暁.[Ritsuki|瑞-suki]

well, have a reason for this too (: don't underestimate. I'll blog on later. Stress is hitting me hard, as thou with unlimited combos.

"I stood there, stationary as i look at ur pitiful body, slowly advance further.
somehow, i was held back,
amazing, i didn't go after you.
Slowly, you back became smaller and smaller,
and you disappear right after the corner..."

CHEERS (:

drop

every good guy, needs a break.

CHEERS (:

chance

well, *yawn* gonnabe a short post. I cant really feel myself this feel days. Felt so surreal. I ain't aware of what's happen and all, yet the slide just continue moving on and on. And Kamy, thanks for typing out the POA worksheet for me, lol. You include the lines and everything. It must've been hard (: Well, school end early today as it was S&W. Head back home on 12. Rest, and take a midday nap. Slack at my laptop again, doing nothing. Well, there's a commontion before, my phone suddenly gone haywire. Fuck. But it was all well again. Sighs* life goes on

CHEERS (:

fare-well

Well, every single title in my blog, holds a meaning. A meaning that is related to either what is most significant to me on that day, emotionally, mentally. Or the focal point of the day. Anyways. looks like i shalln't was time. I should quickly post and head back to lala land. Ohh well, today ain't any better actually. Hmmmm, was late for my IDS (interior design) and pon-ed TEC lecture. Geez, i'm one bad ass. Hmmmm, actually there's MES practical today at 3, but it was cancelled. Headed over to Bukit Panjang Plaza's Popular to shop for some stuff before heading home. Watched the Forbidden Kingdom, settle some stuff, and take a midday nap. Sorry Jonathan, Sorry Xian Zheng. I was alil' held up today. Walk over to Greenridge for dinner @ KFC before heading back. MAN! i was bloated. Took a 15 mins after meal's stroll. Was looking at the trees and all. I was emotionally lost everyday, and i don't know why. I really need help or something ain't it? Maybe the walk that i concocted could save me from all those. & the thought of the upcoming CT irks me. Sighs i feels like i'm playing some block game but the block cant seem to disappear. =/ It's stacking up more and more. I'm suffocated, i cant breathe. I know everyone'd got their problems. But mine wasn't any better. It's not physical, it deals with the soul, heart and mind. I'm not in a proper state of mine for education. I kept losing my footing while on the trail of learning. I can't help it. I just can't. Feeling lost, i chat up with various close buddies, while doing my assignment. I kept telling myself, "Ronnie, you gotta pull yourself back up and keep walking, it wasnt a time to be feeling like this". Ronnie this Ronnie that, seems like i'm stressing myself up in the long run eh? *laughs* Alright, shall end here. To Jia Wei, well i don't think you'll see this, but Just look at things on the brighter side ehh bro? =D

fare-well. *there's a reason for this (: Rack your brains buddies! =P

CHEERS (: *NP BROTHERS.

less

ohh well, less slack, less play. I wannna! i so so so wanna! It's an ordinary day today. Well, head over to school, and as usual, i was late. Oh well, my timetable's alil' different today. So after an hour of MES lecture, there's a whole lotta 3 hours break. Before to TEC. Wahaha well, we went off halfway, and cab back. Was pretty tired, so didn't do anything much. Decided to check my PAC paper. Well, i don't bother to do anything about it since i cant balance. But i still fared 67. and what kept me fuming was, I POST ONE WRONG SIDE NIA! KNN! 1 MISTAKE. =.= nvm. Was engulfed with fatique, so i let the songs took me, well, keep going on and on, as i lay on my chair, lifeless.

*no mood today*
common test is coming, yet my visions are not motivating me much...

"like eg. few years down the road, i still can go shopping with my laopo on saturday night.
Head over to enjoy the sceneries.
then midnight go hawkwer centre da bao, then drive home.
after shower liao yi bian watch new bought blu-ray movies yi bian eat (: "

hmmmm hope things get well tmr.
CHEERS. ^^

and here's alil' equation before i go,



CHEERSSSS ^^V

blurry

well, today, was...kinda blurry. Okays, shall touch more on that later. Sweet, was watching honour and passion now. Well, it's from 11.15 PM till 12.15 PM. Sweet, sweet. Alright, woke up on 6.36 AM initially, but thought of taking a short nap, but don't know that i'll wake up on 8.40 AM. Oh well, head over to prepare and plan to take a cab to school. BUT, the problem is, there is no cab in sight! i slowly walk as i turn my head back everynow and then with a tiny glimpse of hope, wishing there was a cab, but to no avail. Then i took a bus over. Saw aason =( WE're LATE! reach school like 40 minutes late. But well, luckily i still can manage to catch up with what the teacher is talking about. Oh wel, after that it's like 4 hours of Accounting after an hour break. Head over for lesson lor =( well, at least i manage to pass, one wrong nia. But i got 67 due to my laziness to close the accounts that day =S. Oh wel, thank goodness i passed. Feel much better already. Anyways, thanks for the peeps who're there for me when i need'em. Anyways, head over to meet Jonathan, Xian Zheng and Sulaiman. And head back to Bukit Panjang Plaza with Xian Zheng, Jonathan and Jun Wei for dinner @ Subway. Wahahahah, sweet. and i head back home plugged to my lappy @ living room, and slack lor. Time flies! till now. Man, it's gonna be a sucky day tomorrow. Hope things will shape up better. & i'm looking for my motivation to study.

CHEERS (:

human love.

well, was inspired. Alot alot alot and so so so alot by the recent disaster that hit world's headline. China's earthquake. Well, alright, shall wrap that up ltr, after i blogged about what happen before. *heaved a deep sighs* Well, oh dear okay since blog is...*pause and turn to look at the television screen*.

[GUYS IT'S 9.03 NOW AND RUI EN IS NOW PERFORMING ON CHANNEL 8 TV! SINGING CHEN LI DE YUE GUANG, YAY! HER HAIR IS LONG ALREADY! WEE WEE WEE SO FUCKING PRETTY!]

