dance w/ the geeks

dance with the geeks.
i'd came up with this term when i'm mixing with this gaming clique that'd been born from my secondary school.
pretty sleek, they're game spenders, someone willing to pay, for consoles and games, even at a periodic bases.
i won't do much, since i'm more of a hopper, but my holidays took a different turn this week and we're sorta geting in touch with each other this week or so.

suppose to be having lunch w/ 'em tmr (later) before meeting up with aaron. let's see shall we?

*posted 5 BLOG POST. zomg FIVE*

Xpo

it's like morning while i'm still unable to sleep. can't believe i'm praying that i can get on my bed asap 6 hours back?
been doing nothing much in life, probably just admiring the sceneries and i would probably love lying down, staring at clouds as time flies.

had so much to blog about, but overwhelmed by my laziness.
a break a break.
been telling myself that for ages.

*might wanna slot in a few entries for the past few days*

list of stuff imma wanna do:

- start jogging
- lesser gaming?
- pick up guitar
- business
- hair cut
- meet-e-parents
- get my bloody ass back into blogging and get things back on track

and i'm not really that much looking forward to this week, despite it being my birthday week.
well maybe not really looking forward too when i'd to meet her parents and also act as an extra waiting for the lift. Been a very negative person so i never know what else could went wrong.

My Weekly Schedule: if it went well
not really sure but...
JUNE
27 MON - lunch w/ rangers + slack w/ aaron
28 TUE - quiet birthday
29 WED - haircut
30 THU - meet e parents
01 FRI - meet up w/ hing & vic
02 SAT - casting as extra
03 SUN - Zak's POP w/ Hing + Iman

& god it's amazingly full for now.
but i'm not expecting much...

alright, let's get to today shall we?
right after 8th June, obviously i'd opened up a new social link in life, well probably one of the most significant ones as they're adel's cliques.
not that bad, hmmmm they don't bite even thou they'd got razor sharp teeth.
and just a bunch of warm and nice funny people.
guess that's too much for my balls to handle that's why i'm like O_O while i'm with them.
kinda hate this dual persona thing going on, when i can't get real noisy and crack up some fireworks and brighten up the atmosphere. & my english kinda sucked so...

went out to flea today, together as a whole and i'd say it'd been rather fruitful D:
even thou it kinda feels weird when adel and jl bought their bfs over, which's me and yj. it's a weird mixture of awkward and scared soooo.
well moving on, this mega flea isn't that mega since they're not occupying the whole of the expo hall, and only a section of it. yes yes yes, all because of the high rents, so there's like a big square for people to just simply do nothing because it's nothing much different from an gigantic empty hall with some pushcarts.
expected myself to buy some things home since i don't wanna get back all empty handed after a journey to the east, but i did anyways -.-
resist myself from the kites, crystal light, cinnamoroll plushie, jack union stuff & Ambigram couple tags.
we ended it off with dinner together @ BK after watch them do their nails at subway while thinking of places to go.
it'd been a long and extremely tiring day since i didn't slept much cos' ... *refers to prev post*

things really turned out as differently as i thought.

runk

weird that i'm spamming post at this time.
and adel'd been saying i'm having my "period".
DAY NOW. 27 JUNE 0530.

i guess so...?
not sure i'm shredding my emotional skins before i grows up officially,
no-what-so-ever.
but i just wanted to get crazy today.
really crazy..

call up my buds, and after settling numerous obstacles,
we manage to head out at 9.
people might ask, why i'm doing all this, but after everyone's out and enjoying and stuff, it's really worth the hard work.
been rather separated from kun recently thou D: probably coz' his tp's coming, he's meeting ama everyday and he's gaming with rick & co.

i'd drawn my lines too, mixing with my l4d community, and also ages since i played with my leagues of legend friends.
this tiny social link consist of 2 ang mo guy, but they're pretty interesting.
2 best friends, 1 studying philosophies and another, engineering (working @ alaska now)
a pretty unique mix right?
god and all because of the failed ip hider, i'm unable to go on.

*adds that to the list of things to do*

back on track,

went out to timbre
*skips scene*
GOD, timbre's where i really wanna be.
all the coziness, under the TREES, & live-performances.
god this place kick ass.
but we have to wait quite abit, spend near 1 hour waiting for seats, long queue -.-
and even queued like 30 mins for the toilet?
if make cake i die le.

didn't drank much.
BUT. the duck meat pizza is the sex.
omg

*after drinks + food*

i'm always high when i'm drink
but no one believes i'm not DRUNK D:
when i laugh at myself, or started to laugh, they say i drunk liao :(
no wor.
then they say i cannot keep quiet.
then i talk they say i drunk le wor T_T
nabeh.
i recite multiplication table they also don't believe.

