times other than 9.30 PM



well i love such shows, realistic and with some light laugh. but not some too incredible to imagine drama which took me to suspense but hard to get me thinking. But yes, it's more of less about working in a new environment and you get to pretty much see things you expected, but you're watching it as a 3rd party anyways so it would be nice to see how things turned out in the end. The show was pretty nice, love how it start and how it went but it ended pretty much sooner than i thought and DID i mentioned about the 30 minute advertisement before the show? the mother fucking show starts at 10 PM.

i think the guy went to shit or something. I was pretty much pissed and i thought we're doing a feedback group and were made to rate advertisement. Trust me, 30 minutes of trailers and advertisement suck. And to think we ran off to the wrong cinema before that because the other door's "opened". we watched a couple of minutes from Rango and stupid girl thought it's a fucking trailer D:
but anyways i'm glad the show starts out well when i'm boiling and YES w/ POSB GO card, i got the tix @ a cheaper rate <3
well $7.00 per tix are promising, i thought it would be 8.50. Got the popcorn despite our bloated stomach and the both of us chew away like a pair of fat couple with our slippers all over the place.

like a happy child after the movie, the both of us head back "home" :D
was like the only 2 person walking about in the dark vivo when we went over a barricade and ran to take the train back. Thank god we didn't missed the last train or we might have died halfway walking back or something. but anyways that pretty much summed up our day :D

in the end, we used up almost all of our cash, our cards are worthless too. For that moment i'm not even afraid of robbers (:

words still can't really describe how i felt, but nevertheles the surreal day 2 feeling was actually amazing. was nuaing and channel surfing when we both decided to just sleep.

*29 Mar*

woke up at 9 and we're basically packing ready to leave. so why not put the packing stuff aside and well we planned to eat ding tai feng if adel's got her paied over. but her boss didn't wired the money over D:
so poor us was back at vivo, sinking our teeth into cheap food - macdonald's
that's how mcvalue targets cheapskate like us. I shalln't go any further since it's nth much but us swaying our sleeping heads along with the bus until i'm woke up by some bunch of noisy assumption students with no fringe, that four eyes even cut of most of his hair, stepping ang mo. And speaks so damn fucking loud with ridiculous english like he's a foreign guy trying to get the other half to understand his failed english from a phone with bad reception.

*out w/ Yappa for some beer session later on*

miLk

meet adel after her work and did some shopping and stuff
OH YESYES, finally BP got some epic rainbow and it's trending all over the net.
if you hate science and you had been sleeping during your science lesson, it's time to head over to wiki and brush up your general knowledge.

Anyways just to share with u how a rainbow's form and try making one when you're bored!


And yes, seems like triple rainbows are legendary so, you might never seen one before.



went back and watched jumper on 5 before meeting the guys at starbucks for some coffee. I'd to admit i'm addicted to espresso recently :D
here are some of my dialouges

"eh i hope my wife hor, after giving birth wont grow like a ball sia *point at some fat mum*"

"wah kao alot xiao pang, i scare sia *points @ another*"

"u like ur wife b-feed ur child? i think i want to watch sia, like national geographic or animal planet"

***

it's a long day after that in which it's quite hard to type it all out.
P.S. lazy to upload pics as well. but anyways, i did quite alot of lame things the moment i reached home. upon reaching my study table, i felt 4 tiny legs ran over my feet and i went cursing and stomping on the ground. Must be a lizard. it went under my bed and i thought it would be good to send some smoke to it. so i began to smoke my room.

(after which, i noticed that my cupboard's door was ajar.)
god. dont tell me it'd went over

got a random afflatus and i hijacked my old $500 hi fi set w/ imba bass and got my room blasting. in short, i decided to do some cleaning up and i vacuumed several unidentified objects and smashed my piggy bank by mistake.
ended up sweating and it's quite a mess.

threw off my old studying material and notes because it's all piling up. Got afew carrier to put my ready to wash jeans. i know it might sound crazy, but i had 10 over jeans/pants ._.
anyways, my piggy bank's in a shape of human, it had limbs and a body so i felt really guilty since it's a 3 year old gift from Adelalala

i knocked it off the shelf accidentally and little did i know, i killed off stuff from minitoons by dropping them from great heights. Some chick ornament before and now this X.90 robot. (forgot the price)
NEVER EVER GET STUFF FROM MINITOONS.
moving on, it fall off and it all happened within a split second. Coins came spilling out the moment it's head breaks into half. i felt damn guilty as if i'd killed someone. & it looked like a human to me.

sorry & i love you :(