that look of yours when you lay beside me,
suddenly, you look so different.
i realize your eyes are so round, so big, when you speak about the future to me,
how your eyes would look up while you find words to chain into sentence.
that mole on you upper eyebrow looked so distinct,
how your fringe falls so nicely above your forehead.
i lay there, just admiring, not even saying a word, for i fear that my voice might break this spell.
(but fuck, it got broken anyway D:)
suddenly.. i felt that you look so different.
so beautiful. for once, maybe this once in such a long while, you looked really different, in my eyes.
I'd realize, maybe how i'd gotten so comfortable with you that i'd not realize how you look like.
that weak beady eyes from work, derailed hair, the splits at the bottom,
that flabby jelly limbs that're so worn out by all the work.
maybe just so that we're so comfy that you just look you in front of me.
throughout our lifetime, man kind are just given that few years to define love,
and i'm glad i found one of the many ways to define love today.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Saturday, May 25, 2013
voide
well, saturday couldn't have been any better with nothing on hand,
just a quiet day at home,
playing in the league, ripping champions off their head and watching the League of Legends all Star matches online.
you could probably check it out if you're a fellow summoner,
i swear it could get you really psyched up!
Yes, today's a day for the league (:
Took me awhile to find this video,
just wanted to share Natsumiii with you guys :D
a fellow female summoner who did story reading, and parodies of the league.
her voice? amazing.
cant stop looping this shiat since i'm an ahri lover X3
not forgetting this!
just want a quiet weekend now~
too old for any shit D:
just a quiet day at home,
playing in the league, ripping champions off their head and watching the League of Legends all Star matches online.
you could probably check it out if you're a fellow summoner,
i swear it could get you really psyched up!
Yes, today's a day for the league (:
Took me awhile to find this video,
just wanted to share Natsumiii with you guys :D
a fellow female summoner who did story reading, and parodies of the league.
her voice? amazing.
cant stop looping this shiat since i'm an ahri lover X3
not forgetting this!
just want a quiet weekend now~
too old for any shit D:
Friday, May 24, 2013
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Y
We're brothers.
You're family.
You're blood.
A slightly belated tiny celebration for my brother and yes it's just a mini drinking session for the 2 of us.
& we fucking walked passed SID without knowing them?
and there're like guards guarding them, using hand barricade and all, yet ironically no one recognises them until they hit the staged.
Best known for their insert song for fullmetal alchemist; USO
#
before i know it, dizzy spells.
Tiring Hangover D:
You're family.
You're blood.
A slightly belated tiny celebration for my brother and yes it's just a mini drinking session for the 2 of us.
& we fucking walked passed SID without knowing them?
and there're like guards guarding them, using hand barricade and all, yet ironically no one recognises them until they hit the staged.
Best known for their insert song for fullmetal alchemist; USO
#
before i know it, dizzy spells.
Tiring Hangover D:
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Melancholy
Was bored and reading up on personality when i stumbled upon this rather accurate quiz about the 4 temperament that adel use to have me do quite awhile ago.
Four temperaments is a proto-psychological interpretation of the ancient medical concept of humorism and suggests that four bodily fluids affect human personality traits and behaviors. The temperaments are sanguine (pleasure-seeking and sociable), choleric (ambitious and leader-like), melancholic (analytical and thoughtful), and phlegmatic (relaxed and quiet).
you can read more about it on wikipedia.
And hence, the title, my temperament is
MELANCHOLY (emo)
the Thinker, the Introvert, the Pessimist
if you're interested, you can do the quiz yourself HERE
and after reading up on the temperaments in detail, i realize that it is very much accurate. more than what i thought.
if you're interested, u can read about your temperaments HERE
& they're damn right about me being Hypochondria
Hypochondriasis or hypochondria (sometimes referred to as health phobia orhealth anxiety) refers to excessive preoccupancy or worry about having a serious illness. This debilitating condition is the result of an inaccurate perception of the body’s condition despite the absence of an actual medical condition.[1] An individual suffering from hypochondriasis is known as a hypochondriac. Hypochondriacs become unduly alarmed about any physical symptoms they detect, no matter how minor the symptom may be. They are convinced that they have or are about to be diagnosed with a serious illness.[2] Even sounds produced by organs in the body, such as those made by the intestines, seem like symptoms of a very serious illness to patients dealing with hypochondriasis.[3]Often, hypochondria persists even after a physician has evaluated a person and reassured them that their concerns about symptoms do not have an underlying medical basis or, if there is a medical illness, their concerns are far in excess of what is appropriate for the level of disease.
KNN.
guess this will put an end to Monday! Huat!