~ ~ ~ \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/ \o/

was so damn high that i ran around,
did lots of stuff that i never thought i might did
and we kinda went to the 24 Hour Challenger @ funan it mall. AND MUHAHAHAHA i'm so genius :D i couldn't help but praise myself for being the first person who guessed the secret entrance to challenger >_<
*demands for a medal*
di siao the people there, and playing their on site demo consoles and wasting time.
kinda high and i went on to plug my phone into their portable 4 x mini speakers and blast songs while walking around with it.
played iPAD 2 too.

*squeals*

ipad2, being a leisure item, isn't much of a need, but more of a want.
but blasting kpop performance via youtube there, with the sleeky "much bigger" screen, is really.. jjanggggggg ~
done with that and off we went.

took NR3 and we ran like a dog.
after everybody got down, we manage to get vash to cab us back.
and imma still high then, but well, conscious STILL PLEASE.
and i kept singing hands up while trying to get ourselves a cab.
waving frantically by the road side, pointing middle fingers to those who didn't heed.

speaking of which, i can't believe that they filmed the MV in SG.
zomg?



*back home*
tired and drop onto the bed like a shagging dog.
zomg, flea tmr w/ adel + the rest

WM

went out with wayne to marina.

society problems.
- slack
*GALLERIA IS OPEN! NEW MARINA KOPITIAM, ADEL LETS GO TGT SOMEDAY*
- dinner @ mac
- walk to orchard
- went orchard central
- game shop
- 313 SOMERSET
- walk back down to take bus
- home

- TEAM FORTRESS 2 ALL THE WAY.

trac

TRIES REALLY HARD TO BACK TRACK

not sure whether it's the 23rd
or what..
but well, here it goes,

did you came over?
think u did, mum's emo-ing and we're eating red rice.

not sure by but thoughts started to purge into my head..
been talking about this to alot of my friends when i'm in a more of a senior/experienced 99 in life persona or even in therapist-mode.

well, there're lots of things u won't know?
now she (girls in general) haven't went into working society, how u guys can see the world,
how grim and dark it is, the cruel truth behind the balance of life, give and take.
maybe after working, she'll have goals, dreams, and what she wants. what she really wants.

your vision sharpens, you see clearer, u hear clearer.
u saw your wants.
and maybe even willing to gave up things to get what you want.


***

yes... sounds like i'm giving myself a reality slap as well.
maybe, you will see what you really want.
i glanced over at your back view while you're using my mirror from where i dine.
it's as if we're playing a game, pitting against each other. we never knows how things would turn out.
but i would indefinitely be very sure, i don't wanna lose you.

so many things i'd ought to do.
but at least i'd done quite abit.
downloaded photoscape, ran into some obstacles, but nevertheless i'm secretly praying really hard that things would be fine.

not a very nice day actually.
been just up late and mentally cursing when i saw the time.
not sure what to do, and well today might not be a good day to strive.

#rants.

XX

Tuesday six twenty-first.
same as any ordinary day, but yes we finally went out on a date after ages.
i know someone's beening piled with projects.
anyways i'm like forcing myself to do some posts that i'd been reluctant to drop by this page to write up on.
anyways, pretty much a bad day at first.
we missed out movie timings, and we'd to plan on the spot.

** do pardon my lousy blogpost because i'm pretty much in a confused state.

anyways, we sorta just went on with what we've and things sorta went pretty much smooth sailing. & i nvr like the idea of watching guy-movie with my gf, but Adel wanna watch green lantern cos' her friends're watching.
*wonders if she's actually watching for ryan :/ *

i'd got friends who'd watch that show too.
but well it wasn't that mundane isn't it? at least i know the lantern act as a wireless charger.
and i pretty love how things flow, but maybe 115 minutes just ain't enough to squeeze in every single bit of detail, but the movie's pretty near perfect i can say :D
might be one of DC finest.

behave like any other couple after the movie, and simply just strolled down the "god knows why it is so mother fucking crowded despite being a tuesday" street on orchard. went off and look at her shoes coz' adel doesn't want slippers. but she wanted slippers with a strap behind. O_O
and there we go, zipping through shops by shops, thou i only remembered mimosa. but alas, it's always hard to find a proper shoe isn't it?
head back early thou, and it's technically a short day, but we wanted to take bus from marina because we wanted seats.
got up some bus and, got down when we saw some enormous bunny balloon sitting outside SAM and we both got down and act like retarded asians taking photos with it, wasting time & electrical energy.
leg's about to give way when we got up the bus, and we totally slept throughout the ride.

