A

btw. just realize that G3 is my number 888 post.
HUAT AH!

***

it hasn't change.
it always never..
why would i always get an inevitable insomnia when i'm going to meet you the following day?

G3

Today...
well there's a number of shit that crops up every now and then today.

only good thing?
G and clocking up to 4 hours worth of sleep.
& not getting caught for being late.

seems like i'd been missing all of my bus today.
seeing them leave the bus stop right in my face just makes me feel fucking dulan.

---

down to HV,
coffee talks. quiet. nua.com

***

been procrastinating for quite sometime
yes,
quite sometime
about all the post that i'd missed.
oh fuck

&(*&^$#(*&*&^!(*@#@!


back to HV,
guess that's the highlight of the day and night.
met G for coffee,
my first expensive coffee of the year.
yes, coffee bean,
just cant bring myself to reject G since i'd been putting him off for quite sometime :x
so there we go,
sitting there, lazing around the usual talk,
it'd always been the same o' topic.
and i think we really never get bored out of it.
 "such is life"
and come to think of it, we're both so different,
coming in from different world,
threading on different social link,
yet he come to me like an old friend,
i know you're reading this, and yes you got me D:
& yes, i'm still gonna say it.
this new glow embracing you, i'll say it's definitely of something good. this would be what completes your best suit.
G had evolved. Literally, this new glow,
and of course, the atmosphere today is less depressing. i'm sure we all will find what we seek.

thank you for tonight,
everything,
how our social link build on restless nights
thank you steam

been neglecting quite alot of my social links and,
i didn't want it to be left there, collecting cobwebs.
the walls of our room is crumbling.
yet we sat there, sipping coffee watching things burn.. with a weak smile on our face.

***

topped up my card,
$20, and the lady accidentally keyed in $50.
MANAGER ONLY COME OVER BEFORE I LEFT.
WTFKNNCCBDULAN, felt that i just lost $30.

***

afterall,
it's home. home.
 

NIN9

happiest saturday of the year, so far!
i can go to duty tomorrow feeling happy already,
although my room is in quite abit of a mess right now.
did quite an amount of spring cleaning, vacuuming, wiping.
and finally i'd did something splendid once again in a very long time.

digged out my antique hifi set, and an idea pop in my mind.
there i go, cutting wires, twisting and plugging it in.
and yes, before i know it, i'd made myself a 6 speakers output system.
& i'm very proud of it :D

topped it off, i manage to make contact with the owner of kpopexplorer who acknowledge me being the first few and longest supporter. kpopexplorer is a site where i manage to expand my music tastebuds, korean indie are simply too beautiful to resist.

Lucite Tokke
Taru
Standing Egg
Windy
Raspberry Field

and many more...

***

watched a movie that i'd been wanting to catch since a long time.
9.



stunning graphics, guess i expected alittle too much from the film. But still, hurray to tim burton :D
however, little did i know, 9 is actually a creation by a student called Shane Acker

9 short film from Shane Acker on Vimeo.

a wonderful short film, but u cant view it here. just google it up (:
it was nominated for an award, but it lost to another short film, the moon and the son.
do check it out.







duty tomorrow, sigh duty tomorrow..

snake

Thursday.

i touched a python.

i watched a movie.

feels like friday.

duty on sunday.

completed limbo.


korean movie: hello ghost (english subs)



please please, if you have time to spare, watch this movie.
love the twist. love the movie.
casual, funny, touching, epic and beautiful.
another 4.5/5

would recommend this to anyone i know.

Rmb

I looked at your face again, one last time before turning away.
Monday have been kind. Very kind. Still surreal, back in camp with my comrades, fighting war. Staying as positive, as possible.

Work all day round, indeed, a busy worker have no time to be sad.
So what if we fall out at 6.20pm, nth new right?

Before I knew it, I'm holding onto the red plastic bag with my take away Econ rice, swinging away towards my home. And I made a difference, I didn't order my favorite fries today. And on my way to your place after that. My precious social link. The one whom I sought a future with. We did. Nothing, except feeling cozy, lazy on the couch while watch a movie off my iPad.