Mantra of the Week: Study what you like, know what you want, do what you enjoy
Four temperaments is a proto-psychological interpretation of the ancient medical concept of humorism and suggests that four bodily fluids affect human personality traits and behaviors. The temperaments are sanguine (pleasure-seeking and sociable), choleric (ambitious and leader-like), melancholic (analytical and thoughtful), and phlegmatic (relaxed and quiet).
you can read more about it on wikipedia.
And hence, the title, my temperament is
MELANCHOLY (emo)
the Thinker, the Introvert, the Pessimist
if you're interested, you can do the quiz yourself HERE
and after reading up on the temperaments in detail, i realize that it is very much accurate. more than what i thought.
Strengths of a Melancholy
C or Conscientious - in the DISC Profile
The Introvert | The Thinker | The Pessimist
The Melancholy's Emotions
* Deep and thoughtfully
* Analytical
* Serious and purposeful
* Genius prone
* Talented and creative
* Artistic or musical
* Philosophical and poetic
* appreciative of beauty
* Sensitive to others
* Self-sacrificing
* Conscientious
* Idealistic
The Melancholy As A Parent
* Sets high standards
* Wants everything done right
* Keeps home in good order
* Picks up after children
* Sacrifices own will for others
* Encourages scholarship and talent
The Melancholy At Work
* Schedule oriented
* Perfectionist, high standards
* Detail conscious
* Persistent and thorough
* Orderly and organized
* Neat and tidy
* Economical
* Sees the problems
* Finds creative solutions
* Needs to finish what he starts
* Likes charts, graphs, figures, lists
The Melancholy As a Friend
* Makes friends cautiously
* Content to stay in background
* Avoids causing attention
* Faithful and devoted
* Will listen to complaints
* Can solve other's problems
* Deep concern for other people
* Moved to tears with compassion
* Seeks ideal mate
Weakness of a Melancholy
The Introvert | The Thinker | The Pessimist
The Melancholy's Emotions
* Remembers the negatives
* Moody and depressed
* Enjoys being hurt
* Has false humility
* Off in another world
* Low self-image
* Has selective hearing
* Self-centered
* Too introspective
* Guilt feelings
* Persecution complex
* Tends to hypochondria
The Melancholy As A Parent
* Puts goals beyond reach
* May discourage children
* May be too meticulous
* Becomes martyr
* Sulks over disagreements
* Puts guilt upon children
The Melancholy At Work
* Not people oriented
* Depressed over imperfections
* Chooses difficult work
* Hesitant to start projects
* Spends to much time planning
* Prefers analysis to work
* Self-deprecating
* Hard to please
* Standards often to high
* Deep need for approval
The Melancholy As a Friend
* Lives through others
* Insecure socially
* Withdrawn and remote
* critical of others
* Holds back affections
* Dislikes those in opposition
* Suspicious of people
* Antagonistic and vengeful
* Unforgiving
* Full of contradictions
* Skeptical of compliments
Mantra of the Week: Study what you like, know what you want, do what you enjoy
Monday, May 20, 2013
mask
this mask...i will put on tomorrow.
will eat into my face,
melt my past,
and numb me for all i know.
will eat into my face,
melt my past,
and numb me for all i know.
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Burnt Child
A burnt child.
Scared of fire.
The flames slithering towards me, while I drove my body up to a corner, legs pushing my body back frantically as if it will stretch the distance between us.
I'm afraid, I'd been burnt.
The fiery inferno,
Flame dancing within,
Down hail the needles.
The hell I gone through again and again.
I was nowhere close to death as I'm already dead,
Soul already captured.
Yet I go through this torment again and again.
My body won't rot, and my heart won't stop bleeding.
It hurts,
Then again, I endure this, deep inside, time and again, hoping it won't be so next time. I waited, for the day when I'm ridden of this pain,
Ridden of this haunting ghost that chase us down for as long as we lived,
The ghost have to be slain.
It will be,
And waiting is the key.
Why can't u stand in my heart,
And see what I see?
I'm emotional, not sensual.
I'm sensitive, sentimental.
Melancholy.
My oldest toy is 19-20 years old.
I keep what deserve to be keep,
Close to my side,
Close to my heart.
Tears fall onto my wounds,
As if my inner conscious attempts at comfort.
I forced a weak smile, telling myself, "just a little more"
**
On the way back, a couple quarreling in front of me.
About luxuries and rich. Superficial ones.
I'd wish I would tell them to stop letting stupid things like that get into their way of life.
Who the fuck cares whether KL have kate spade and coach? Just fucking get them online la?
Seriously..
Scared of fire.
The flames slithering towards me, while I drove my body up to a corner, legs pushing my body back frantically as if it will stretch the distance between us.
I'm afraid, I'd been burnt.
The fiery inferno,
Flame dancing within,
Down hail the needles.