*turns back* okok done. Sweet (: Ok, anyways, i woke up from a lil slep from yesterday and it's 8 already. Went to prepare, and went out of our hostel to get breakfast. OMG, and after that, we still got 3 more breaks cum lunch. Ohh my god, we like go over there, to tio feed. Well, cos the lectures was really inbearable, and we slept. Hahahaha, like we go over there to "shag" man, the was dismiss after our team's presentation. Oh well, i do admit that i have a huge amount of phobia in talking in the mic. Very unnatural. Ohh well, went back after that, reached home at 6 sharp and all, head to rest and woke up at 7. Hmmmm, watched alil' part of You are the one on channel 9. Sian, F8 was eliminated. Rachelle isn't it? well, i think she got the looks and she's rather cute lah (: wasted. Then tune in to channel 8 to watch the charity show that help to fund money to donate over to china for financial aid.

Well, heard alot of life touching stories and all. A guy that, hang on to life, clinging on, under piles of concretes, hoping to see his wife, child. But passed away after that. I'm really awed by his determintation. He's real optimistic about it and hold on, he really did. They pulled him out, work on him, work on him. But not long after he was out, he is gone, gone...Another one that i'd like to share is about the teacher to sacrifice her life to save her fellow student, young, eager innocent learners that have yet to get a glimpse of the grown up life. They'd really better to feel gratitude about it. Here's the last story that i'd like to share with my readers, that touched me seriously, honestly, REALLY.

got a chain of words from Felicia Chin's blog and i think i gotta' share it with you guys. '

"看了心好痛。。
听到小孩的无奈和哭泣我心也碎了.。
他们真的好可怜。。我们相比之下真的非常非常幸福。。所有的烦恼相
比之下算什么呢。。
只求他们的痛苦会结束。。不再痛苦不再饥饿。。"

Thank You Felicia Chin. & okay back to my blog. There's this story, which is really inspiring. It's about this mother who was trapped under the pile of rocks and all. The Civil Defense Rescue Team despite the odd, pulled her body out, and clean her up as her pitiful body was covered in dust, not only blood. Well, they find her crouching in a strange manner, as if covering something, her arms almost in parallel to the ground. As they lift her back up, they found a baby lying there, sleeping peacefully, like an angel, not awared of the surroundings. Not even a single twinge of fear as the Mother's warmth had engulfed it, whole heartly, really, literally. For the first time, i'm really inspired by how fair can a mother go for her child. Usually, the extra mile we said, literally it is not really that far. But for the first time, i'd seen, what's an "extra" mile really like. Not only to scarifice, but also, readily take the pain in their place. Say, compare to a person who suffered from blocking someone from the gun shot. How can the pain be compared to that, crouching, back being pierced by random materials, head being crushed. It's a reall gruesome, yet slow death that eats up you brain cells, fatique soon take over and ur vision slowly blurred, before u can get a glimpse of anything else. In the baby's warpping, they found an handphone. And in the handphone, there's a note written. It's like that.

"情爱的宝贝。。。如果你还活着，
一定要记住我爱你“

The translated version goes like this: -

"Dear precious, if you've survived.
Remember, mum love you..."

My tears almost shoot out when i saw the last three words. Pardon me, despite what kinda person i am, i'm pretty sensitive to the last 3 words. Really. It's different, somehow. From the story, the mother's love for the kid, it's not expressed through the words, but the actions itself. It's just that the words connects us throughly. I I'm seriously touched, by the mother's courage to give, in exchange for the life that she is holding onto for 9 months, and 3 to 4 months after birth. Well, nothing can be more inspiring than a life sotry and a true story about a person's biology. Indirectly, we're studying about human. Humane love is really boundless and their lengths is hard to estimate. Impressed, yet awed by the lengths they went. Human love, the priceless gift, that mother earth is filled with. Unlimited resources, that didn't comes with a price tags...
CHEERS (: GO SI CHUAN. YOUR DETERMINATION HAD AWED MANY OTHERS;

shag-

shag during camp. Post up pics and all later.

ok back, well woke up rather late today. Prepare and get my breakfast before going over. Well, today's a really long long day (: Seriously, and really. Hmmmmm, was late so i decided to cab over to Ngee Ann. Well, no cab in sight for like 15 mins, i reached plaza when i took a cab. And guess what, the fucking cab drive at 60 KM/h. I really so wanted to slap the driver. Oh well, got there, and rushed to LT 68E. Was so pissed that it wasn't urgent. the thing start at around 9.30 AM. And could've took a bus over. On top of that, it's not what we picture things like. Things doesn't really went the way we wanted.

crestfallen

Arghs, i'm so...friggin' crestfallen right now. Can't believe what just happened. Well, thou i think it's more of a lesson taught by heaven, but i still cannot take it. Ok, before i post anything else, please pardon me of the vulgar. Thank You. Ohh man, scold was suppose to end at 5 today. Well, but our suppose to be 1.30 till 3 PAC class test was pushed back to 5. So, guess we're staying at school hmmmm. Well, woke up rather late today. And after preparing, i head over to macdonald's for break fast before heading over to Bukit Panjang interchange's bus-stop. Weee~ the bus came soon after. Yep, saw-ed Libing. Thanks for the movies (: anyways, i then head over to block 34 for my lesson. Oh well, MES tutorial, followed by a torturous 2 hour's TEC tutorial later on. Kinda got over it, and the usual gang, hang out again. Wahaha, well, i kinda like my friends already (X had so much fun, joy and laughter. Thou we know that we miss our secondary school friends, but we're still brothers (: well, we kinda "forced" each other to show gf/ex's photos. Bwahahahhaha, cant help it but burst out into laughter, kinda felt like those army bro ain't it (: Haha, went off to MES lecture =D. Ohhh, and on during the PAC test, fuck i cant fucking balance...(blah blah blah) Ooh errr don't be blogging the bad mood. Got it all off my chest already. Thanks guys for being there for me (:

CHEERS (X

click

i guess i'll post it before it's 12. Wahahaha. Aw man, didn't study today. SIGHS! ohh yup, anyways, went over to meet xian zheng after my IS. Gosh hope i can pass CATS. i MUST! well, went to the library, and took 184 over to bukit panjang to have subway for lunch. Went over to my house at 2 PM. Haha, watch some movies before he head back. Well, watched the click again. Time, essential element human life. Family, company that starts and last for a lifetime. & Love, the passion that keeps you going. Ohh well, after he head back, i "stoned" for more and more movies. Sighs, i cant believe what i'm doing now. Yes, i kinda lost my footing in my path of education now, and i just need sometime to balance it. Well, guess that life ain't always will flow the way u want it eh? Cos' the wind will blow. Anyways, yes yes and yea i didn't study much. My thoughts wondered into dreams, and desire. The blurry future...Well, was chatting with a friend of mine when i got this. Wahahaha, here's the phrase.

" we were created by our parents, and cam over to this world, we need like 15 years to know what's love.
2-5 years to know what's love like.
10 years to find our soulmate out of everyone else in the world.
& a lifetime to live with the one we'd found (:"

sounds lame, but that's it ain't it?
anyways, it's PAC (Accounting) class test tomorrow, & i'll be studying tomorrow, during the break time. Oh well, wish me good luck (:

CHEERS (x

question mark.

well, was at the living room now! tapping wireless once again. Hmmmm, honour and passion episode 3. School end early today, got back home from 1.00 PM and reach plaza not long after that. Went over to plaza's KFC to order some takeaways before heading back. Wahahahaha came back home, then slack lor! SLACK SLACK SLACK. Went over to plaza later to "bring" Xian Zheng back. Can't believe we watched SEMI PRO again. And "Chuck and Larry". Wahahaha, oh well, horse around till 8 plus before he went back. & damn! was lazing around and chatting up. *sighs* and there, i wasted it again! Wonder when can my mind picked up the pace and move on with life. Really need to take the "walk" or something, well need time to get my troubles off my chest. Been bottling up for long. Hmmmmm, well right, shall talk more abt the walk when i went over, so it'll be easier to share it with u guys with pictures. Well, head back, slack, and before i knew it, it's 10.30 already. So with a final quic shower, i'm back to the show! Aw man, IS tomorrow...i kinda dislike my Sports and Wellness, which is basket ball, oh well. Tiring yea (: But i'd have to thank it, cause without it, i bet i don't even exerise once a month. And oh tell, time to get my Principles of Accounts back on track. "sighs" Ohh well, anyways i'll be going off early tonight.

CHEERS (:

blend of green

well, was again watching honour and passion. Wahahahha, hmmm i wore alil' special to campus today. As least in my eyes la, i wore an espirt's grey tee, with geen highlighs, to go with my copper green bermuda. Also with my Black,/green sole's Top Man slippers. I end the combination with a transparent file folders with abit of green on top. Well, thou the green ain't that obivious, i give each of'em alil' blend of it. Alright, on with the entry. Well, anyways, woke up at 7 plus and went on to prepare. I then went over to Senja Grand, hoping to get mi fen. @$&%! it was closed. Saw Santokh too, wahahah (x then get bread went home lor. Well, head over to school after that, 2 sujects, 3 lession. School ended at 12 today. Then i head back home with Samuel and Grace (: Hmmmmm, went over to Senja Grand to da bao before heading back. Sighs, on the aircon, then started to slack. Wanted to revise initially, but end up horsing around with Xian Zheng and Jonathan over at msn. Had my dinner at 8 sharp, and back i went to my laptop. Head out to the living room for a 5 mins nap, but before i knew it, it was 10.30 PM already. By 11, i'd just finished showering, so it's time for honour and passion! Well, was wondering what to do tomorrow, Kunda jio-ed me out to Suntec, well, i'm still on second thought. Sorry brother! school work'd been piling up.

CHEERS (X

double double.

oh well, i'm watching honour and passion right now on channel 8. Will get back to this later. So basically after i get back home this morning, i fell asleep after washing up. Well, woke up afew times within 3 hours interval, but as i was too lazy to get up, my slumber time ended at 8. I tilt my head over at 8 sharp to see the sky colour bneded with the tone of dawn. Wah! i thought i've slept through the night! Well, got up, wash up and have my dinner! Then i went back to cope in my room again. =/ Aw man this sucks. I really felt that i'm living for the sake of living. Well, i do admit i've goal, but for now i'm kinda lazy to do something about it. Sighs, yep slacked till 10 before going for a quick shower. Then went over to watch Her Sense. Gosh my parents thought i'm crazy =/ and Honour and Passion right up on 11. Sweet. Well, it's the first episode. Wahaha, rather nice =/ liked the heart warming family "feel" the producer and director brought up. *awww* yep. And BTW, we didn't went to TERMINAL 3 =( wahahah, people are kinda tired, so we just head back lor. And well it's after 12 aready. I stoned at my living room. My mental state is in a mess and i'm really...well, stress might not be the correct word, sad to say. Well, i'm at lost and i don't know what to do. Life's all about choices, choices and more choices. And for a person who hesitate more than he act, is a torment rather than an enjoyment. Don't see me horsing around with my mates and catergorise me into those happy go lucky and heck care attitude kinda person. In fact i'm not (: just that i don't have the determination and decisive power to do it. Gosh, and i'm always day dreaming about the future and all.

"Hey, the looks and physical appearance is nothing but an empty vessel to contain the soul.
When you love a person, it's the soul that makes blood gush and accelerate the heart beats."
(shall stop, i could've talk abt this till tmr =.=)

But...But...BUT.
sometimes i just don't get it why i...