A moment to remember,

Touching, real touching. An underrated beautiful movie. It's on par with koizora I swear.

I won't wanna forget you..


Sent from my iPad

Wae

Rainy Sunday.
I woke up.
8am.. I blinked afew times before confirming this is not a dream.
I felt.. Reborn. I felt like shit..
Why..
I have no reasons to drink,
No troubles that's worth confiding in alcohol.
I have a nice warm family, a brother that loves me deep inside just as much as I love him. A couz whom I spend my life with as blood brother. Not to mention, I have the best gf in the world.
Brothers who will stood by me through thick and thin, even though we're not really connected in our mind but we still have telepathy. Especially V, we're always so close, yet so far. But again, we're still awkwardly similar in our own way. And Y, 11years down into brotherhood. That's about half of my life now. We grew up together, head down to town and pasar ris since we're pri 6, we emo today, we live through the discman days. Chinos, beverage slacking and pool. We did them all, even before we went to secondary school.
This couldn't go on forever, but also afew more brother sprinkled around here and there. You guys should know who you'll be.
***
Isn't that what life should be?
My life should be..?
Taking alcohol out of the equation, just me, and my love ones. Catching flicks at my place, usual pizza party, lan games and kkm. Talking about our dreams and bathing in our past glories, not forgetting cruising at town, people watch, shopping. Simple, yes. Very simple. Why would I be wasting stash, burning notes for poison?
This strange potion, that drug your mind, purge your heart. I think.. I just had enough of this. I breaks my heart when I see me breaking yours.
***
Seeing your refreshes my mind.
Seeing you makes me smile.
Seeing u takes away whatever bad inside me.
We then head out, for our first date of the year. Hand in hand, we stroll down to town. How long have it been? I really missed us. It'd been so long since I last hold your hands, I almost lost it. Madness.
We caught a flick, at the usual cinema. Cineleisure, town have certainly gone through a lot of changes. But we haven. This place, flooded with memories, although my 32MB memory only allows me to put my finger on Alice in Wonderland, and Due Date. The good ol days where we came out during weekdays and ninja student price.
Snuggling on the cheapo couple seat and digging our fingers furiously into the box of popcorn.

The impossible.

If you think 127 hours is gory enough, then you haven seen this shit. Brutally haunting. Yet a touch of beauty. It's a beautiful film, really. I swear we couldn't have finish the food if we eat any slowly. This flick's a total heart wrecker. Lady behind us crying like her father's funeral. A solid 4.5/5. True story.
And we ate like dinosaurs.
Menu
- bee hoon
- best fries forever
- large popcorn combo
- baked rice
- soup
- pizza
- pasta
So wanna take a gun and shoot myself.
alas, every dream have to end, we made our way back. I'm feeling more depress than ever. Wish time can even slow down or stop, for a moment. How long a moment, I don't know.
Comes monday, here we go again..

thirst

Nothing beats an impromptu lan session with my army social link. We got like what? Ten over people? It's a fucking crowd I know, even thou we all play different games, it's still pretty much enjoyable despite losing 2 consecutive rounds in the league. They really should be more strict on the anti-leaver system.

Kards and decisions

I reluctantly put on my pt kit, the slipping into my smart 4. No more slacky weekdays, standing there using my phone when the crowd drones. My officer had flipped down all the cards, leaving us only with the one and only.

Wednesdays and any other odd weekdays, we're gonna be back to participating live activities. Let me try enjoy this once more.. I hope?

*i began to hasten my pace and head back to my house. Fuck, I'm alrdy nearing my bus stop. Just realized that I'd forgotten my shoes. Fuck.
Ran back for my size 9.5 and ran down the grassy slope.

Manage to skip live activities as they ran out of bands to issue. Huat~



Nothing exuberant, just mundane.
Sitting by the medical centre while the tv drones on..