The hell I gone through again and again.
I was nowhere close to death as I'm already dead,
Soul already captured.
Yet I go through this torment again and again.
My body won't rot, and my heart won't stop bleeding.
It hurts,
Then again, I endure this, deep inside, time and again, hoping it won't be so next time. I waited, for the day when I'm ridden of this pain,
Ridden of this haunting ghost that chase us down for as long as we lived,
The ghost have to be slain.
It will be,
And waiting is the key.
Why can't u stand in my heart,
And see what I see?
I'm emotional, not sensual.
I'm sensitive, sentimental.
Melancholy.
My oldest toy is 19-20 years old.
I keep what deserve to be keep,
Close to my side,
Close to my heart.
Tears fall onto my wounds,
As if my inner conscious attempts at comfort.
I forced a weak smile, telling myself, "just a little more"
**
On the way back, a couple quarreling in front of me.
About luxuries and rich. Superficial ones.
I'd wish I would tell them to stop letting stupid things like that get into their way of life.
Who the fuck cares whether KL have kate spade and coach? Just fucking get them online la?
Seriously..
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Weekend Duty
I paced about the room,
Only leaving the house when I felt assured, right after ticking all the things off my mental check list.
That's how I always is.
taking longer than usual as long as I'm not going back home for the night. My sweat trickles down my forehead as I rummage my room for my ds charger, only to find it lying in the living room. Hastily, I put slip into my boots, walk down the grassy slope, down to the bus stop.
Yes, it's saturday. I know. I'm not crazy.
Weekend duty again.
I'd been learning how to suck it up and make the best out of things, and it really works. Trust me, it does. I even organized a pre-duty breakfast meetup between all of us even thou the line-up spells sleep till staff parade.
No, I won't call them uninteresting people. Just people that I'm not close with.
***
I woke up before my alarm could sound, dreamless again. A 45 minutes power nap before my duty and my eyes are so heavy that I could hardly open. I propped my body up, knowing that I'd to stay awake. My screen glared to life, upon the touch of my mouse. I played around, surfing the web, picture gazing.
"Ah, need a new wallpaper"
I tried not to read, only looking at pictures, passing time, and soon the caffeine kicked in. The next thing I knew was the beads of droplets splashing on my face from the shower head.
***
I'm awake as fuck, as my mind's clear. Not even a tinge of fatigue. I'm even more awake than days that I'm functioning on 5hours of sleep. I planned my day in my head, chanting to myself, telling myself that this would be a good day to restore my sleeping hours due to the deprivation from the past week.
-weekend duty-
Only leaving the house when I felt assured, right after ticking all the things off my mental check list.
That's how I always is.
taking longer than usual as long as I'm not going back home for the night. My sweat trickles down my forehead as I rummage my room for my ds charger, only to find it lying in the living room. Hastily, I put slip into my boots, walk down the grassy slope, down to the bus stop.
Yes, it's saturday. I know. I'm not crazy.
Weekend duty again.
I'd been learning how to suck it up and make the best out of things, and it really works. Trust me, it does. I even organized a pre-duty breakfast meetup between all of us even thou the line-up spells sleep till staff parade.
No, I won't call them uninteresting people. Just people that I'm not close with.
***
I woke up before my alarm could sound, dreamless again. A 45 minutes power nap before my duty and my eyes are so heavy that I could hardly open. I propped my body up, knowing that I'd to stay awake. My screen glared to life, upon the touch of my mouse. I played around, surfing the web, picture gazing.
"Ah, need a new wallpaper"
I tried not to read, only looking at pictures, passing time, and soon the caffeine kicked in. The next thing I knew was the beads of droplets splashing on my face from the shower head.
***
I'm awake as fuck, as my mind's clear. Not even a tinge of fatigue. I'm even more awake than days that I'm functioning on 5hours of sleep. I planned my day in my head, chanting to myself, telling myself that this would be a good day to restore my sleeping hours due to the deprivation from the past week.
-weekend duty-
pass time
decided to come out with a list of things i do to pass time, and hope it can be an inspiration for people who're looking on ideas onto how to spend their weekend
- drawing/ doodling
- play guitar
- air drumming
- reading a book
- watch a movie
- watch a anime/drama
- read manga
- cut out places featured in IS Mag & put it to my to go list
- try to learn card tricks
- photography
- google up something random
- read up on a person/thing/anything that caught your interest
- explore wikipedia
- pack my room (trust me you will be surprised)
- play with my old toy collection
- rearrange my wardrobe
- buy a random booster pack
- pace around in the room
- daydream
- blogging
- write something
- play games
- open my childhood box and admire things from my childhood
- play Pokemon
- play with my rubik's cube
- explore music, listen to music of different genre (use whyd/ songdrop)
- search for movies on youtube
- Musuem Visits!