OKOK, back to my day, well, i'm slacking at my com table, =/ gonna go sleep any sooner. MAN! i just missed RUI EN when she came over senja grand for shoot for her drama, honour and passion. @%^!%@$*&^#&^!*&@! *cannot take it*

CHEERS (x

semi

sometimes, i'm tired to think, ask and everything.
gimme time, and i promise i'll try my best to make things right.

Ohh well, was at my living room right now, using my laptop again. Sighs, dont wish to cope in my room. *sighs* Woke up rather early today, had breakfast and watched Semi-Pro out of boredom. Wasn't really being myself today. I kinda slacked till evening before going over plaza for dinnner and head back. Went back home after that, watchd alittle bit of "Meet the Fockers" before i went to play CS. Hahaha, had a whole lotta' fun with BOTS. Maybe going over to the airport to slack till morning later with Kelvin, Kunda and Sulaiman. Well, till then bah. I'm really emotionally tired and wasn't myself today. Sorry for the short post. Well, just a reminder again. Rui En will be appearing at Her Sense, up on ch 8 tmorrow on 10.30 PM. Be sure to catch her on TV! here's the video for the ad before i go.



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bwahahahahahaha it's 5.10 AM now and i'm horsing around with my mates at changi airpoart. Haha, using laptop, playing around and all. Well, after blogging, i left my house not soon after and meet up with Kelvin, Kunda and Jasper Hing. Took a MRT over and meet up with Sulaiman at Changi Airport's MRT Station. Hahaha we walked around here and there, exploring the airports and all, wahahah, will post the photos right here.

































Taking a breather outside.







*omg, i realise i forgot to rotate!* (sorry ah)

How's it huh? Well, we'll be heading over to terminal 3 after that, well, photos will be up. Hmmmm, now i'll blog down my thoughts and all here bah. Actually i wanna emo de. But...oh well, sighs, went over to the open air for a breather every now and then. *sighs* Hmmmm, looks like the days in poly not only contribute to my knowlegde. But to the stress as well. A friggin' large amount. Well i'm aware that poly needs alot of self disicipline and all, but well as a student i'm not doing anything else hmmmmmmm. I'm not studying and all also. *sighs* Anyways, i've been thinking of alot of stuff and all, well. Aiya, hope that things can work out in time to come. Ohh well, anyways what are the odds of bumping into Rui En here ah ? NO LUCK CURRENTLY =( Hmmmmm, alright, shall up the photos of terminal 3 and all later!

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went out for a breather not long after, well the moon's really settling down here.





the night is still kinda young when i took this, well got alil' emotional when i took the shoot.

wahaha, went to CS and chat lor, hahah slack at the airport. Well, never thought time flies faster than planes here! =D wahahaha and before long it's dawn!



Oh yep, and i went to get breakfast with kelv, kunda and jasper hing just now. @ POLAR (:



hmmmmm, and i ordered Mocha too, well not as nice as starbucks (:


probably, before i go, there's something i wanna say.

"Thought things are not what it seems like, you don't have to trust me if you don't want to.
It's totally fine with me,
just ask your heart, and you'll get the answers.
I know somethings can't be force.
But i just wanna let you know, deep down inside.
What is true, it's true.
Afterall, it's just a truth that doesn't seems as it is."

Hmmm, there's alot more when i want to say, but i think it'll be better to keep my thoughts at bay. So i think i'll go off now, well back here with my buddies @ our BASE. (see the photos). Updating later, LIVE!

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wahahha, will update soon!
CHEERS X))))))))))))

SmileS

Well, i'd just reached from after walking back from Chua Chu Kang as we missed the last train. Ohh well, it sure is tiring to carry laptops back. Wahahaha, ohh right, here i am, sitting on my sofa, tapping Las Noches, to blog on (: Hmmmmmm, well woke up early today to have breakfast. As i can't sleep, i decieded to go to LAN to Dota. Kunda came over to find me later and we played together. Kelv join over later, but not for the game. Then after that i head over to meet Jonathan to go to Joel's house. We took 975 over and we'd a hard time finding it. Awwww, we finally reached there (x HAPPY "BE-EARL-ed" BIRTHDAY! Firstly, i really thought that we're leaving early as i'm one of those "special" few that was invited by him. The others were his classmates from secondary school that i'm not close with. Well, his class and my class, thou we're from the same level, we're quite distant. Okay, well i didn't really talk much with those who was from his class =/ awwww.
Well, took a picture with the whole load of boy gangs (x sent by Joel.



Sorry for the unfriendliness. Wahahha, i got counterstrike 1.6 from Jonathan, and the whole load of us where playing on LAN (x i had so much so much fun (: "An Xiao Qian kicks ass right?". Haha, that's a name for my cs nick. She's the name of the role Rui En played in metamorphosis. Well, after that we went head to head in Dota before going our separate ways, while Xian Zheng, Jonathan, Joel and I went over to Chua Chu Kang to meet Sulaiman and Kunda for supper. And there we walked back (x. Anyways, i was still wondering, regarding that lady i saw yesterday. Is she Rui En? *scratches head* Well, well, okay here's one of Rui En's update for you guys. Rui En will be appearing on screen, on Monday @ Channel 8 during 10.30 PM. Do remember to catch her! It's some special show and she'll be appearing as a guest. Any her smile is fucking attractive (X

Anyways, here's message to Joel before i go. Well, HAPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN. Thanks for the drinks that you treat me just now (: special treatment huh? Hahaha, well we alwasy say find one day go out, shop and talk. Seems like we cant find it ehh? Well, i owe u this buddy, here's the deal (x i owe u coffee @ starbucks alright? =D Wahaha, take care. And don't think i give u a paragraph last u good, cos Rui En is BETTER. *giggle*