Fucking dog, why are u so anal.
I won't curse your parents. Your parents are far better off without you.

Made the best out of the worst and I had my first roti john of the year with vash. Huat ah!

***

You're slipping away,
Yes you're slipping away.
U kept your anchors to my dismay
You're gone from the fray.
While I stood by the bay.

TUES

Tuesday came like any other tuesday would.

But I felt that I no longer know u anymore.

140113

Monday.
I woke up before my alarm did the job.
I drift back to sleep again,
Woke up by my alarm again,
Set my usual 3 minutes countdown timer and laze on my bed.

Did the usual preparing.
& I tried to make myself feel refresh..?
Slow walk down the flight of stairs.
Down the grassy slope.
Monday. I never really hate it until now. And it obviously wasn't so bad back in school.

Click.

Was totally looking forward to my halfday..
Sigh.. Guess wearing green in a place filled with negative energy didn't really give me much to look forward to already..

We're all crazy and we have our own way of dealing with stuff.. like the late fall out that made us missed all the bus.


Click.

Back home after all the fucking and off I go. Sprinkling magic.
CZ12 with my boys. My couz and vash.

Hilarious. Just hilarious, like any other jackie chan's movie. Pocketed another movie this week. After the movie, I don't really feel like going home just yet, so we decided to help couz look for his lost cat. It'd been 2 days since the icon of the house gone missing and I guess his sis must be devastated. We combed nearby estates, stick posters and what not. I'm not tying to try this new experience, obviously not when I'm suppose to be wishing for smth happen so I can help. But it certainly felt different. Taking walks around the estate, weather's too our advantage, chilly windy nights. Looking at bushes, blocks.

Were happily pasting the posters before we just got caught by the police. Owww! Busted D:

B

i'm not judging, but surely u gonna do this to me?

TS

Quiet lazy Sundays. Lazing on bed and waving my limbs under the warmth of my blanket. I should be cuddling with my love one today. It's a fucking crime to be stoning by my desktop while letting a movie drones on.

And lunch. It wasn't that great nor was it that bad. Just got 2 pokemon badge from beating the gyms. Huat~

Cleared an old flick off my com titled Fired Up.
It certainly didn't really got me fired up as I'm drifting thru the movie. But do you believe in signs? Signs that lead u to something. Like the "Jeff who lives at home" sign. I get them too..

Went out to fajar for a temple visit with richard and robin. Apparently we borrowed luck from a god and it's a chinese tradition thing. We're sectioned in the 12 zodiac cycle and each year, some of these zodiac might required to borrow luck to smoothen their year which might turn out bad. So basically we're there to give thanks, or we call it return the favour.

First time in years since I kinda participated in major temple activities. But getting 10 buffs from 10 different gods? Awesome. Back to the sign story, as I entered the temple, i first looked for Guan Gong, the deity and symbol of brotherhood. Soz, it just grew in me. (What's that movie again? The one that the police force who wanted to take away the idols, but reinstate them later after something happened? Hk movie).
Stations are labelled and the number of incense to equip at each stations are shown. For the past half an hour I reckoned three of us had fun and we ended our day after ringing the bell and shouting HUAT AH

Fly day

Huff huff huff huff..
I broke into a sprint the moment I saw the red man truned green, down the flight of stairs and onto the road, and I had my second set not long after I saw my bus from afar, I actually jumped over the mini railing, and sprinted down the grassy slope. Zig zag-ed across the other few people. And ran up the bus. I was late.
Panting non stop on the bus, I thought I'm dying. But then again, I might not hurt to give a fuck after all. It isn't all that bad either. I used to be laid back fuck. 730 and I could be strolling down the slope, but it doesn't last for long. Caught before I know it. Guess ultimately we know who we're at war against.

