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this is obviously not an act of insomnia, no idea how i got the drive to get into this page despite chrome having an auto log in function. but i guess i sorta enjoyed life to the "fullest" so far but enjoying everyday.
yes, everyday. Finding something to do everynow and then, and even expanding my social link with Adel's Mum.

went over for a hair cut, but it's still awkward to get a sleek & short hair cut. I still think i looked pretty dork TwT
but i appreciate the cut thou, mum says it's so far my best so i'm having my fingers crossed.

no idea what i'm been doing despite enjoying everyday. somehow i'm wavering amongst my goals. I finally started working, short term day basis: Stock taking.
and i seriously missed blogging despite my fingers not being smart enough to get to this page.
i'd been doign quite alot lately and life's pretty fast paced.
all there's before i got in, just afew important things i'd to do:

- Army Phone
- Magical Items from E-Mart
- Passport
- Exercise

my heart's been beating so darn fast lately, and i'm really glad that i'm still alive. I know i'm no tony stark, but i'm being rebellious and also didn't dare to get a check up done. Would be covering the things that i'm doing these few days,

was into a gaming Social Link for the pass week, but i'm not as hardcore thou, just clocked in 2 hours or 3 each session. Met up with those dudes but guess i don't belong eventually when they migrated into an RPG game and guess i left sooner than i expected. To think i thought of playing that during the closed beta D: ah yes, Dragon Nest. go google it gamers, but dont get addicted please.

Gaming aside, i've more than enough supper session with my guys and also, unexpectedly getting pretty close with Robs and from here on we had cooking session, mac orders and also movie marathons. And for the first time, i created my very own curry noodles w/o any other sauce/ flavour which is a pretty "lame" achievement to my cooking career. Manage to get my brother back on track, but unknowingly thrown him into the abyss of kpop. he's so so into t-ara now. so i guess that runs in the blood.

Been sliding down on the r/s thou. Thou i'm feeling drained thou
Nightmares, my retarded sensitiveness. I know you're more than i could ask for. you're more than a guardian angel. but somehow i just lack the balls to do the leap of faith.
i'm not a phoney person either, i reply messages late, i know but it might be something that i wanted to change before i shave my hair.
wanted to set our r/s stable before i raise the sail.

Maybe my life's too fast, or maybe i'm too lazy to finish my quest but roam around and be an ass. I felt pretty drain and probably getting my body clock back is a good idea. Doing reading, by coffee sounds fantastic.

Gigantic turmoil down on my secret career/ dont ask me why.

Friends. During this pass few weeks. i see colors. yes, true colors. whether you're being and ass, or are you acting you know it yourself. Being sensitive on one side, i could see what cards are you having in your sleeves, you're easy to read, but i still trail along and play. but true friends, i admit i didn't have much. didn't have much.
not being subjective but i was once that ever desperate, to get engulf by this gigantic epiphany. your true friend is non other than your lover. I know the bro-code. bros before hoes, but how many of them actually honour this code nowadays? gentlemen or slave you decide. praying to myself that i could actually stretch out my hands and pamper adel before she runs away.
i know you guys might say, nah, your lover can never be your friends. But if you could just think for 1 minute without your dick, without sharing who's hot on the other side of the street or who might you bang if she's keen for an ONS. i assure you, with great communication, a lover being your best friend is no problem.
that's what they termed it soul mate right? yes. it's not just a key to your heart. it's a fucking masterkey that opens everything there's to it.

Problems with my friends was what it kept me busy sometimes as well.
it's hard to play therapist when you have to endure the session where they share their pain. but you could only listen. You know you can only talk and give them strength, but there's all there's to it. If there's no solution, you could only gave them the same old theories that everyone knows, the dawn's breaking, or the sun will shine after the storm.
Hate this ridiculous feeling, and then i tweeted

"hate this feeling of utter helplessness. i can only watch you burn and then sprayed you with a fire extinguisher."

we can never compare people, only products as for people there's a long string of personalities and traits combination that might seemingly be limitless, but it's still hard to be placed into somebody's shoe. I'm not living in bliss as well, i hate it when people are crawling bit by bit beside me.

This is like one gigantic report for me to read up and all.
But nevertheless may all goes well.
Guess it's sunday now, so guess it's time to wrap this gigantic blogpost up and get going. & OH, this is my first post for august 2011. must've been a joke.

Schedule for coming week

MON: vivo w/ robs (unconfirmed) Jogging
TUE: Jogging @ Noon/ Working @ Night
WED: Work ends @ 9am
THU:
FRI: Meet up with WDL
SAT: E-Mart w/ Hing
SUN:

Additional things to get down before this few weeks

- call up starhub
- take a friggin photo for my passport