- search for anime/games fan art
- download artworks
- explore & admire arts (deviant art/flickr)
- find a new desktop wallpaper
- customize my desktop icons
- read up on IGN/AsianJunkie/AllKPop/SankakuComplex
- watch movie trailers
- twirl my drum stick
- play with sound EQ system
- Lookout for what's happening around our sunny island (sales/exhibitions)
- Do Origami
- Blog Hopping
- Watch a documentary
- Read Old Magazines
- Online Shopping
- Play really lame flash game
- Reread my old study textbooks/notes
- Listen to music
- Buy a toy and maybe play with it (TechDeck/Gundam/Lego)
- Build random stuff with LEGO
- Learn a toy trick (TechDeck/ Yoyo)
- Pick up a new language
- Do Yoga for fun
- Cut my nails (i would color them if i could)
- Try out a new game
- Borrow a book from library
- Going out alone
- Looking for 2nd hand books
- Play console games (Nintendo DS/PSP)
- Sing a song from youtube
- Music Hopping on Youtube (related/suggestions)
- Aromatherapy
- Sudoku
- Picross Puzzle
that's all for now;
do check out my page for updated version
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Planetarium
Otsuka Ai - Planetarium (プラネタリウム) Translation
The moonlight evening shows it's face, and the voices of the children disappear
Somewhere far far off in the sky, you're probably out there
We snuck away into the end of the summer, and we found this park
Do remember what that constellation was?
Even if we can't be together, I want to follow my memories, and see the same happiness as you do
The fireworks burst in a flush, together with that scent
I want to go to where you are, I want to run off right now
You can't see anything in the pitch darkness, it's alright to be scared
The starry sky with countless amounts of stars is always going to be right here, even now
I won't cry, because a long time ago, I saw a beautiful sky with you
The sound of shoes echoing out on that road is still left in my ears
Staring at my large shadow, I wonder if you still think about me
Even though they shouldn't have changed at all, sad feelings swell in me
No matter what I feel, you're not here anymore
I want to go to your side, even if just for a little while
I love you most of all, it's stayed a strong feeling
I tried silently wishing on a shooting star
But I won't cry, the wish will go through, into the beautiful sky
Even if we can't be together, I want to follow my memories, and see the same happiness as you do
The fireworks burst in a flush, together with that scent
I want to go to where you are, clenching my small hands
I want to cry, it was such a beautiful sky
I tried silently wishing on a shooting star
But I won't cry, the wish will go through, into the beautiful sky... [edit]Last edit by jassu on Wednesday 18 Aug, 2010 at 18:18 +0.7%[/edit]
The moonlight evening shows it's face, and the voices of the children disappear
Somewhere far far off in the sky, you're probably out there
We snuck away into the end of the summer, and we found this park
Do remember what that constellation was?
Even if we can't be together, I want to follow my memories, and see the same happiness as you do
The fireworks burst in a flush, together with that scent
I want to go to where you are, I want to run off right now
You can't see anything in the pitch darkness, it's alright to be scared
The starry sky with countless amounts of stars is always going to be right here, even now
I won't cry, because a long time ago, I saw a beautiful sky with you
The sound of shoes echoing out on that road is still left in my ears
Staring at my large shadow, I wonder if you still think about me
Even though they shouldn't have changed at all, sad feelings swell in me
No matter what I feel, you're not here anymore
I want to go to your side, even if just for a little while
I love you most of all, it's stayed a strong feeling
I tried silently wishing on a shooting star
But I won't cry, the wish will go through, into the beautiful sky
Even if we can't be together, I want to follow my memories, and see the same happiness as you do
The fireworks burst in a flush, together with that scent
I want to go to where you are, clenching my small hands
I want to cry, it was such a beautiful sky
I tried silently wishing on a shooting star
But I won't cry, the wish will go through, into the beautiful sky... [edit]Last edit by jassu on Wednesday 18 Aug, 2010 at 18:18 +0.7%[/edit]
be@rbricks
did i mention that i'm on a bearbricks craze recently?
suddenly cravings for it since afew days back, just can't get my eyes off these beautiful toys!
P.S. i love toys, dont judge :3
god, isn't this beautiful?
for fellow fans out there, you can get this latest iron patriot's bearbricks (400%) for just SGD$150 @ G TOY STAGE.
HUAT!
suddenly cravings for it since afew days back, just can't get my eyes off these beautiful toys!
P.S. i love toys, dont judge :3
god, isn't this beautiful?
for fellow fans out there, you can get this latest iron patriot's bearbricks (400%) for just SGD$150 @ G TOY STAGE.
HUAT!
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Mondaze again
Fixing my Snafu life.
this whole week, would have been the craziest time of my army life.