CHEERS (x

yelloWHITE

半夜　我又失眠　听著DJ放的烂音乐
像在嘲笑我　最近的恋爱不顺利...
dadadadada, ~ wahaha, here's a part of the lyrics from Rui En's song =/ well, it's Tao Yan, a song quite long ago. Hmmmmmm, just that, it's really 半夜 then, 我又失眠, so wel i copied here. So i shall start my entry today shalln't i? Woke up rather early and ohh well, head over to school slowly after getting my breakfast at 8 AM from Macdonald's. Wahahahaha, again i wasn't late! Man, played DOTA for the 3 hours break and my class end at 5 on friday.*sighs* Then went to meet Xian Zheng, Jonathan and Aason to slack till 6 before heading over to photography club. Well, will keep my post rather short for today as i don't see there's a need to stretch today's entry. ohh well, head over for photograhy club, dragging my feet. Well i dont quite like the way the CCA is. And, well i didn't interact much with people out there. It's not that i scare, is i dunwan :D It's my turn to be emo. Ohh wel, head over to the city area to get things off my chest, drumming @ suntec, and guita @ marina. Fuck, i didn't brought my stick over. Suntec's drumsticks sucks. And some indiots spoilt the machine alittle. The sensor pad have to be hit harder =/ screw'em. & oh well well, here's the reason for my title yelloWHITE. Actually i wanna put as YELLOwhite at first. But decides other wise as Rui En kicks ass (: Well, for the yellow part, i've been wearing my usual yellow flesh imp's tee and guess what? peeps ard me are in yellow! wahahahaha, kinda cool when i noticed ehh? & oh gosh today when i was walking around at suntec, i was like thinking to myself. "geez so what are the odds of bumping into Rui En here?". Then from the opposite escalator, there's a lady in white dress, and as she walked pass me, i thought my heart skipped a beat. OMG, SHE LOOK SO RUI EN. IT LIKE TOOK ME AWHILE, A FEW SECONDS OF MY LIFE TO DECIDES WHETHER SHE IS RUI EN OR NOT. OMG, I SWEAR, SUPER RESSEMBLENCE. THE WAY SHE FRIGGIN' SMILE. THOSE RUI EN SMILE. GOSH, i was like stopped walking and just stare. O.O (not sick la), but rather, she got me. haha, i'm losing it once more. She really, looked, like rui en. okok, i wont get so over reacted over this. But, well haha thinking back i was like kinda stupid =/ *stop and stare*. Hahaha, and of course i didn't see ppl walking over to her and say "can i have your autograph" wahahaha okay, that's all for today. I'm specially invited to Joel Lim's birthday tomorrow and i'll blogged abt it (: ahhh pictures! hope i'm hardworking to post some.

CHEERS (x

biz

Oh well, back here blogging after watching the 9 PM show @ channel 8, 变奏曲 Rhythm Of Life . Wahaha, seriously i wonder why it caught my eye. Actually, i watched it purposely to "divert" myself from thinking abt wanting to study. Wahahahahhaha! Awwww, anyways, Jeanette Aw look good in her make up in there (: But Rui En is better la *fingers crossed*.
Here's a web i came across.

http://forum.mediacorp.com.sg/board/showthread.php?threadid=15993

so which is better, Rui or Jean? *ehem*

Okay, anyways, i'm blogging so early mainly because i'd just received a news from my fellow classmate. Well, there's no PAC test tmr, time to sleep late and slack! And time to let my thoughts run wild. Hey hey hey, *puase* not sexually please (: thou i seemed childish and what, i got my mature and emotional side (: Ok, so today i went for my IS modules. sighs as boring as ever (:

and i went back home with Ee Ling, after meeting my buddies up at the atrium. Wahahahha, then i went back to bathe and all before heading back to school at 5 plus to attend the business event. Wee!

& we went home after that, turning back i watched the ch 8 show, slacked and well chat up with people. Haha, c'mon sam! join us for TEC Quiz tomorrow! it'll be fun!

RONNIE'S QUOTE
"looks changes over time, but a soul lasf for a lifetime (:" Came up this quote whilte talking to libing, thanks :D

hmmmm will be going off after chatting =D seeya' and, well, if anyone of u guys are board, google Rui En =D
CHEERS (X

time

Well, i'm back from school, enjoying the aircon in my room right now. Geez, it's really cold =/ Ohh well, shall start my entry. Woke up rather early today, but decided to slack on my bed till 8 before i went over to prepare. After knowing the "trick" i went on to Ngee Ann along with those seniors. Well, i found out that in the 8.30 bus and all, was filled with seniors. Wahahaha, seems that i started going to school late already! Ohh well, it began pouring before i leave my blog, and i curse the weather as i have to take a long detour to Senja Lrt. Tuned in to perfect 10, 987 FM while on 184. Time really flies when i'm on radio (: Oh well, and dan and young was like, hoping that it rains today. Gosh, they should come over to Ngee Ann. Haha, today is the first "heavy rain" day in my poly days (so far). The canals are flooded and so on. And i have to take a detour again, linking the shelters. and finally reach my destination. Saw Roy, ohh well, hello! Went our separate ways on the stairs. Well, the 3 hours in IDS sure do pass fast. And i take the time to secretly do the POA quiz. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA 100% on first attempt! Thank You BROTHERS! (P.S. i nvr study). Ohh well, then it was TEC lecture. And i slept through the whole lecture AGAIN. I'm really wasted. Ohh well, headed for food during the 1 hour break before our MES Practical. Welcome to the gang Samuel! Wahaha, MES ended early today. 1 hour EARLY. Omg, i simply love attending MES, cos' they nvr dismiss late, only EARLY =D So i headed backhome straight, as i was kinda tired today. & sighs, there's sports and wellness tomorrow. Geez, this kinda suck. Alright, shall blog on ltr.