---

I stayed up late the night before. With my brother. Yes, my dearest blood brother. Apparently it's the day O levels results were released. A day where countless students are one step closer to their dreams, ironically also a day where judgment is hail upon to crush the dreams of many others.
My brother, an intelligent boy. Not lazy as me. His compo ideas, awesome. Mine? Romance..? Beautiful simplicity in dream land? But I swore I'd grown up over the years, and that's when all the darkness had caught up with me. Guess after all I'd put up a good act for my parents. They always thought I'm good. But.. I'm just cunningly wicked.
There we are, goofing around, laughing at the good old days I had, we had. Skipping lectures, skipping tutorial. I'd achieve quite afeat as well. Like passing the paper with 70% worth of marks remaining in the module as my 30% got burnt.
Let's not forget all the wonderful nerd slacking in the library, watching flicks and playing games. Life of the fucking engineer, suck thumb when you couldn't get any :( Engineer is just about the least vibrancy you could get. I complained a lot of my lecturers you know.
"Cher, si bei sian la, poly where got vibrancy?"
"Where don't have?"
"Look at the class, boh swee eh leh"
"Aiya, go out there know lor"
"we also under engineering school, where got real estate business put under engineering school de? Learn about cockroach somemore. Lidat machiam playing with our future leh"
& guess my prayer came sort of late. A year or 2 after I graduated. Real Estate Business was officially moved to the school of business, a vibrant society filled with intelligent babes and clever bimbos. Oh wells..

--

Can't help but felt that whether had a made the right choice back in my poly days. In my choice of poly, and also company. I chose this myself, even built my own clique. We might not be the same, we might not get as much vibrancy, but we're the best of friends. Brotherhood forged under this furnace for 3 years. Joy, laughter. And we did a lot of badass stuff which I rather not list it all out. I could have been with the nerds, point wars, perspective cross fire, and I might have graduated with a better GPA.
But guess it all boils down to your own individual and let's not bathe in "what could have been" shall we?

---

"Zendagi Migzara..."
took me quite awhile to finish the kite runner, but yet.. It's awfully beautiful.
Not that pessimistic anymore, not that paranoid and sensitive anymore. I know that I can't take them away as some of it would remain.

---

Friday. Day finally over. Wasn't struggling through it thou. Somehow I'm already numb to this routine. Guess this is what humans are ultimately good at, getting numb.
On my bus home, after another sprint that would bring me home at least 15 minutes early.
It is however another slow Friday. Happening? Ah, it's not happening. Been long ever since I touch alcohol, let alone a can of beer. Guess I'm back again, slow weekends cruising around town, with a few of my guys, talking cock, babe gazing. Computer games and kkm. Or even a day at home, with packet dinner and movies.
Ahhh. Fridays shld be like this..no?

grim 080111

My world just came crashing down on me..
sigh..











----

why are we?
dressed in green,
under the mercy of man of many stripes

alright, happy stuff!
POKEMON X & Y ARE COMING!
NEW SERIES, NEW ADVENTURE! <3 p="p">


i'm a 100% pokey fan and guess this is the best thing that happened to me today.
huat. can't wait.

Week:Duo

From a runnable distance, I walked slowly as I watch two of my buses left before me. I'm lazy to run anymore.. Tired? Probably.. I walked slowly down the grassy slope as the bus trailed pass me along this beeline of never ending traffic...

Monday, again, back to work. Blue? It would be. My week is generally good. Contented. Back to clicking, I peered around the bus for familiar faces. That handful of JC boys and girls have graduated. I saw them studying so hard, reading notes while trying to balance on the bus. Oh yea, back to school. Back to squeezing with students, fighting for bus with those naïve kids who still had got no fucking idea what the fuck is installed for them in the not so far future.

So many things on hand, so little time.
Click. Click click.
all over again.
Sprinkled magic and Food for thoughts keeping me sane through the weeks.

***

A nice nap during lunch. Beautiful and twisted. 3 levels of layer in
The dreams. And I'm senile in the deepest layer. For that hour, I felt what is it like to forget something, immediately or to ask something again right where u start off.