=3

the reunion

the reunion's pretty good today.
it feels pretty different and awkward thou,
i'd say since all of us grow up now?

meet up with guys at 3 and take our stuff.
yes finally taking our diploma? thought we could leave them until we're out from national service.
smiled weakly and ticked an item off my agenda in my mine.
everyone'd changed so much.

jiawei, felix.
didn't get to see sam and frank thou. missed them to bits. only 2 guys amongst the 4 whom i can get into ang mo mode with.

*

U OVERTURN B1A4 U WRITE DOWN, THE 4 U NO CONNECT. U GET HELP with an inverted P

pass

twisted fingers, twisted thoughts
all the mind battles that i'd fought
swirling in my mind like a whirlpool
end of the day i wondered, am i actually the fool
crawling with blisters on my fingers
with one hand clinging on your mother fucking picture.

i just wanted a place to rant,
a wall that i could scream at and wont echo back as if challenging me
a doll which i can bitch around to but smiles back at me and tell me it's alright.

i'd got no idea,
really no idea.
well it's a strange side of me,
cancerians, are pretty twisted isn't it?
weird sea creatures that dwells in 1 shell, that hermit.
afraid of change, and wont step out of their comfort zone.
no idea what's in this gigantic black void that's lingering below beneath my heart.

if you're wondering my story's been a fairytale, then you're wrong.
so what if it's a book with a golden frame.
u just didn't realise the torn and jaded pages, and if you look closer over that, the prince is not me, i'm actually the one being tied up and dragged across the town by the horse. D:

i had my fair share of suffering oh hell yes i do.
ever tried getting played? waited like a dog.
i'm not sure if dog is the right word to describe my "then" state? but i'm sure u treat me worst amongst ur past stead then?
throwing me and let me wait alone for like 4/5 hours?
moreover i got no idea ur social circles extended to even the dark side.
with all the names down in your phone.
i helplessly lingers when i watched you fly into the storm.
how u treated me like an old play toy, casting me off when u don't need me.
how you stood and watched as i cry, as i teared and throw off my pride as a men and went down.
i can't even run, and i stood there. alone.
maybe it's worst than alone. there, my parents watched helplessly as i lay down with my pillows and act out a funeral scene like in the movies. LIKE NOW
as if it would nvr put things right again.
sad

tons and lots of stuff that i kept locked into my mine where i don't wanna retrieve.
such twisted stuff, that's indescribable purged my head like a poison lotus set within a pond, kill other creatures as it blossom. Not that beautiful after all isn't it?
such twisted things that changed how i thought, and i how i changed the weight of importance in my heart. even to the extend of actions that i'd do.
i regret every ounce of it that'd stained this book.
but i know the pages can't be rewritten.
i'd been rob of what i had,
the kind in me, all gone.
how it all shaped me, turning me into a monster.
i'd got no patience never would i want to wait.
better let the world down then the world let u down, let Mr CaoCao said,
i'm scared of thieves, thats why i woke up every night despite having 3 burglar alarm. I peer out of the window every night to check despite having installed security cameras, having afraid that it wont capture their faces.

once bitten twice shy, a burnt child dreads fire.
but what if i'm helplessly in love with the flames that eats my skin.
i could only falter.

we're all twisted.
u and i.
you'd got ur story and i'd got mine
but when the coin's flipped, it only show one side.
but fuck it, i'm still gonna fight.

i would still walk this maze if it's a dead end.
so much for saying smth sweet. didn't think u care after all -deletes tweet-

helpless lika dog

devil's tears

morning...

R

rarely did i woke up that early.
well, been a week or 2 since i started using my laptop over my fan.
the step up is tedious and once i sat down, i wont even bother to get up.
not pushing the blame, but that sorta explain my late sleeping hours.

After the crash, my life'd been rather planless now, going witht he flow. & whatever i'm doing right now, i'd been rather lazy actually.
*prays* that i get my custom rig by the 2nd of this week so i can end my torment.

woke up pretty early for god no idea why, and well. been a plain rainy day for me. Got myself 3 toast and a cup of coffee while i surf the channels why cursing starhub aimlessly :x
well that happens when u gave us 3 mths of free basic channel and 3 days of all channels. and it's so hard to memorize them. After aimlessly pressing up and down, stopping for 15 mins @ MTV and some nonsensical taiwan variety show, i'd decided to settle down at sreen singapore.

screen singapore 2011 is up now and i'd been loving all the short films that they presented. But is the arts dying? i can't put my fingers on this thought that flows endlessly around my vast ocean of teeny weeny thoughts.
What happen to your dream to make a film & to captivate the audience?
i sorta gave it up when i ended up like "any-other-ordinary-hokkien-swearing-engineering-guy"

even do i do wanna head down to substation & sinema for a day or 2, but alas i didn't have much art appreciation kakis don't i?
mind's sorta fucked up right now but i hope that ppl do stop and at least appreciate some of the amazingly beautiful local arts.

