Monday, December 31, 2012

arigtaou

i will keep writing,
i will keep writing my story (:
i will become a more meaningful person.

thanks 2012.

resolution for 2013

Start Exercising
Start Running
Cut down on being fucked up
Launch of XXXXXXX
Reach level 2 in Korean
Learn a new skill
Learn a new song with my guitar
Go to Genting
Travel to Japan
Plan a Chalet
Get more than 10 chops on my passport
Getaway w/ Adel
Less Vulgar, more English (already a gentleman thanks)
Social Links upgrade
Money! i'm so gonna make my first 1k
i know this sounds stupid, but i think i really need a driving license

... and the list goes on.

Jungle

Social Links, again.
Yes somewhat I'd been neglecting since I'm going thru a homey phase. Time to play hermit, sitting at home, quiet nights and computer games, topped with late night supper with afew friends.
Quiet as it is...

***

Was slapped by the strong cold air of the aircon the moment I board the bus back home. Tried to avoid eye contact with the ezlink tap gadget, didn't wanna remind myself of how poor I am..

Awww fuck..

New year eve. Today, and I head back to camp. I told myself that it'd be fun. Taking it as going out, in smart 4. It's like a reuion I guess..
Been ages since I connect with them and yes, I felt so distance. My evoker is definitely not working and I'm napping my way off this half day.

"What went wrong?" I always wonder.

Trading our cards, meet ups and all the fun definitely wasn't fake. Or am I just got so much into character that I didn't realize that I'm pretending?

"Definitely not, the joy and laughter are not doubt genuine"

Yes they are, and they always will be.

-Sighs- "just what went wrong?"

I'd seen a lot. Keepers or not, we know best. But this tinge of inevitable awkwardness that dwells amongst, is smth I would wanna kill before the year end.

"Maybe I'd been away for too long, social links work this way doesn't it?"

Follow the law of the jungle, paint your face for there is a war coming. Shooting invisible bullets, throwing invisible knives. The enemy is one invisible, among us.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Hazel

Hello there,

My precious social link. You're my everything. Literally? Yes literally. I would be lying if I say otherwise.
How old we are, ancient. We'd came a long path, we sure have.

Time stopped for a moment, and thinking abt fate and destiny... What if we're never meant to be? We lost it, what if we're meant to end it? Like ending it while things are not ugly, calling this curtain while there's still joy in the show?
This random epiphany hit me, in a weird way. Somehow bringing me to understand why is it possible for some couples to end off while they're happy. maybe these memories are what that should be left. And it wouldn't be as bad as things turning ugly.

***

Click.
I'd got to go. We're standing at ur doorstep, and we exchange farewells. I could see your eyes swell. Those tears of bliss that I'm bathing in..

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Rockin'

I'd been procrastinating for sometime about this and I guess it'll be good to at least start it on my berry while I'm at it.

HARD ROCK HOTEL.
Sometimes I'm in a mood for naming things. Not really sure whether am I talented at it or is it just me being plain retarded.
"ARE YOU READY TO ROCK?"

Didn't call a lot of people on this one. Just want afew close friends to come together and enjoy. And that would be my longest social link.
Used to be diadem generation, we were used to beo kpop together, and of cos the only remaining guy from the ol' secondary sch clique who bothered to keep in constant contact, Vash.
Vash is yet another long story, but moving on, there's my couz and my blood brother. Yes I know, but we're close. &

-love the feeling of getting on the bus that I'd missed by taking another bus to cut the route of that bus-

Back into my story. Yes I know, we're close and we're also rather tight with vash's parents as much he is with our parents. & lastly, Ken. Rob's friend. We're one bunch of weird social link, who laugh at each other's selfpawn moments and we're jokers in our own way. Yep, all dicks no chicks, and we're all fucking set on this journey.
-
"Guys, I try to get 28th - 29th okay? If not we settle for 27th - 28th?"
it's the december period, people clearing leave, off, taking their time off work, going overseas. Meanwhile we're planning our mini getaway. We'd been talking about it during our LAN & Supper nights, throw out the itinerary, and before we know it.
"Omgosh! I'm so excited for tomorrow! can't wait"
"Yea, it'll be a hell of a party!"
 
28th DEC 2012

And before we know it, we're up. Late noon, rushing over to hardrock with richard and mums. Took the MRT due to the sudden downpour, and it stopped just as we thought our day might be fucked.
*
Richard is just plain awesome. He even got us concession cards for the sentosa train rides. In we went!
Took the train, gosh! How long have I not been to sentosa, oh! Hellllloooo resort world :)
We stroll down the busy local resort, looking around, pointing at chicks, edging each other. Hahaha guys will be guys. And there, unveil infront of us, Hard Rock hotel.