Ironically I can still remember the dream, so fuck this shit. But I forgot the rest of the details :x

***
Had a good ol' after camp talk with G. Sighs. We're all drifting with the wind.

Day went well and seems like the only bad think that the only thing that sucked is when I forgot to tap out my ezlink. CheeBye. can claim back anot :(

萱

Finally, a day out at town, walking through the crowded orchard filled with people. Guess everyone just wanna make their last day worthwhile doesn't it. Groups of young girls, having their own photo shoots, guys sharing their clubbing session last night, and of course, family day for some of them.

I'm glad I'm out. Not lazing my Sunday at home. My day started not that early, woke up at 1.30 as I turned in late the night before. Guess it's just Y and I. Head out, window shopping, pizza.

Guess we're both pretty much too traditional when I comes to girls. Can't accepting guys treating women like objects, no?

Long walks and random conversation before ending our day with the latest mac's prosperity burger meal.
Huat~

***

I cast my boat out into my seas of thoughts
Reach out my hands, throw out the nets into the waters
Fleeting dreams slipping through the tiny boxes.
& it is empty.

Unfri

Totally doesn't felt like friday today. Woke up super late, totally hit a new low..

Tbh I don't even mind going to camp tomorrow. I wanna drown myself? I don't know.. Just feel lost.

***

Computing human logic and rationism. Maybe it will be something a hermit like me will never understand.

Society had been flying with the winds of change for so long and things are definitely different now. Girls having sex behind their boyfriends and guy doing the same too. I don't know man, thinking about it just sort of suffocates me. It just bothers me.. Hmmmm..?

I enjoy funny sex topics with my boys also, but sometimes, seeing boys talking about girls like they're some sort of objects just made me think twice about my general impression of them. Well maybe it's because of gender equality that sluts might be considered an overstatement to some..

Tbc?

Far Cry 3

Far Cry 3.



you dropping onto the island whereby there's an ongoing war between 2 sides. You and your friends are caught, but somehow u manage to escape.A tribe came to your aid, and you inevitably got pulled into this ongoing bullet storm on the 2 sides. conquer the radio towers, raid the enemy up post to gain quick travel check point. Hone your skills with the styles of the heron, spider or shark.

It's a beautiful game.
i thought dead island is thrilling enough. but this. Adventurous FPS gamers should no doubt give this a try.
What's more. jungle survival to the next level, random patrolling enemies, predators in the wild.
Looting skins to craft items, upgrade your bag pack, throw in more weapon holsters, drive down the sea with a mounted boat to shoot down some sharks. Beware while u swim down to loot the shark skin.

A perfect game with one tiny down side: there is no in game story co-op system. I can do with a hunting/raiding kaki.

Gloom

Gloomy were the clouds over the jungle.
we're all jungle fish isn't it..?

Can't believe the jungle could hit a new low. Just when everything was near perfect. Remember when I said life as a board game and we can't possibly always stay as it is. Nothing is stagnant as long as time exist. Ironically what doesn't change is change itself.

And today we just got ditched off from our office. And my buddy Chang just got transferred out. We're like chess pieces, moved out for no apparent reason, ditched when we're sucked out of all our worth.

Storm's approaching the jungle again, and we'll have to seek shelter before rain hits us.

***

Typing away while I'm on the train back. Been sometime since I touch on this social link. A social link reek of cigarettes and alcohol. Empty nights by the river and loud clubbing music. Well I admit it'd been fun. But I have been in active from it for quite sometime. That applies to my army social links as well. I swore my popularity ranking just dropped.

went chevrons with my guys. 5 of us? And Bry's gf. $11 for a 3 hour ktv session and 2 jug of liquor and 2 glass of beer. Totally worth it.

Sang, Laze. Simple night uh huh.
But you shldnt totally check out chevrons if u had army friends or if you're living in the west.

***

There I go, dragging my feet to board the train, Lrt. Typing away, oblivious to how bad the day is..

Clockwork

Click.
*alarm rings*
There it goes again,
As usual, I hit the snooze button, sit a 3 min countdown timer and close my eyes.
well it wasn't exactly 3 mins later when I wake up again.
6.50. Rush to prepare, practically have to drag my legs out when I shot my apartment one last look. There, my clockwork life will begins once again. I slowly walk down to the bus stop. Yes all the people, students slogging to school, aunties doing their morning grocery shopping, uncles with their drink packets going out there to put bread on the table.
Walking down, looking around, music plugged in. Prepared tons of new kpop and indies which I guess would probably could last me a month or two. Darn, still feels fucking surreal.
Click.
A call from G. That perked me up alittle~ just got reminded that I'm on halfday today(: 4.5 hours countdown set on my head. Let's do this!
***
Click.
Rushing off from camp.
& shit always have to crop up at the last minute. The day probably sucked.
Did I mention that I had weekend duty just because the duty planning personnel change? :( fuck my life please.
I'm still looking at the brighter side thou. -ton on saturday and sleep the day off on sun-
Click.
I'm out @ aston w/ G. It's all good I guess. This weird social link that sprouted from nowhere all thanks to steam. Trust me, we had a fair share of office talks and intelligent conversation. Despite my jerk persona of course. Took my first cab ride of the year to sixth and the black pepper fish is so good. I'm sure this is definitely a good way to kick start the first working day of the year. Midweek lo!
Click.
On 170 back home, rushing out for my medical appointment. Scrambling and rushing.. Only to find myself sitting there waiting for my MA.
Click.
I smiled alittle as I plug my music back into my ears and start my usual after ma stroll back to the bus stop. It'd been all good. Well simplicity is good, neutral is good. I'm contented. I would never thought it would help me that much. And It never fails to amaze me when I could whip out my english speaking personas whenever I had my MAs. Proper english statements, and all. Cool optimistic statements like "I'm not really sure what's wrong but let's find out shall we?". Yeah I know life is tough, but it's either I'm super optimistic or I'm fucking too lazy/laid back to give a fuck and I'm placing my bets on the latter.
Click.
-tweets-
"Always feels like a better person the moment I stepped out of the hospital. Sunshines and rainbows huat ah!"
-tweets again after 2 min-
"Cheebye. The moment I said sunshine and it started pouring. Cheebye! chao chee bye. Nabeh knn, unicorn father die"
miss the bus somemore.. Fuck..
Sighs. Happy world just got destroyed in 2 minutes.
Lesson learnt: nvr admit that it's a good day, u will only jinx it. Same applies for gambling :( nabeh la
-storms off to buy garlic bread jiak. Dulan-
Click.
Haircut.
Got down the bus.. Can't make up my mind and was pacing around. Decided to take a pee.. Peeing in kopitiam toilet and release there's 2 cockroaches crawling right infront of me. Bangkit really lupsup..
-Looks into the mirror-
Ah why does my hair always look so good on days just before I'm mentally prepared to go for haircuts. There's this phobia thing abt haircut I always have about hair cuts.
Pacing around, up and down. Oh fuck me. I can never go for a haircut properly. Shit!
-sits down and look into salon's mirror-
Nabeh ;( scared..
Click.
"Thank you and half a nice day"
Pushing open the salon door,
I dragged my slippers out of the salon. Sigh, no chio bu hairdresser today.
Walking down, to the bus stop while touching my shaven sides, I'm so proud of myself. I'd just made it out there alive(:
& my bus just left infront of me. But guess what, there's another one behind! Huat~
Click. Tbc

010113

New Year...

it felt so surreal.

i spent 1 year in an elevator.

took me 1 year to find vash's car.

"bye guys! see you in a year's time!" throws out an epic statement in a moment of high.

there, i shut the car door, proud of myself, and embark onto the longest elevator journey that i guess i could ever take in my life with Adel.

that's how i spent my new year.

of course, how can i forget to mention the warm fuzzy dinner treat from Richard.

this year have been good. Or i can say, december was good. We all never got to see the warm side of Richard until now.

lets see how Day 1 goes shall we?
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