P.S. i do really wanted to make a depressing HDB film D:

anw, mum said i looked like some depress kid. FML.

sharing this cos i saw this just now.
lol, revealing 17 year old xmm D:

PP

awaiting reply from the guy whom lix recommended.
meanwhile pinged up Isaac and i might be able to get a sleek quad core CPU @ 1.2k

well not really sure where to go until i'd got the 2 specs side by side and think it over.
actually this post's for myself for doing comparison.

Lix's

Intel i5 2500 w/ gigabyte p67a ud3 @ 465
Kingston 4gb ddr3 x 2 pcs @ 114
palit gtx 560 1GB ti @ 312
Samsung 1TB @ 72
Samsung 24 x dvdrw boxpack @ 26
Seasonic m12 620w @ 125
ikonik en2 case @ 60
coolermaster 12cm fan x 2 pc @ 20
Samsung s23a350h 23" LED @ 300

delivery + assembly + os installation @ 30

TOTAL= $1506.

Ronnie's

For a budget of $1.5k for a cpu with monitor, I would recommend:

Intel i5 2400 Biostar TP67B+ $368
Kingston 4gb ddr3 x 2 pcs $102 (8gb total)
Palit gtx 560 1gb sonic platinum $286 [GPU from Nvidia GeForce]
WD 1tb blue sata 3 $77
Samsung dvdrw $25
Seasonic M12-520w $110 (buzzing soung)
Ikonik en2 case $60
Coolermaster 12cm fan $10
Dell U2311H 23” IPS monitor $265
Altec Lansing V2621 2.1 spk $69
Logitech K200 usb keyboard $13
Delivery, assembly and os installation $30

Total - $1415 nett
(don't need speaker)

heal

title shld be dance or heal.
but anyways.
it's early in the morning when i'm still shoving my half tired ass right infront of my laptop.
my fingers danced randomly amongst the key, typing whatever i can think of, googling and reading up on random things due to my reluctance to shower.

& well, saw an lizard lurking outside and i ended up shoving my blanket under the gaps of my door. Probably too scared to go out.
anyways, today's sorta a joy.
not really that "god imma under the same sky as jiyeon thing"
i'm like that also when taeyeon's here :D

not particularly a kpop fan, well if you know me i listen to like god knows how many genres of songs, from pop to r&b, celtics classicals and even folklore so..
ya know when i get seh and all to entertain and stuff, of cos imma happy that they're here. and well it's for charity as well so i'm actually glad that the world's doing their bit to help the society. Spent my day at home doing nothing much, but took up business myself.
trade business if i wanted to sound professional.
it might sound pretty weird if i say i'm learning the secrets of trades in my tiny little lair while i'm healing my head. but well it's still a priceless experience for me.

anyways, yes heal the world concert right? got afew vid that you guys might wanna look at:

Orange Caramel



T-ara



of cos! yayaya :D my personal favourite.
ridiculously cute and funny dance :D YOMA YOMA LOVA LOVA YOMA YOMA SUPERNOVA! :D



no offense but i sorta lol actually :(
alot of JIYEON!, HYOMIN! EUNJUNG EUN JUNG! i love you. well all of the screams in the video.
climax's pretty crazy isn't it? how kpop manage to swept our little red dot off it's feet.

plans sorta went off course went i decided to head down town alone. and after which, met only ADEL to get our dinner. I actually thought she would screwed up thru ordering subway as she said she'll order first. well i was 5 sec late so i had to wait for the epic long traffic light outside 313 which usually like to accumulate a whole chunk of dicks before going green.

nabeh, u think make drama ah?

anyways, my eyes went wide when i saw adel holding onto 2 missles. Gigantic large drink with 6 cookies.

well we did have fun anyways, and of cos we made a deliberate detour to suntec to take an empty 700 so we can sleep our way back to BP.
and that pretty much sums it all,

can't believe that t-ara threw their gloves off to the crowd during bo peep



but didn't see them throwing it off thou :(
i wan the claws *rawr*

& knowing that they stayed in conrad hotel is 1 thing.
but who the hell spread that they lived on teh 9th floor? D:
actually that sorta kept me wonder, do they hire ppl to play the role of the *spark* to start the "fire"?

dAnce

goals of the month.

- get a com
- get a guitar (learn a fucking song at least)