Sleek hotel, we entered by the side door. Zipped down into the check in lobby and the lobby bar. No grande entreeeeaaaaa but, we're all smiles. Grinning ear to ear, started checking in on our social media platforms and taking photos. #instra
We explored for quite abit while Richard went ahead to check into the hotel for us. Aye, that include checking out the rock shop and lazing by the couch!
Lupsup team photo~


 
Time to huat!
"Lai. Ke yi zou liao"
Richard came, waving the holders with our room cards. And there we went up into the lift, we're like.. Let's go!! Chattering noise filled up the entire lift and we just can't wait for what comes next.
-ding dong-
We run down the trail of carpets while looking left and right to count the room number plates.
"455"
"454"
"453"!
-knocks-
"staying for a night! Excuse me"
(Usual chinese tradition to knock and says that to you know who)
 
We're blinded people. We just opened up a room filled with gold bars and we're fucking blinded. I'm literally shouting, running across the room, went straight out to the balcony and huat it. Richard, walking behind am chio. I know he's so proud of himself.









Aye. We played for abit, looked around. Hmmmm 2 big custom queen?? Well it certainly isn't king but definitely bigger than super single. Laze on the bed, couch. All of us are channel surfing and relaxing and I decided to plug in my iphone into the dock and throw in some Calvin Harris! Let's go~
After half a boring movie. We decided to head down for an early dinner. Went walking abit further and we finally saw the artificial beach that richard is talking about. And a pool bar?! Oh c'mon!



Settled for dinner @ harbourfront's kopitiam(:
The fish soup and char kway tiao? Jizz. Cheap good food.
We bid farewell after dinner. And after my parents went off to do more shopping and we're all on our own! The 5 of us. "Freedom~!"
we went to walk about, did some grocery shopping, opps full of alcohol.
After 2 bottles of barcadi mojito in the basket, I decided to throw in one personal big carlsberg bottle while vash throw in a large can of asahi. Topped it up with half a dozen of hoegarden and we're all set!
DecÍded to bring the bottles back because it's too heavy. Darn! Head back immediately after doing shopping with robs @ uniqlo.

Sighs. Miss those days that we're out, we're like brother and sister exploring while mummy and daddy are hitting the slots. Keke
Headed back and the first thing we do is nua! Old already.
And we decided to have a game of transformation since we might be heading out to gai gai and drink.
Transformed lol!!






Movies and booze just can't get any better. We had a good brother time, while playing finger guessing, 7up and category.
Oh yea, I wanna get high lolz. Was behaving like a retard, high fives with security guards and hi to strangers.
We chat and chat, and we head back to slack.

-K.O.-
They went down to buy cup noodles and shop for supper thou. Nb totally bo jio.
*laughs* when I asked next morning.
"ni tou dou dao xiang gou yi yang liao"
D:
It was at midnight when I woke up abruptly. Could almost felt the puke going up my throat until I calm myself and try breathing slowly. Took a bottle of water and sip by while I hear them laughing at me, pointing after my loud burp.
"Aiya, ta seh liao la"
"Hahahaa dog sia"
"Wo kan ta mingtian dou bu dong ta you qi lai he sui lo"
Nabeh! Trust me, I'm smiling to myself and cursing them with all known hokkien vulgar. But I can't open my mouth.
-slumps back onto bed-
*there's a number of funny night incidents*
Insomias, hitting by sudden light. Blinded by toilet light.






# DAY2

Had a beautiful dream. It's just us. Me and you. I saw u. You're not a faceless beauty. We held hands, hugged. Strolling around paradise. But u just don't let me rest my hands on your shoulders. (Oh c'mon, even in my dreams?!) U keep placing my arms across you, resting on your waist as we walked.

---

Woke up.
Shirt unbuttoned, sleeves ruined. Feels like I just got rape. Clems was half dead. I shook my head to reality..
I'm still excited. Jumping up. Exclaiming the wonderful night we had. And they're all almost awake. Guess what? Those dogs made a breakfast table out of the ironing board. #laughs. And I admit I'm the on who took it out the night before.







Still laughing so hard about it.
Woke up, and made myself coffee and cup noodle that they bought ytd. Me and clems. Those dogs were alrdy smoking by the balcony lolol! Robs went back to KO while we chill, throwing in some music as we took turns to bathe.
A genre/group that defines us? Kpop.
Yes. SNSD. Anyday

#CHECK OUT
Motherfuckers says we consumed stuff from their mini bar.
Item wasn't even there
And we're there for one day

There we took a train back. noisy chatters slowly dies down only to be replaced by the surreal silence that drained out by fatigues.
One by one, we dropped off at our respective stops and head home.. Yes we miss the day. It was a special getaway never meant to be forgotten.

#CHECK CLEAR.
HUAT













































Wednesday, December 19, 2012

S|X

 Been quite sometime since i "keyed" anything down,
and would like to do so...
since... uh yep, lets get going

"off with the music and yet there's the old me.
buried deep down,
the little tinge of my old persona still remains,
and it never left."

i'd reckon it's a good retarded day to blogged about 191212
seemingly long day.
yes, it's really long you see.

was active for 24 hours on this one.
woke up pretty much early to prep and start heading out for cohesion,
it'll still obviously be a mess because how easy it to manage that many people?
we're late, but i guess it doesn't really matter,
what matter is, when we realize we can no longer sleep there, because i'm thrown to lazer tag.
nabeh, )@#*()@*)(#&!@)*&#)@&#)&@)$)(#*%()*#%
but how suck could it be when you have your camp brothers as comrades?
we lost anyways.
but thinking back, we're still one motherfucking kickass team!

So after that, yada yada, we just left the place and head down to find the other people.
oh yeah! hijacked a com and started playing the league of legends! :P
ahhahhasdhaklrjwklsdjkgjdsklg <3 p="p">

moving on, that wasn't all
it all ended beautifully with a 8 course lunch..? and oh yep! won a lucky draw!
was so happy when my name was called, but u shld've seen the look on my face when i realize it's a DVD player.

went out with the guys after that,
hellyeahdutyfreebeer!
fuckyeahchevrons
had some booze before heading to the ktv opposite
and... i'm sure we kinda sang our hearts out.

rushed home to prepare and met aaron after that.
well... that bastard.
i never stop wondering how can 2 extreme opposites click so well.
but... actually i think i knew..
deep inside, how are we awkwardly similar.
we're actually that similar you know?
despite the different exterior persona we had,
maybe i did my mask too well.
and aye, it's sitting by the river, drinking, talking, relationship woes and cursing our fate to the river.
we're both straight by the way(:

food for thoughts:
a) what's fate?
b) what's destiny?
c) what's the difference between fate and destiny?

we trail down, to mbs, off mbs, to clarke quay.
yeah, we walked in the rain just so you know.
down to robinson, had a good ol' adventurous "breakfast" @ 7-11?
wow, they come with seats
and dragged our feets to chase the morning bus...


oh c'mon!
despite all the dirty dutch,
the swedish house mafia and calvin harris
i'm still a Rie Fu person.







it felt so surreal....
i always loved how you are different from the herd..
still pure,
still untainted.
i wished you would forever stay that way...
my....

got my ass back home after everything,
and took a nice warm shower before slumping onto the bed.
zzzzzz
zzzz
zzzzz
zzz
zzzz

cant even have a good dream after that.
it sucks.
it sucks to be so "particularly" aligned to the moon and to think like a girl
it sucks to be so sensitive
it sucks to be so considerate when no one gives a fuck in this society now
it sucks literally to lie onto bed and be drown while swimming in your thoughts

i missed you
i missed us..
i missed me.
i miss you
& i always thought about us..

***



你 想要 的
我 却 不能 够 给 你 我 全部
我 能 给 的
却 又 不 是 你 想要 拥有 的
我们 不适 合 也 不 想 认输
好 几 次 我们 抱 着 彼此 都 是 想要 哭
我不知道了。
我怕。。。
我。。。。。。
 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

answers.

i looked into the tiny book of answers.
and i saw a blank page.
how was i.. contemplating to wrote down my own answers.

i'm from the moon,
and u lived in mercury
i always looked at how fate puts us together
yet we're meant to be torn apart by destiny.
the air could never mix with the water.
 
when the moon child met the princess of mercury,
he forgotten it all,
you led me down into the forest of love,
and we got lost there,
dancing,
singing,
hugging,
for years..
we're still inside,
familiar, but are we still lost?

venice right..?
maybe i'll find my answers there.
eventually..

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Hear (ENT)

Nah, I wasn't hit by any epiphany or if any sort, just thought it would be nice to blog down my ENT trip over at NUH. Yes, NUH, am referred to this hospital for quite sometime and finally I could go for my long awaited medical appointment. However, I would say... It sucks when i have to go to hospital? It's a place, ironically the most negative feelings would be created yet beacons of hope could be born here as well.

I had seen my fair share of patients and it only hurts me deep down inside, not only how people are are all suffering. And the pains and problems of people everyday. It's only Tuesday and the hospital is clogged with people, returning patients, sick children, and not to mention frail elderly that are sadly awaiting the grim ripper on their wheelchair.