Would write about it soon,
Yea soon.
Long story short,
I was always send back to tekong to act in ah boys to men 3.
(Sorry if some of u guys can't even feel the sarcarsm)
Was even too shagged to explain as I dragged my duffel bag, field bag (which was obviously too heavy for me to tekong)
Can't believe my MO assume this to be 'very light' and even ask me to ask someone to help me carry/bring it there.
Of course I didn't, after realizing the consequences/risk of being stomp.
To sum it all off, I was rejected because I bought only 1 pair of boots. :/
I was so prepared, this rejection felt so surreal that I didn't even felt joy. Maybe alittle tinge of it, but still, I felt surreal.
I came back.
But till today, every now and then, I would wonder, how is it like it I'm in tekong.
Till now...
Monday couldn't be much better when I'd got up my bus the minute I reach the bus stop.
I'll probably be counting my energy and start harnessing my positive energy.
this whole week, would have been the craziest time of my army life.
Would write about it soon,
Yea soon.
Long story short,
I was always send back to tekong to act in ah boys to men 3.
(Sorry if some of u guys can't even feel the sarcarsm)
Was even too shagged to explain as I dragged my duffel bag, field bag (which was obviously too heavy for me to tekong)
Can't believe my MO assume this to be 'very light' and even ask me to ask someone to help me carry/bring it there.
Of course I didn't, after realizing the consequences/risk of being stomp.
To sum it all off, I was rejected because I bought only 1 pair of boots. :/
I was so prepared, this rejection felt so surreal that I didn't even felt joy. Maybe alittle tinge of it, but still, I felt surreal.
I came back.
But till today, every now and then, I would wonder, how is it like it I'm in tekong.
Till now...
Monday couldn't be much better when I'd got up my bus the minute I reach the bus stop.
I'll probably be counting my energy and start harnessing my positive energy.
[大塚 愛] 金魚花火
a beautiful deep song that sends me to tranquility.
Song:
English Lyrics
the goldfish that swims my heart is in love
making these feelings grow stronger
turning red, I knew nothing would come of feeling this way
but still I wished to stay with you.
the scent of summer in the rain
the goldfish fireworks trickling down
I was blinded by the light
your kind face flashed for but one moment. *1
I hope that the goldfish swimming my heart
is not engulfed in ugliness
its life lasts just one summer *2
even if its just for a little while,
I wished for your happiness.
the scent of summer, enveloped in the night
the goldfish fireworks trickling down
no words do it justice
your kind faced flashed for but one moment.
the scent of summer in the rain...
Translated By: Brian Stewart & Takako Sakuma
Translator's Notes: Ai was on TV and said that kingyo hanabi was a name she had for a type of fireworks.
* 1 - a yuugao written with a different kanji means 'Moon Flower' or a type of flower which only blooms at night. Ai is doing some word play here.
* 2 - If the goldfish in Ai's heart is representative of her feelings for this person, then this line is talking about how a goldfish doesn't live very long, i.e. her feelings won't last past the summer.
Romaji
kokoro ni oyogu kingyo ha koishi
omoi wo tsunorasete
makka ni somari
minoranu omoi wo shirinagara
sore demo soba ni itai to negatta no
natsu no nioi ame no naka de
potapota ochiru kingyo hanabi
hikari de me ga kurande
isshun utsuru ha anata no yuugao
kokoro ni oyogu kingyo ha
minikusa de tsutsumarenu you
kono natsu dake no
inochi to kimete
sukoshi no jikan dake demo
anata no shiawase wo nagatta no
natsu no nioi yoru ga tsutsunde
potapota ochiru kingyo hanabi
donna kotoba ni mo dekinai
isshun utsuru no anata no yuugao
natsu no nioi ame no naka de...
making these feelings grow stronger
turning red, I knew nothing would come of feeling this way
but still I wished to stay with you.
the scent of summer in the rain
the goldfish fireworks trickling down
I was blinded by the light
your kind face flashed for but one moment. *1
I hope that the goldfish swimming my heart
is not engulfed in ugliness
its life lasts just one summer *2
even if its just for a little while,
I wished for your happiness.
the scent of summer, enveloped in the night
the goldfish fireworks trickling down
no words do it justice
your kind faced flashed for but one moment.
the scent of summer in the rain...
Translated By: Brian Stewart & Takako Sakuma
Translator's Notes: Ai was on TV and said that kingyo hanabi was a name she had for a type of fireworks.
* 1 - a yuugao written with a different kanji means 'Moon Flower' or a type of flower which only blooms at night. Ai is doing some word play here.
* 2 - If the goldfish in Ai's heart is representative of her feelings for this person, then this line is talking about how a goldfish doesn't live very long, i.e. her feelings won't last past the summer.