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just got back, head to school (West Spring) again to chat up with my secondary sch mates. Wahaha, miss'em. And chat with some of my teacehrs. & OMG, i cant believe i actually chatted with Ms Victoria Chong. LOL! Wahahahahaha, thanks for the advice Victoria, i'l work hard towards it. (maybe?) Haha, went over to Lot one to get a bag before heading back to WSSS again. And, lastly, HOME SWEET HOME. @#^& S&W tmr, sighs, the destination is so far away, and i'm so lazy. Plus the vigourous training =/ wahahaha, SPARE ME COACH, I STILL YOUNG, DUNWAN TO DIE. Ohh well, dropping to slumber early today (:

CHEERS :D & PLS NO MORE HARSH TRAINING TMR *prays*
- AND i'm patiently waiting for Rui En's new album (:

tongue tied.

fuck, was tongue tied =/ Ohh well, what can i say? Anyways...*sighs* forget it, time will tell. Was back home after hanging out at school, SECONDARY SCHOOL. Ok, back to the morning, i woke up at 6.15 AM, but however, i planned to nap abit more, maybe like 15mins? But what i saw next is, the time is friggin, 7.46 AM. I shot out of my bed and went over to prepare, and left my house with an empty stomach. Get some snacks before entering the LT. Whoa, made it in time. Anyways, after forcing myself to be awake for the last MES lesson, the usual gang of 5 (My brothers ^^) head over canteen one for a tiny weeny treat before suffering another 3 hours in IDS. Head over to canteen one before heading off to the library myself, i saw Aason and we both head off back to West Spring to meet Razak. Jonathan, Derrick and Sulaiman joined us later. Nothing much today actually, but i daresay a milion thoughts was still on my mind, unchanged.

Well, for today, it's kinda enjoyable (: and i'm here to post some photos before i go off =D Hmmm, suppose i did nothing much today, so i'll compensate today's entry will photos alrighty? Haha, at West Spring, the place where students have their detention, we invade in and play abit (: and with camera, there goes our picture!







Haha, i was playing with my slide phone over there =D WEE~ (FYI, i'm the chinese in white =x)
ohh well, emo-teens =D 4B, well i'll always miss you guys. ALWAYS. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THE BITCHES, BASTARDS, AND SHI YUN the ANGEL *raise eyebrow*

CHEERS(: ,4B RAWK ON~

inside

ohh well, actually the supposingly title should be, yellow fellow, or hmmmm PAC fellow. Ohh screw, down with this new title and here i go. Guess it's 1 plus in the morning, and i'll need Mocha tomorrow again. COFFEE KEEPS ME AWAKE...

Woke up rather early, and made my way to NP after breakfast for my CAD (Computer Aided Design) class. Hmmmmm, it end early and my gang and i went off to DOTA =D ,awwww shucks, 4 hours of PAC later on...
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well, cracked a funny joke in class that got my gang laughing so i think i'll share with you guys. It's lame.

[Felix took out his PAC homework and start to rush in class before the teacher come]

Ronnie: Oi, u say dunwan do one, now u pia =.=

Felix: Then ni pei me pia also la, last min mah

Ronnie: Wahhh, u now hug buddha leg, now want me pei u hug, we both hug buddha leg, buddha how to walk sia.

[laughters]

* well there's it =/
and over with it after the last 2 hours of lecture, i went over the library to meet up with Jonathan & Randolph. Saw my CATS-mate while waiting for Xian Zheng. Well, we didn't talked much, just merely smiled (: Head over to subway @ BP for a FULL dinner. Went back later and i was slacking, stoning in front of my laptop again. Was doing my PAC stuff until the conversation with Debbie began. Ohhh well, looks like age doesn't matter isn't it? (Well, don't angry if you've seen this, cause' i wont blow your secret. Trust me!). Haha, went down for a walk and a vision break, before going back to my studies. Sighs, wasn't going smooth, the friggin' T-accounts gave me this emotion... T.T wahahha. And after that, went to blog hop alil' before i went to post my own very very entry. Well, saw something that made me changed my personal message to "after the long run, i'd realise. It's the heart and the inside that counts". Ohhh well, how true can this get. Remember what i'd told you Debbie? =x Say 3 years down the road...*blah blah blah* ohh well, i'm just keeping my fingers crossed. Nothing in particular anyways =D haha.

-hey asshole (: get this in your head. you better don't try anything funny. Cos' somethings it is better for you to be an ass and know nothing then to shafted the fucking truth into you head. We're cool (:

CHEERS (:

OHHH! forgets to tell you guys. *clears throat* WEST SPRING 4B GUYS, WE'LL BE MEETING UP REAL SOON OKAY? REMEMBER HOW WE PLAYED WITH THE FIRE AND BOMB-PACKS DURING O LEVELS' PERIOD? THERE'S AN ENCORE THIS YEAR, NEXT YEAR. AND THERE WILL ALWAYS BE... *bow and walks off*

*runs back* haha, why suddenly stop posting about Rui En huh? =x ohhh well, i'm not so fierce abt her anyways =D, But obiviously, she's still the ONE. wahahaha, will give you guys updates tmr, cos' this post is kinda errr...polluted *points up*. Ohh well =D

CHEERS AGAIN (:
P.S. this is for Rui En la!

determine

BEFORE I START, I'LL LIKE TO WISH ALL MOTHERS IN THE WORLD, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY. For a start, i'd like to post what i've bought for my mum yesterday. Here's it.



Ohhh well, actually i did thought of a very meaningful title for my blog title, but ohh well, however i kinda forgotten what i'd thought of initailly. I decided to typed down my entry before my forgetfulness pisses me off. So, today i woke up late, due to yesterday. It's the start of a new day and i'm craving for fun already. Meet up with Kunda and Jasper Hing late, and we head off to Queensway to get Kunda's new shoe. And how could i forgot Kelvin! He met us at Queensway itself after having a mothers' day "celebration" with his family. Went back to Bukit Panjang Plaza's Mac for a quick bite, slacking and also to catch up with another 2 dear 'o friends of ours. Razak and Jonathan. Wahahhahahhaha, well guess it's like talking about the old times now. Miss West Spring lots. Hmmmmm, Soon we departed, each walking their own ways, and Jon going to Jasper Hing's house for a soccer match and meanwhile i walked with Razak. Well, another pal of mine, we've been sharing alot of stuff lately and well, thou we're not that close from the outside, but we sure do hit off well isn't it? Well, was reading an article of Rui En recently and suddenly i was reminded of her while posting, guess i'll bring it up. Hmmmmm, she'd some characteristic with her mum, so i was like wondering how she'll celebrate mothers' day. Haha, i'll post a music videos of hers here i suppose. Titled "Tao Yan".