Was praying for a good trip, a cure, and that is all that matters when I realize I took the wrong letter and before I know it, I had to make a call down to require for a fax. Other little misfortunes such as missing the bus even I did my Olympic sprint, but I guess I'm quite glad that my hearing is still pretty much normal.

Went over to the opposite wing to did test and my current wing is clogged. Tips: kent ridge wing pharmacy girls sibei upz.

Did a audiology test and was thrown into a small box, with a headphone and button and you people knows what happens next. Oh! Did I mention that theres this cute girl that I saw? Not really know if saw is the right word as I couldnt see her face. Thought she might be claustrophobic as she kept opening the door and taking in deep breaths as she complaint that there is no air inside. Machiam going underwater la sia!
Saw a mother and soon, both either deaf/mute. My inside died alittle as I see them trying to express themselves to each other using almost inaudible soft squeaks

That aside, 2 handshakes from 2 different doctors and I'm out... For now....
3 months rest and we'll see what happens. Hearing induced problem as he said. Ti-something. Soz I only know titanium :P

Any why are nurses from the pharmacy more chio than those in clinic ah?

Sent from my iPad

#Funny

"Jasmine: you pig! When was the last time we came out together. Before marriage, you are so thrill to come shopping with me, now u only want to laze around at home. I don't care, you better make me happy today or else u don't touch me."

Hahaha girls! >< Knn

That's how I feel when I'm out w/ Adel. Shopping has become a real chore and I felt like I'd become a human trolley. Nabeh. Bt I still **** u la. Huat (:

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Tuesday 041212

December just couldn't come any faster, and my life now.. Guess I could say that everything is pretty much fine. Not settled, but fine I guess.. I had good days out coffee will my closest possible social links, and also how I realize how intelligent a bro of my were in the context of 'work' sanity. But that's all yet another story.

Music taste buds took a weird turn, and now digitally refined sounds turn me on. And I guess december could come as a good month since we're all clearing leave, I see a good chance of reconnecting w/ my social links.

Laze

Stop procrastinating and start moving!


Sent from my iPad

Friday, December 7, 2012

Taboo: Odd Couples

PART 1



PART 2



PART 3

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Ugly

Judgement, engraved deeply into human nature, we perceived deeply on how things looked physically. How that hot that girl is, how cute that guy is, visual creatures that treat people differently because of the cover.

Humans, inevitably have the tendency to judge, throw in some personalities, and stories in accordance to how people look.
"Oh she's so pretty, she must be nice"
"Oh he looked so nerd, he must be a loser"
and yada yada...
when would we ever learn to see and love people from the inside?

we'd all been brain washed have we?
taste changing from the ancient times, now skinny is the in thing, and models setting bench mark and also brain washing us on what is beautiful. TV shows, cartoon, always showing the good to be the suave, and the bad to be ugly. But then again, everyone is different isn't it?


This following documentary, kinda change my life,
it's more of like an awareness video.
i'll let the video do the talking

PART 1



PART 2



PART 3



i hope this post would get noticed by people, and i hope this message would forever be sent across the world. And when people could love and understand one another, we're one step closer to world peace.

taboo, a grim-reality documentary.
Life Changing.

Monday, December 3, 2012

hermit

introvert by natural,
or i'm slightly swinging over that way, people might say that i doesn't seems like it.
but all that extroversion are what i bought out sometimes to socialise,
nothing of sort.
sometimes u can see me back in my usual persona, sitting by, quietly trailing amongst the group.

i miss my hermit life i guess..
after all that happened, i'm out there, back to the sea.
how i wish if i could spend my day at home, making my day productive, leaving my house for a quick meal, then retreat back to my lair. Or even, tabao up and watch dramas/movie while eating.
but i guess, i'm finally bored. curious? well maybe it is because of all that curiousity that somewhat set the sparks in me, me getting outgoing and all.

but still, i wont bite(:
Sunday is good. i need the rest, i need the quiet afternoon listening to slow beats of indie musics which soothe my soul. i love the days that i could pace around my room, doing small actions/efforts to tidy it bit by bit. looking around for area of improvements, or just stoning and doing some random reading on the net. Sundays are the best day for haircuts even thou i have a phobia for it.
 i'm so afraid of haircuts that i even have to ask god for a time, or pray for a good hair cut. fuck me seriously. But i'm sadly born this way, how i curse the wheels of change, but that's what wont change right? the ever spinning wheels of change.
And it hurts me more when i have to pay for it T_T poorboi91 here thanks.

moving on...
i still love just nua-ing around in my room.
including the warm cuddles under the bedsheets :3