Simplicity

My birthday wasn't a crazy one.
there's no yacht, neither i'm not holding a grand chalet on the other side of singapore, sending mass invitations on facebook and so forth.
it's just us.
yes, just us.
my girl and i...

We start of like any other normal date. She would get ready and all, drop by my place, where most male spices on need like 20 minds to prepare.
there's no R21 movie either, we make do with a PG one.


  
what i can say? bright colourful? and pretty much alittle overwhelming? not the animals, not the plot, just ages since i'd seen something so colorful.

moving on, we did a little window shopping, cruising down orchard, hand in hand. Enjoying this blissful moment as we pop in shops by shops, looking at the wide diversity of objects which we would've bought if we're rich. We then made an impromptu trip over to the adidas factory outlet @ novena and i'm glad to say that it's not fruitless after all. Manage to get myself a piece of overprice starwars apparel and after all the magic of trying and swiping your credit card. The hard truth just hit me like any hangover- what the fuck had i done?

Still grieving over my pain of the hole in my wallet, we made our way to.. errrr, guess this is suppose to be our impromptu highlight of the day.
our buffet @ grand park orchard.

disclaimer: i do not own any of the images

After taking a bus back, and a 10 mins short walk, we found our destination of leisure, Grand Park Orchard.

no doubt a classy place, with classy people, and god they have one of the most beautiful bar that i'd seen. the Bar Canary. What could beat a hard day of work? Chilly atmosphere, good music, and you're watching people walk from the top. Would somebody please pass me my margaritas please?

there's a 2nd lobby on the 4th floor, where they hold the bar, where people use the lift from there to access their rooms, and yes our buffet~ There's a beautiful bar top, and they throw in several couches and table for us to chill. 

and here we are, @ openhouse

beautiful sittings, a wide array of food. Some were there for you to take, and yet some requires ordering. Yes you're given a table number the moment u enter. and i like how they give us in bite size serving so we could eat more =D

there're several section so let me try break it down for you.

there's

 1. Roast Meat Station


- Honey Roast Meet
- Roast Duck
- Roast Pork Belly
- Chicken

u can ordered all 4 at once, or mix and match 2 of them. meat is pretty awesome and it'll be more advisable if u order this together with the noodle station next store since it'll be better to eat them together.

2. Noodle Station

u can get ur wanton mee, fish bee hoon , serve in bite size mini bowl.

- wantan mee

- prawn mee

- laksa

- fish bee hoon

 3. Dim Sum


- Char Siew Bao
- Har Gao
- sorry only remembered what i ordered for this one
their har gao is epic, they just made me love prawns.

 4. Pizza
u got to try their pizza. It;s quite a killer thou, but it's made in thin crust. sooo crispy and addictive

5. Claypot Rice
we didn't manage to try this, too full. but it is pretty bad ass

6. Desert and icecream
not forgetting the wide array of cakes puffs and it's colorful cupcakes. U can also opt for the traditional tau suan with you tiao.
why not end your day with a cup of tiramisu and ice cream? u can even shower ur icecream with rainbow rice~ cool or not? :D


7. Fruit/Salad Bar


there's alittle food salad counter as well. really small one.


8. Sushi Bar
Is would be heaven for sushi lover, even though there isn't a huge diversity for you to choose from, isn't it more than enough for you if it's "eat-all-you-want"? stop complaining and start challenging yourself.

Dinner couldn't had got any better. and to top things off, i'd got a 20% off for the buffet, so it's considered rather cheap for a buffet like this in such a classy place.
But you'd got to make reservation for this one. Despite it's quiet appearance from 6 to 7pm, people come streaming in from 8 and before you knew it, you'd to start queueing for ordering/taking food.

and there, now this memory would be engraved deeply in my heart and i made a silent vow to stay here for a night if i were to get rich someday.

There my birthday came to an end, a quiet bus ride home, with my hands over her shoulders, we went for a quick quiet slumber while the bus bring us home. Not forgetting the hotel manager who greet me good evening while i sat by the bar, reading ebook while waiting for adel doing her using magic. That's one of the most awesome smile that i've seen. he's a true winner.

lost

i just wish i can be the guy who would hold his hands outwards to the skies & dance w/ rain, as if receiving the many confetti that're thrown to him during the celebration of life.

so many things on my hand.
have to deal with so many little things that prick me like glass.
so tired, so much that i wish that time would stop on a perfect sunday afternoon, lazing on my bed, wall gazing, feeling the periodic wind blowing from the oscillation of my standing fan.

i'm tired..

two thirds

Ages since i'm here at this little space.

Little girls, fans of blog queens, and vintage princess came streaming in, not to forget the clubbing babes all pulling their awkward looking boyfriends. Girls squeezing into tiny walkways just to snatch the last piece of dress, waving or shouting frantically hoping to get the shop keeper's attention so they would threw it over. Squeals of delight or singlish rants could be heard, which that little obstacle could made them lose it, withholding the singaporean within. Girls kneeling down, putting their face into gigantic luggage digging for apparels, and shouting triumphantly waving the dress in the air, as if a bomb defuse commander cutting the right wire. 

Not to forget those celebrity blog princesses and prince who's there and their loyal fans who came over to support, ranging from those who bought alot of goods to those who squeeze through, just to take a photo with them.

Flea. yes flea.