Rui En - Tao Yan



Well, good luck to Rui En for her coming album. Don't worry *wink* i'll get the original and won't download (:
CHEERS (:

off the Ring.

I'm aimlessly surfing websites, clicking here and there. I cant really describe what i want to happen to happen, but i guess nothing could helps how i feel now. Well, okay. I guess it's really time for me to picked up my face before i'm too late for anything. Well, i've really spent my 3 weeks like a retard, wasting my time off and all, well looks like it's time to make things meaningful, ain't it? So, here it goes. Might share my timetable out here someday =D, and do keep a look out!.

Woke up rather early today, and i've got breakfast delivered to my room. Sweet! arigato gozaimasu. And i'm off to slumber after my breakfast. Woke up late, and rush to prepare. Meet kelv and kun down at plaza at 3 sharp. Actually not very sharp, it's like 3.20. Head off straight to the bus-stop, and took 960 to Marina Square. I'm not feeling myself today, as in...It's as if my sub-consciousness is slowly taking over my soul, and it drifted and glide slowly, taking my body over. Well, i could barely made up how i feel as and when today, i couldn't catch any specifc details where i could really describe down here. It's like a blurry day today. I could barely feel myself. Went over to KFC and had a meal, and met up with Sulaiman. Jasper Hing joined us when we're over at suntec city. The same old place, STAR FACTORY. I heaved a sigh, as i slowly walked into the virtual areana, filled up noisy machines, that went babbling non-stop. The random flashy colour lights distract me further. I cursed myself every sec i moved a step around. I moodlessly navigate my sight over to where the DrumMania machine was placed. Suddenly i felt a rushing sensation over me. The machine is back! This time, it's cheaper by $0.50. I went over to play. Well, drumming have been one of my favourite past times, and i could feel that when i'm drumming, i'm somehow destressing. The beats of the sounds pound my stress flat. The noise when in my head, squashing the meaningless thoughts in my head. Thoughts about, my personal problems and all. Sometimes i do really asked myself. "How well do you know Ronnie, Ronnie." I guess a couple of self improvement books during the term break could help. I'm seriosuly losing it, and i was at my wit end. I lived through the poly age, lifelessly, wondering how could i survive for this year and all. I know i should've made best of what i have right now and move on. But somehow, there's alot of invisible force hindering me. I jammed my stress away with those noisy songs, shaking my head as if in a trance but enjoyuing the music. Saw Jin Yi (aka my shi fu) there, chat abit, and played with him (: well, i don't regret making friends with him as he's from outside. Know him accidentally i'd say! Left him after that to catch up with my buddies, take care jin yi =D We then head over back to raffles to get mothers' day gift. Zayar arrived soon later and we head on to Clarke Quay for alil' supper before heading home. It's past 12, already sunday. Happy Mothers' Day.

CHEERS(:

club, lack of a point

well, well. Just back from FRESH! dance party. Well, i won't deny that it's not fun but i can't say it's totally no bored and all. Hmmmmm, for those who'd really like to catch a glimpse of clubbing life, well i think you've just missed it.

Today haven been going on well as i woke up rather late. Ohh man, 7.30 AM. Cursing that i wasn't compensate by any nice dreams or anything, i quickly picked up my pace, choose a random tee after my shower and off i go! Well, reach the school and all, and went for my lesson. Well well, it's rather rushed. I head to meet my teacher today, then rush to do my quiz. I didn't check and i made a careless mistake, causing me to get 9 out of 10. For the first time! I really felt as if i've lost my virginity in getting less than ten. I was so fucking cursing.

WEnt to FRESH! dance party. Well, know a few new friends. Chilled out with the usuals back at KAP mac before heading back home.
CHEERS (:

special

well, was surfing web for fun when i saw this video, haha she's none other than my idol, Rui En. Enjoy!



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haha, okay back to my day, well had IS today. Hmmmm, then went over to find Xian Zheng and co. after my IS. wahahhaha. well, shalln't say too much =D went home after that and i went back to NP by 5 for my cca meeting, nth much for today, well thou i've alot to say, but not really in a mood lah. Well, what else hmmm? the senior are cool! period. Well, they way they talk and all, friendly and easy to interact with ^^

CHEERS (:

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nth much happen ytd, well, went to slack then go back. Life's rather busy lately, and my mind have been loaded with alot more things then blogging most of the time. Sorry, will post more asap.
CHEERS(=

harold

ohh well, just back from outside. Today's just a plain'o day. Waited till 5 for buddies @ NP and then we head over to subway for dinner! wahhaa, was discussing about harold and kumar. Omg for my short entry, i just cant wait to advertise this movie! well, the site is @ http://www.haroldandkumar.com/ haha, it's friggin' funny. Well, here's the short cut for it's trailer.