Romaji
kokoro ni oyogu kingyo ha koishi
omoi wo tsunorasete
makka ni somari
minoranu omoi wo shirinagara
sore demo soba ni itai to negatta no
natsu no nioi ame no naka de
potapota ochiru kingyo hanabi
hikari de me ga kurande
isshun utsuru ha anata no yuugao
kokoro ni oyogu kingyo ha
minikusa de tsutsumarenu you
kono natsu dake no
inochi to kimete
sukoshi no jikan dake demo
anata no shiawase wo nagatta no
natsu no nioi yoru ga tsutsunde
potapota ochiru kingyo hanabi
donna kotoba ni mo dekinai
isshun utsuru no anata no yuugao
natsu no nioi ame no naka de...
the beauty of music
Songs that grew up with me.
Songs that sat with me when i'm alone, gazing up at the skies wondering what destiny holds.
Songs that touches my heart,
Songs that i can relate to.
Songs that remind me of everything i was,
Songs that gives me motivation.
Songs that made me run, & it always keep me running.
Songs that bought laughter, and draw smiles on my face
Songs that remind me of the anime that i use to watch
Songs that remind me of my childhood,
Songs that made me such a deep person,
Songs that i can never, ever forget.
Songs that were recomend by friends/peers that got stuck in my head
Songs that made me watch an anime
Songs that made me start drumming
Songs that play while i drive down mt akina, trying to beat my personal best
the beauty of music
Songs that were once my everything;
I was once a Japanese song enthusiast,
of course, throw in a little bit of songs here and there,
but Japanese songs are what makes up 90% of the songs in my iPod.
i would throw in some Otsuka Ai, and stroll back home, maybe even taking a detour while her songs soothe my soul.
i swear she was once my dream 'gal'
*lol*
that aside,
How, i always marvel at the soul of the music,
how the voice could reach me, breaking the boundaries of language.
How it made me a deeper person (maybe more emo)
How it plant the seed of empathy, and made me a better person i am today.
Arigtaou,
Thank you,
Thank you for being there for me, whenever i need you,
how i could always find a song in there, that i can relate to,
upbeat song to cheer me up,
a slow song to marooned me to twilight.
thank you each and everyone of the japanese singers out.
how i would appreciate the unsung artist,
indie singers out there,
every single one.
even though the industry'd pretty much changed.
i sometimes still hate how the good doesnt get recognize while the rich gets to sow that undeserved fame.
keep fighting,
keep singing.
i would never forget, the silent pact that i'd made to myself 10 years back.
to go to japan one day.
fuck i miss japan :(
Songs that sat with me when i'm alone, gazing up at the skies wondering what destiny holds.
Songs that touches my heart,
Songs that i can relate to.
Songs that remind me of everything i was,
Songs that gives me motivation.
Songs that made me run, & it always keep me running.
Songs that bought laughter, and draw smiles on my face
Songs that remind me of the anime that i use to watch
Songs that remind me of my childhood,
Songs that made me such a deep person,
Songs that i can never, ever forget.
Songs that were recomend by friends/peers that got stuck in my head
Songs that made me watch an anime
Songs that made me start drumming
Songs that play while i drive down mt akina, trying to beat my personal best
the beauty of music
Songs that were once my everything;
I was once a Japanese song enthusiast,
of course, throw in a little bit of songs here and there,
but Japanese songs are what makes up 90% of the songs in my iPod.
i would throw in some Otsuka Ai, and stroll back home, maybe even taking a detour while her songs soothe my soul.
i swear she was once my dream 'gal'
*lol*
that aside,
How, i always marvel at the soul of the music,
how the voice could reach me, breaking the boundaries of language.
How it made me a deeper person (maybe more emo)
How it plant the seed of empathy, and made me a better person i am today.
Arigtaou,
Thank you,
Thank you for being there for me, whenever i need you,
how i could always find a song in there, that i can relate to,
upbeat song to cheer me up,
a slow song to marooned me to twilight.
thank you each and everyone of the japanese singers out.
how i would appreciate the unsung artist,
indie singers out there,
every single one.
even though the industry'd pretty much changed.
i sometimes still hate how the good doesnt get recognize while the rich gets to sow that undeserved fame.
keep fighting,
keep singing.
i would never forget, the silent pact that i'd made to myself 10 years back.
to go to japan one day.
fuck i miss japan :(
Monday, May 13, 2013
Run?
My legs..
They felt like they're going to give way any minute,
My neck..
They felt like they're breaking,
My spine..
Felt like they're on the verge of tearing apart.
I start indulging in pain killers,
I used so much muscle gel that I felt like I'm bathing with them.
It is the trick of the mind?
Positive thinking,
C'mon..
Mantra of the week: "positive thinking"
They felt like they're going to give way any minute,
My neck..
They felt like they're breaking,
My spine..
Felt like they're on the verge of tearing apart.
I start indulging in pain killers,
I used so much muscle gel that I felt like I'm bathing with them.
It is the trick of the mind?
Positive thinking,
C'mon..
Mantra of the week: "positive thinking"
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Gift
I smiled as I released a bunch of loose change from my hand to his.
He reached for the basket in front of him, and when he's about to pile together 3 packs of tissue,
"不用，一包就好了"
"给我这样多做什么？ 一包而已，我给你啦"
"不用啦"
The uncle looked at me, half astonished, half confused. A weak crooked smile form across his face, and I walked away, know I'd made his day.
I'd always wanted to give back something, to the community, people, to the world. Yes, little steps at a time. But somehow, the world is ultimately our home.
Of course, there're things always stopping us from giving, making us hesitant from sharing. The limited resources, greed, fear of losses as we cowered in ourselves or in our own packs. Then again, sometimes it's good to share, when other's happiness radiate's against yours. I believe it adds to your glow you know! :D
Anyways, life is a drama, no doubt and you're running your own show.
i'll end off my post with a special album of the week.
anybody looking for something new, do try out TARU's new album; Puzzle.
music that heals the soul.
He reached for the basket in front of him, and when he's about to pile together 3 packs of tissue,
"不用，一包就好了"
"给我这样多做什么？ 一包而已，我给你啦"
"不用啦"
The uncle looked at me, half astonished, half confused. A weak crooked smile form across his face, and I walked away, know I'd made his day.
I'd always wanted to give back something, to the community, people, to the world. Yes, little steps at a time. But somehow, the world is ultimately our home.
Of course, there're things always stopping us from giving, making us hesitant from sharing. The limited resources, greed, fear of losses as we cowered in ourselves or in our own packs. Then again, sometimes it's good to share, when other's happiness radiate's against yours. I believe it adds to your glow you know! :D
Anyways, life is a drama, no doubt and you're running your own show.
i'll end off my post with a special album of the week.
anybody looking for something new, do try out TARU's new album; Puzzle.
music that heals the soul.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
clouds
i'm sitting on a one seater sofa at the edge of the cliff, my left hand swirling my poison playfully while the old vinyl player plays a loose music as their vinyl fumbles alongside with the vinyl pin.
ominous clouds, blowing my way.
there, i waited as the wind blows in my face, as if slapping me in mockery.
Mantra of the week
"sit back, relax & prepare for the worst"
ominous clouds, blowing my way.
there, i waited as the wind blows in my face, as if slapping me in mockery.
Mantra of the week
"sit back, relax & prepare for the worst"
Monday, May 6, 2013
Numb
sometimes, i'm just tired.
numb.
my head throbbing, sending waves of weird numbness.
just like how i tend to get goosebumps on my limbs, and now it's extending to my head.
alot of uncleared stuff, waiting for one huge boulder that i would try to clear on D-Day.
my mind's cluttered with mess.
guess that's when all shit hits me.
hate how everything tends to fall apart sometime.
i hate to blame it on luck, but i really hate why sometimes just never went the way it should. (not the way i want) but a major detour...
here comes monday.
numb.
my head throbbing, sending waves of weird numbness.
just like how i tend to get goosebumps on my limbs, and now it's extending to my head.
alot of uncleared stuff, waiting for one huge boulder that i would try to clear on D-Day.
my mind's cluttered with mess.
guess that's when all shit hits me.
hate how everything tends to fall apart sometime.
i hate to blame it on luck, but i really hate why sometimes just never went the way it should. (not the way i want) but a major detour...
here comes monday.
Sunday, May 5, 2013
Trance
Finally we have our group date.
Been going on about this for quite sometime since C came into our circle and conversations, so I guess it's time to meet my sister-in law
Before I go on any longer, I would like to extend my sincere apologies to V for letting you play the engergiser-cum-duracell lightbulb. D:
***
Been ages since we had any early day meet up time.
got up early,
and i had to stop Adel from trying to climb into the mirror before we're anymore late!
so guess we sort of stick to our plans and the 5 of us headed to popeyes before going into the artscience museum. 2nd time into it and i'm still kinda overwhelmed by it, despite our local mummy exhibition is a much mellowed down one compared to the one in british. So after a mindblowing 30 mins 3D documentary, we're all set to unravel the mysteries of the mummmmmyyyy~
that, u should see for yourself, but how can we forget the unsung exhibition?
we stumbled upon the project presentation from NTU's very own school of art, design and media.
Trees that read your mind frequency?
Indoor sundiam?
they'd got it all.
all of it.
Vash left shortly after and it's just the 2 couples.
After the ice cream break for the girls,
we move to our next destination.
movies!
how i miss the cathy being "our" cinema,
watching their reels since years back, occasionally popping in their affordable yet tasty mixed popcorn while having our feets on the couch of the couple seats.
ahh, i love cathy.
Sorry GV, i love you too
I swear we won't be having such an early dinner if not for adel's bottomless stomach,
but i enjoyed my plate of teriyaki chicken with fries and wedges @ ashton's cathy.
after what it seem, a long dinner, random chit chats and a bottle of root beer,
it's time for
TRANCE
i haven been overwhelmed by any movies in the year 2013, but all i can say,
trust me, it's worth a watch.
i'd give it a 4.5/5.
a perfect heist.
the beautiful twist.
an enticing ending.
it's not easy to throw the audience off their seat,
down into this spiral journey and leave them with something more than just the plot after an hour and a half, but trance have done it, so tactfully when you didn't even notice it in your mind.
Been going on about this for quite sometime since C came into our circle and conversations, so I guess it's time to meet my sister-in law
Before I go on any longer, I would like to extend my sincere apologies to V for letting you play the engergiser-cum-duracell lightbulb. D:
***
Been ages since we had any early day meet up time.
got up early,
and i had to stop Adel from trying to climb into the mirror before we're anymore late!
so guess we sort of stick to our plans and the 5 of us headed to popeyes before going into the artscience museum. 2nd time into it and i'm still kinda overwhelmed by it, despite our local mummy exhibition is a much mellowed down one compared to the one in british. So after a mindblowing 30 mins 3D documentary, we're all set to unravel the mysteries of the mummmmmyyyy~
that, u should see for yourself, but how can we forget the unsung exhibition?
we stumbled upon the project presentation from NTU's very own school of art, design and media.
Trees that read your mind frequency?
Indoor sundiam?
they'd got it all.
all of it.
Vash left shortly after and it's just the 2 couples.
After the ice cream break for the girls,
we move to our next destination.
movies!
how i miss the cathy being "our" cinema,
watching their reels since years back, occasionally popping in their affordable yet tasty mixed popcorn while having our feets on the couch of the couple seats.
ahh, i love cathy.
Sorry GV, i love you too
I swear we won't be having such an early dinner if not for adel's bottomless stomach,
but i enjoyed my plate of teriyaki chicken with fries and wedges @ ashton's cathy.
after what it seem, a long dinner, random chit chats and a bottle of root beer,
it's time for
TRANCE
i haven been overwhelmed by any movies in the year 2013, but all i can say,
trust me, it's worth a watch.
i'd give it a 4.5/5.
a perfect heist.
the beautiful twist.
an enticing ending.
it's not easy to throw the audience off their seat,
down into this spiral journey and leave them with something more than just the plot after an hour and a half, but trance have done it, so tactfully when you didn't even notice it in your mind.
Friday, May 3, 2013
030513
Days that are worth remembering,
Feelings that are worth writing down,
Today's definitely one of these days.
I'm quiet, as I bathed into this nostalgic feeling once again. Your time pass like the wind, it feels like I was just here yesterday.
I'm not actually really close with all of you, but it's enough to be missed.
It'll all be quiet without you guys. Every single one that came into my mind, I counted. Different personas coloring pad from an empty canvas to a beautiful place. They're right, it's the people that makes the place.
Now the winds left us alone,
What comes next?
Feelings that are worth writing down,
Today's definitely one of these days.
I'm quiet, as I bathed into this nostalgic feeling once again. Your time pass like the wind, it feels like I was just here yesterday.
I'm not actually really close with all of you, but it's enough to be missed.
It'll all be quiet without you guys. Every single one that came into my mind, I counted. Different personas coloring pad from an empty canvas to a beautiful place. They're right, it's the people that makes the place.
Now the winds left us alone,
What comes next?
Thursday, May 2, 2013
long day
The Long Day
- Alighted outside TANGS
- Check out baking goods @ TANGS
- Walked to PP Adidas
- Realized Shaw's Mac is closed
- Takeaway Mac @ Lucky Plaza
- Shopping @ TAKA
- More Shopping @ TAKA
- Coffee @ Scape
- Flea @ Scape
- Walk to Orchard Central
- More Shopping @ Editor's Market (girl's not leaving any stone unturn)
- Checking out {prologue} world book day
- Bus to Bugis
- Walk to Arab St.
- Dinner @ Vintage Delicafe
- Walk back to Bugis
- Stark Expo @ Bugis Junction (fell in love w/ iron patriot!!! <3 li="">
- Bus Home =3
Too old for this shit D:
Good luck for your work girl.
HUAT(:
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