What an interesting sight. Not a culture shock for me since i expected it, but it just seem special indeed. Not an ordinary Saturday since i spend my Saturday down at club avatar ogling at pretty ladies while adel does her shopping. I'm always wow-ed by how they turn clubs into flea markets, but they could just pull it off somehow. An array of goods, displayed along the podium, the dance floor, heels littered around the floors, this could be just what they meant by a women's dream. U dont even have to travel much, people are seen throwing glances in all directions and the tough part is only all about swimming through that crowd.

*starts to get lazy*

sorry, brain juice being sapped. over and out.

wasted

there i'm wasting my half day, retreating back to the comforts of my room, drowning myself in game again. hacking slashing in the virtual world, as if my soul would detach my body for abit and get sucked into this pixel world created out of data.

the adrenaline, the intensity, swept me off my feet. i've got no time to think of anything else. focusing on the objective, i moved on, made comrades, and lived my second life in the game.

do you believe in hypnotism?

live sorta changed after the result's out.
the way i live, how desperately clinging onto the last straw, hoping that the time bomb would never have to blow off as long as i shut my eyes.
laziness purged me as i sat infront of my desktop, oblivious of any other things around me. i kept pushing my priorities away, too stress to face, i'm still no ready.. i'm still running.

I'm glad i didn't break in camp, yes, another form of escape, where i could bring a more amplified of myself out. "fearless"? noisy? still that retarded.

day after day, i felt my brain juice being sucked out of me. stupider.
nth more interesting to blog about.

therapy

Do you believe in hypnotism?

It's a bit shocking to say, but by chance I'd a creepy encounter regarding this.

***

*knock knock*

"come in..."

I entered the office once again, this monthly ritual was no stranger to me. Of course, he's here to change me, crave me into a better person.

i sat down, trying to calm myself down, while remembering my homework...i'm to think of a place where i think i'm safe, calm, whatever. There i slowly trace out the place of tranquillity to him. With my fingers drawing every detail, a gray scale room, no colors but only splashes of different tones of black and white. A simple table and a queen side bed, by the center, facing my wardrobe which hides the droning television that shows nothing much statics. There was a ceiling fan as well, with a light bulb hanging from it, shaky. The windows shows out to nothing much an endless estates of flats.. You're right, this is nothing but a room in a hdb flat. nothing special, but i feel safe, confined in the world without colours.

dont judge me, i said to myself.

"alright, lets begin."

he starting sticking his middle and index finger facing towards me, hovering infront of me in some unkown rhythm, and i'm to follow his fingers with my eyes, gazing and pushing it. I tried to focus, and we did that every now and then, letting me alternate talking, breathing and fingers gazing...

"So what reminds you of the accident?"

"uhm.. i'm sorry?"

"Say, a picture, that reminds you of the accident, the worse part of it"

"the worst part of it?"

"yes, the worst part of it"

"a photo, of a road, stained with blood"

"just that?, is there anyone inside?"

"just that doc, i'll have to be honest that i see nobody inside"

"hmmmm.."

"and the picture's black and white as well, it's on grayscale, the trees are also black so is the skies, but the blood's red"

then we starting the finger gazing exercise which slowly brought me into twilight as i narrate what i saw.

*starts to hover his fingers*

"now take a deep breathe, close your eyes, and tell me what you see.."

*sighs*

"i saw... "

I thought i would have to make something up, not that i doubt this method, but i'm being sceptical and also i thought that i might screwed this up. But it's neither both, somehow i'm seeing something in my mind, as if i'm looking at my subconsciousness.

"i saw a car, moving, then crashing by the railings" (as if i can see what happen when i look at the picture)

*again*

"now i saw the car, crashed, people got out. i see people, yes i see myself"

we carried on, and the past seem to uncover by itself, all over again..

"yes the paramedics arrived, i didn't got up the ambulance, cos i wanted to save his ass"

yes, to save that hell of a mother fucker whom i think i owe him something during my past life because my life's became hell because of him. And to think he was someone i called a brother.

"and i starting having memory lost, i can't rmb a thing"

"not my hp number, nothing. i can see a sea of memories being flushed out as if they're clearing out with my blood"

i tighten my grip on the arm rest of the chair against this new found horror.

*again he does the finger gazing, rest for abit, and continues*

"i saw myself now, a&e, did all the paper work and stuff and went out"



"now i saw myself, slump onto the bed, as if i'm an audience, i saw my mum came into my room, saw half of my head bandaged, hair cut to close the wound, and my whole body reek of blood.."

"alright..."

"i can smell the blood doc, this metal taste, i could never forget"

"lets take a break" with that said, we did the finger gazing again and...

"yes i see myself again, mum crying, me dying, everything's so dark"

"and it replays again doctor, now in a little more faster pace."

swallowing a hard saliva, what happen next was beyond my comprehension.

"doctor.."

i narrate what have been going on. what it seems like a picture, is not actually a picture. i'm actually watching a movie reel, projected on a screen. Yet somehow i am strapped on a chair, as if some unkown being's forcing me to watch this grim video.

***

No drama, no nothing, i wasn't trembling in fear nor am i hysterically screaming for help when i exited the twilight.
just that, i left the place with a heavy body, no doubt, strangely tired. mentally tired. and also a silent regret that i rejected my doc's mc offer.


Strangely tired, i wandered around the estates, feeling loss, with no aim, no play to go. my appetite vanish, and i didn't ate anything for the whole of the day. and the worse have yet to come as when the sun goes down, that's when the devils come up to play.


twisted, shattering glass, blood, screaming.


"the night is still young my boy..."