oh my god. Haha, anyways i wish to settle down my life. i'm walking so fast that i cant even stop and admire the scenery (: hope things will get better as days pass =D. CHEERS ^^

after 5

Well, actually wanted to play warcraft 3 up on my laptop, but i guess it's better to blog on here than to play game for now. Sighs, was effin' bored, so bored that i've nothing to do, so i resorted to blogging. Well, this brings me to the history of my blog. Well, i started blogging due to boredom. Wanna killed it so much hmmmm. Okay, back to my entry, well today i woke up early and tears of fatique stream down my weary eyes as i yawn again and again. I kept closing my eyes and before i could got up of my bed, mum switched on the lights and the sudden piercing brightness pierced through the gaps of my eyes, lighting up the visual darkness in my pupils. I got up reluctantly, got my breakfast, then went back for a short nap again. Well, it does last for quite long as it was already 7.25AM when i woke up. I dragged my feet across the living room, threw the towel over my head, and head on for my shower. Yep, the comfort of the cold water woke me up alittle as i let the coldness take me. "Shiok". I head out then, still with blurry vision. well, i saw quite alot of familiar faces on the way today. At the cross junction, i saw Limin and Christine, and also Hafiz (my pri. 6 best friend). Ohh well, the feelings of secondary school was far gone, but the memories are still fresh in my mind. Well the 184 queue was long, and we are to stand. *sighs* And guess who i saw later on? Derrick and Ee Ling!Wahaha. And on we head for NP. The bus ride was a tired one, and before long we've reached NP and were to go on our separate ways. Now i'm sitting at the library, after my CAD lesson and i'm having a 4 hours PAC lesson from 1 to 5 later on. Good luck for me. Will cont. blogging ltr on.

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Back, just done wtching the vagrant (bao zi dan) on channel 8. Will be dropping into my bed soon. Well, head over for my PAC lesson, ohh gosh i have to brush up already! well, btw guess how early i release today? It was like 4.17 PM. Whoa, uber cool! Meet Aaron, who was Derrick's classmate and a few brothers of mine. Slack and go home lor. well, WSSS brothers, still got contact each other =D sounds cool yea? hmmmm, and then i went home =D so slack, kunda came over to my hse after that to get some movies. Then i stayed up all the way. Poly's busy ain't it? *yawn*

CHEERS (:

happiness

anyone know how to gauge whether one deserve happiness or bliss? Well, there's someone i don't know but saw. Well this person, is a nice person, but her life wasn't going on so well rather. She's having a rough time hmmmmmmm. Ohhh well, you guys might have wonder what hit me that cause me to mention a lady in my blog. But it's just some random topic that i'm chatting on with my friends that got me thinking. Ohh well, tick tick tick goes my brain and it winded me back to the times when i heard her story. It was never told to much people, but i'll just keep my lips seal just in case any misunderstanding or "wut" leaked out or anything hmmm. Of course her name's not going anywhere, but i would like to blog this down as my blog had been rather empty lately. Well, on my way home, as we were walking back from Chua Chu Kang. I slowly dragged my feet behind, with the tempo of random rustling of the leaves. The road'd better been empty and our chattering trails down the quiet pavement. It's a sunday night and i guess most of them had already been at home now, rushing their school work, revising, and well maybe checking out the latest animes and things like that. My day wasn't going good today, as i'm those kinda guys who can't sleep early at night. My thoughts ran across anything that i could've think of. (that's not the point) ohh well, woke up at 8 plus and i lazily stretch my back. I felt like a pig for once as i throw my heavy self onto my chair, and use my laptop. Watch Byousoku 5 Centimeter again. It's a nice show, about short love stories that is about distance. Well, if you guys got read my blog, i'm a kinda rather alot alot alot (fucking lot) based on romance, emotions and sensitive person. Hah! doesn't seems like it ain't it? Well, surprisingly, this show gave me the feelings which i got similar to koizora. Ohh well, though it'd been rather long sinced i mentioned abt it in my blog, it's still fresh in me. Man, must get the show. So after that, i head over to lot one with Kunda to meet up with Razak, Sulaiman and Jasper Hing. when there slack, drum, then we BP Rangers (except sulaiman) walked home. Just a plain 'o day hmmmm. Okay, i think i'll just wrapped up now. I'll be on and off lately, as in, either it's a 3 sentence post, or a long chunk'o words. Thanks for reading anyways.
CHEERS (:

overnight

well, sighs, back again. Kinda gotten high. Guys, gimme a week hmmm, somehow still cant get over it. Will mostly be back to blogging probably the following monday =D.
CHEERS.

RED %

well, don't underestimate those title, everyone of'em have got a meaning ya' know!? Ohh well, was slacking at my house with Xian Zheng, so i decided to spend time blogging my thoughts for today. Well, been a tough day ain't it? Well, had a 3 hours break after my MES tutorial and TEC lectures! SIGHS! ohh well, i swear to god that i'm sleeping and not paying attention. Well, yea, we kinda slacked till it's 11 plus. Well, kinda cool as we talked almost everything, even football (: Hah, weird ain't it? Ohh well, looks like i'm gonna sleep late today again.

CHEERS (:

w910i

Ohh well, i'm back again, well my W910i is charging right now yep (: Ohh well, i merely got it mainly because my plan is up and i'm changing to another service operator. Well, woke up pretty late in the afternoons and i rushed over to Plaza Singapura to meet my mum. As i'm changing to StarHub, i run an errand for my dad by helping him to change the SCV *T-Box and get a new remote. Ohh well, sighs, it's labour day and the crowd is unbearable. Upon reaching there, we decided to go over to B2 and fix my dad's stuff first. Ohh well, so i reluctantly threw my bag over to the counter to get a queue number. Whoa, luckily i only need to wait for 2 more customers only. Ohh well, was glancing over to the coutners after a 10 minutes, like what's taking so long? Well, i then went over to take a glance and all. Finally it's my turn, i'm suppose to go over and i bluring checked against the paper, then dragged my feet over. But i was caught by surprise, omg! guess what, the lady serving me, looked like RUI EN?! omfg =D actually that did brighten up my day abit LOL =x *fingers crossed* i'm not sick or of any sort. Just that...(talked abt it next time) WAHHH! And, ahh! how i envy the way she speaks, her delicate voice in perfect english! ohh fuck, that's what i wanna achieve. & i got her name =D FAYE. lol =x

After that, went on to get my phone, and we're waiting for fucking long for it. Took 190 home after that. WELCOME HOME W910i! WELCOME TO THE TAN FAMILY =D.
CHEERS (: