Saturday, October 26, 2013
about time
a beautiful film,
maybe something i can relate to,
maybe the characters just touch my soul,
maybe if only i can do it too.
a solid 8,
but i guess you don't need 3 packs of tissue to watch this show
(right back at you who said need bring 3 packs of tissue before going into the cinema)
rough date thou,
maybe it's just we're going thru the rough patch.
i'm walking home, thoughts fluttering,
what if i can time travel? and to find the right one, i would actually time travel back, and get together with each and everyone of the girl to see if i got it right?
"nah... fuck that"
i won't.
i would actually go back to the days before i met you and make things right.
maybe i can meet you earlier,
spare you from the pain,
maybe i can know you earlier,
to protect you from everything that comes,
and i swear, i would make things right, silently.
Friday, October 25, 2013
fragments of my week.
"almost been a month since i last posted here when i thought i ought to do something.
and yes,
finally the great Ronnie is now working.
nothing fantastic, just basic telemarketing, "
"life haven been kind, i guess.
still on the journey to find out what i want.
i succumbed, i savage, yet nothing comes close."
"been exercising,
went trekking one a day or 2 with Richard and i daresay, i overcome the challenge,
running became a routine,
and work comes in.
things seem to be falling in place, yet in the most stereotypical ways.
a basic work, robotic routine that brings u to and fro
been strumming alot more, watching movies, reading,"
"flipping around in bed,
tossing my fat body, struggling to oblivion.
my mind is clearly awake,
yet fatigue draws in."
"Jinx just join the league,
but we haven met thou,
guess 7.8k ip is abit too much for now.
if you're on PC, do give the latest scribblenaut a shot,
it's really fantastic."
"oh yep, and my date on cloudy with a chance of meatballs 2.
didn't see any meat balls, but definitely am in love with the marshmallows.
strawberries are still scary thou.
a solid 7 i guess.
still behind wreck it thou."
"nights when i'm wondering,
hoping for a cold beer out at some highrise building, looking down, celebrating my life, quietly.
tranquil nights, and i'm out searching for answers.
the world, is nevertheless cruel,
and we're all animals.
the hierarchy, the weak gets preyed on,
the rules are clear enough, yet we have no choice but to be subdue by the rules of the jungle."
"we're watching like crazy,
a solid movie, a solid 8.5
and i cried.
so badly,
how it feels like to be in love, yet you're so numb that you can't taste happiness anymore.
starstruck, call me a sucker for romance..."
"pokefans,
get ready to revive your memories with pokemon origin,
an anime series released to gear fans up for the lastest installation.
spoiler: brutality of squirtle chewing on charmander
what're you waiting for?
lets catch'em all"
"& YES! pokemon xy is finally out! you guys shld definitely join the local community and start playing together,
cant wait to get my hands on my 3ds and start playing >_<"
'nights like this again,
when i'm putting up music,
goosebumps rising,
days when i'm feeling extra sensitive, to everything.
every thoughts that electrify,
my heart melt under the moon"
"days when i read my writings,
and asked myself if i'm doing it right"
and yes,
finally the great Ronnie is now working.
nothing fantastic, just basic telemarketing, "
"life haven been kind, i guess.
still on the journey to find out what i want.
i succumbed, i savage, yet nothing comes close."
"been exercising,
went trekking one a day or 2 with Richard and i daresay, i overcome the challenge,
running became a routine,
and work comes in.
things seem to be falling in place, yet in the most stereotypical ways.
a basic work, robotic routine that brings u to and fro
been strumming alot more, watching movies, reading,"
"flipping around in bed,
tossing my fat body, struggling to oblivion.
my mind is clearly awake,
yet fatigue draws in."
"Jinx just join the league,
but we haven met thou,
guess 7.8k ip is abit too much for now.
if you're on PC, do give the latest scribblenaut a shot,
it's really fantastic."
"oh yep, and my date on cloudy with a chance of meatballs 2.
didn't see any meat balls, but definitely am in love with the marshmallows.
strawberries are still scary thou.
a solid 7 i guess.
still behind wreck it thou."
"nights when i'm wondering,
hoping for a cold beer out at some highrise building, looking down, celebrating my life, quietly.
tranquil nights, and i'm out searching for answers.
the world, is nevertheless cruel,
and we're all animals.
the hierarchy, the weak gets preyed on,
the rules are clear enough, yet we have no choice but to be subdue by the rules of the jungle."
"we're watching like crazy,
a solid movie, a solid 8.5
and i cried.
so badly,
how it feels like to be in love, yet you're so numb that you can't taste happiness anymore.
starstruck, call me a sucker for romance..."
"pokefans,
get ready to revive your memories with pokemon origin,
an anime series released to gear fans up for the lastest installation.
spoiler: brutality of squirtle chewing on charmander
what're you waiting for?
lets catch'em all"
"& YES! pokemon xy is finally out! you guys shld definitely join the local community and start playing together,
cant wait to get my hands on my 3ds and start playing >_<"
'nights like this again,
when i'm putting up music,
goosebumps rising,
days when i'm feeling extra sensitive, to everything.
every thoughts that electrify,
my heart melt under the moon"
"days when i read my writings,
and asked myself if i'm doing it right"
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
stay strong.
說好卻沒一起到的地方
只剩下模糊的想像
總說日子還很長
還記得當時你嚮往的模樣
過去像是破舊的遊樂場
零碎的歡樂最難忘
畫面一直在回放
當初我們是如此愛著對方
你聊起你的流浪
很客氣地分享
你有沒有看穿我還是一樣
淡然應付窘狀 為何還是好難
而你已比從前寬廣
我說著我的近況
儘是無關痛癢
工作依然頻繁我還是一樣
偶爾也會孤單 無數失眠的夜晚
想念你的舊創 也一樣
記憶深處殘存了些盼望
時不時在我腦海蕩
你留給我的影響
多年以後還在我身上頑強
你眉宇還是飛揚 笑聲還是爽朗
愛情走了多遠我難以想像
回不去的時光 落下往日的夕陽
我還有什麼能 不一樣
Sunday, September 29, 2013
confessions of a warwrick
We're drinking by the tavern,
a yet again victory with my fellow mates
"My grizzly fur that brushes against the wind,
when i'm chasing down in the league,
fearless, as they claim.
but stupidity bought me nothing but shame.
The cursed concoction conjured by my brother,
only made me look unlike no other,
that missing ingredient that i seek,
the heart of a celestial being completes the trick
Trekking down from shadow isles,
the silver i'd gotten with the help of elves,
trapping down the dire wolf,
from which it fangs that i cut loose,
left the hearts of the celestial beings
my eyes was almost beaming
chasing down the child of the stars
in it's heart i would put it in my silver jar
silenced by the child and drove away,
fuming with anger and exhilarating dismay
a yet again victory with my fellow mates
"My grizzly fur that brushes against the wind,
when i'm chasing down in the league,
fearless, as they claim.
but stupidity bought me nothing but shame.
The cursed concoction conjured by my brother,
only made me look unlike no other,
that missing ingredient that i seek,
the heart of a celestial being completes the trick
Trekking down from shadow isles,
the silver i'd gotten with the help of elves,
trapping down the dire wolf,
from which it fangs that i cut loose,
left the hearts of the celestial beings
my eyes was almost beaming
chasing down the child of the stars
in it's heart i would put it in my silver jar
silenced by the child and drove away,
fuming with anger and exhilarating dismay
i clenched my fist and demanded the potion,
The Chemist looked and me and then to his unfinished concoction,
moving towards him, i'd unleash my beast from within,
grabbing the potion and taking it all in
i felt the immerse heat & fell onto the floor
i know i wasn't human anymore...
Back on my feet, after my baneful treat
I looked at the petrified chemist, sighed and retreat
As guilty i know he is, it's rage who consumed me
Silenced, just like a fleeting dream
Ready to take down anyone who stands between me,
i even took down the innocent manatee
Trekking down the heart of the beast,
There, i sharpens my claws and prepare for the feast..."
Another round please ask the Blood Hunter,
clinging beer and lowering into a whisper,
i heard, there's another celestial being in runeterra, isn't it?
amongst the table he ask.
Yes said the Spirit Walker, and all hushed within
"Ao Shin.."
Thursday, September 26, 2013
the support
i looked lazily at my watch while my other hand stirred the summoning orb in my pocket.
C & I walked out of the summoner's room and slumped right onto the couch in the lobby.
It was the wee hours in the morning, and the institute of war is still alive, maybe alittle less.
there're stories of people who lost their souls in the league,
people who go into endless game, trying to seek power from the cup,
my heated hands from all the summoning,
"10 over games today, what have we done?'
---
i walked out to the river,
no longer were the sound of the hooves makes my blood gush anymore.
the hooved entity that ride with me, trampling everyone else.
there wasn't any hesitation when i bought her with my influence point.
the familiar beep when you unlocked a right to use the champion.
i bought her right into the big games,
tidal waves that scorn foes,
little did i know my league story would have this little twist.
a support,
vision, protect, engage,
map dominance is my thing as i protect the objectives.
a tedious job, i would say.
i never see this coming.
i made many new friends
the little girl who plays with butterflies,
and the chain warden who's obsessed with souls
---
i'm at the river when i looked her in the eyes.
her half body surfacing at the water shines as the moonlight fell into her.
her story isn't at all complete, just as mine.
searching for the moonstone, she is very much stuck in the league, while waiting for answers.
maybe that's how our fate entwined.
"good night" she whispered,
moving closer to me i felt her ice cold lips touched my forehead
and she moved back and smiled..
i felt myself floating into oblivion as a bubble materialized,
i floated & i watched one last time as the scaly figure flipped,
dive head into the calm waters.
as her tail submerged, i fall onto the ground as the bubble popped.
we'll meet again.
C & I walked out of the summoner's room and slumped right onto the couch in the lobby.
It was the wee hours in the morning, and the institute of war is still alive, maybe alittle less.
there're stories of people who lost their souls in the league,
people who go into endless game, trying to seek power from the cup,
my heated hands from all the summoning,
"10 over games today, what have we done?'
---
i walked out to the river,
no longer were the sound of the hooves makes my blood gush anymore.
the hooved entity that ride with me, trampling everyone else.
there wasn't any hesitation when i bought her with my influence point.
the familiar beep when you unlocked a right to use the champion.
i bought her right into the big games,
tidal waves that scorn foes,
little did i know my league story would have this little twist.
a support,
vision, protect, engage,
map dominance is my thing as i protect the objectives.
a tedious job, i would say.
i never see this coming.
i made many new friends
the little girl who plays with butterflies,
and the chain warden who's obsessed with souls
---
i'm at the river when i looked her in the eyes.
her half body surfacing at the water shines as the moonlight fell into her.
her story isn't at all complete, just as mine.
searching for the moonstone, she is very much stuck in the league, while waiting for answers.
maybe that's how our fate entwined.
"good night" she whispered,
moving closer to me i felt her ice cold lips touched my forehead
and she moved back and smiled..
i felt myself floating into oblivion as a bubble materialized,
i floated & i watched one last time as the scaly figure flipped,
dive head into the calm waters.
as her tail submerged, i fall onto the ground as the bubble popped.
we'll meet again.
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Peopl3: worker bees
The worker bees in our little commune,
Everyone is just a slave for one another.
It all goes in a circle. And yet, all still bows down to the grim reaper.
when they would be sleeping 5ft under.
Volume 3: Worker Bees
A plump size lady, earphones plugged in, oblivious to the outside world as she squeeze herself into the bus every morning.
Ignoring the scorns and leers of the other people, she shove her enormous self up into the bus, whilst eyes glued into her minature tv holding by her giant hands.
There she go, numbing herself for months. She know she wasn't born pretty and she'd already learn to numb herself in many ways since young,
no thaunts and leers could get through her ears while she lived in her happy world.
Commiting herself to this daily routine, working in the backlines, oblivious to politics, she likes things in order, in control.
Simplicity, Single, Happy.
---
His sling bag slides lazily as he walks, newspaper held between his armpits, fingers pressing violently on the buttons of the controls as he's trying to beat his new highscore.
Who would have known his existence? He quietly sneak into a seat on the bus and just played on.
Not a social butterfly since young, he always envy those who stands out.
But never did, not when his brighter sister is in the spotlight amongst his family.
---
Hair combed back, suave, he could pass off as a model. His eyes could charmed you and guys swarm to him listening to his "bed"-time stories. He had a scandal with almost any other female in the office and the female boss loves him.
Charming eyes, narcissistic smiles, he spends most of his time in social media than work, yet it's his face that gives him credit for. His ill gotten promotion started tongues wagging behind his back, so is his crazy party life. Girls threw themselves onto him, and he threw them off after using them. After a crazy day at work, there he was, only with his solitude in his elevator on his way home.
---
He woke up on the dot everyday, preparing himself, making sure he didn't miss out anything before he hastily left the house. Why is he always late even when he set the alarm up early?
A typical JC-uni graduate, he spent most of his lives facing books, rather than talking to people.
The marks wars taught him how to go solo, and little did he realize, that socializing is just as important as studying. He would missed out every one meeting from his old friends, and confine himself in the comforts of his room, mugging aggressively, as if building stockpile for the war.
And yet as prepare he was, he was unprepared during the many interviews.
It was only one company that took him in, offering a measly 1.7k for his degree, yet he have no choice but to take it anyway. Yet he was given tons of work, and ad hoc errands.
It's always so difficult to please his boss.
Didn't father and mother say all will be well if we get good grades?
Why school didn't teach us how to please the boss?
---
Shaking her legs on a high stool whilst watching her favourite movie on funshion, you could definitely felt her annoyance in her "WHAT?" when u asked her a question. Sitting by the push cart, watching shows just so time can pass faster. With just an o level cert and an abortion experience under her belt, there's nothing much less she can do besides posting cleavage photos in her instagram. Her tribal rose tattoo engraved behind her back after her first serious boyfriend left her gave her nothing but pain. Moving on, the guys she met are all jerks, and yet she fall for the same trick, again and again, until her recent abortion.
Yet she seek comfort from the rose, strong, sturdy, protecting itself from outsiders with her little thorns.
Who would know of her stories?
---
"Bye!" He wave goodbye to his fellow cliques before departing. He just can't wait to get home to catch the latest episode of one piece. Opening his manga app the moment he's alone, he continue from where he'd left off in his manga. Working in the IT sector, he was cut off from feminine contact right after his poly days, much less in Army which comes right after that. After nicking 5 years off and working in the it sector, he faces the least human contact and only interacts with gadgets and such. His little tech buddies are much less the same and it's always talks about anime, games or the upcoming geek movies that's going to be up.
Back into his room after work, with his babe posters staring back at him, he heaved a sigh, not knowing how else to get out of his life.
---
She woke up every morning, before lazing in bed with alittle snooze boost before dragging herself out of bed. Work yet again. The women in the mirror gave her strength, when she looked at herself, dolling up, carefully planting her make up. She could easily sneak into the bunches of typical OLs, yet not one knows how hard she work everyday. Entertaining clients, entertaining bosses, putting bread on the table. It's alittle too young to be talking about money, but as the eldest of the lot, she chose to give up her uni dreams so as to gel the household.
Alone, she felt. Distant, from her boyfriend. The long relationship falter as they were worlds apart. Plunging into self sabotage, he is as just as helpless as she herself is. Like they're between a glass wall. Yet, their hands connect in between the panels, smiling to each other.
"i love you.." he whispered,
"& i always will" he said, as tears stream down his face.
her other hand clenched tightly, hating how destiny have woven.. yet, unregretful for the beautiful love.
---
the baby's cries sounded like a siren amongst the house. She woke up with a jolt, not even glacing at the clock which shows 4am before tending to the baby. It was before she know it, when her actual 5.30 alarm sounded. Her husband still sleeping soundly opened his eyes lazily before dragging his feet up. As if on auto pilot after the usual morning greetings, the couple shuffled their feet, as if in sync, with each tending to their own business, not even crossing the each other's path. This smooth transition brings them back to the dining table when they have their dinner the night before. A simple french toast with eggs, he held the bread while position himself to face the TV, when it beamed to live, showing channel news asia.
***
the door bell rings-
"here comes the baby sitter" he said as she did his tie and he tided up her clothes, & clipped her hair. They looked at each other deep in the eyes when the knocking broke off their eye contact.
It's time to wake up.
---
He closed his eyes in annoyance when he heard that familiar beep just as he drove pass the ERP. It seems like the ERP would never miss him out. He clenched tightly onto his steering wheels in frustration as he was reminded to top up his cash card by the card reader.
"top up again, how dare they?" yet he can do nothing about it.
Helpless, bounded by the income ceiling, he could no longer get out of the middle class household.
His heavy bank loan in his 4-room flat took a huge toll on him and he could not think of any practical idea than to work his ass off.
He opened his letter box, and cursed again as he draw out the usual telco bills.
The kids turned up their head to the familiar faces when they head the metal door cranked open.
Running up to her father, she exclaimed "Papa wo jin tian de ting xie na yi bai fen! ni jiang yao mai wan ju gei wo de!"
"oh, fuck me."
---
Everyone is just a slave for one another.
It all goes in a circle. And yet, all still bows down to the grim reaper.
when they would be sleeping 5ft under.
Volume 3: Worker Bees
A plump size lady, earphones plugged in, oblivious to the outside world as she squeeze herself into the bus every morning.
Ignoring the scorns and leers of the other people, she shove her enormous self up into the bus, whilst eyes glued into her minature tv holding by her giant hands.
There she go, numbing herself for months. She know she wasn't born pretty and she'd already learn to numb herself in many ways since young,
no thaunts and leers could get through her ears while she lived in her happy world.
Commiting herself to this daily routine, working in the backlines, oblivious to politics, she likes things in order, in control.
Simplicity, Single, Happy.
---
His sling bag slides lazily as he walks, newspaper held between his armpits, fingers pressing violently on the buttons of the controls as he's trying to beat his new highscore.
Who would have known his existence? He quietly sneak into a seat on the bus and just played on.
Not a social butterfly since young, he always envy those who stands out.
But never did, not when his brighter sister is in the spotlight amongst his family.
---
Hair combed back, suave, he could pass off as a model. His eyes could charmed you and guys swarm to him listening to his "bed"-time stories. He had a scandal with almost any other female in the office and the female boss loves him.
Charming eyes, narcissistic smiles, he spends most of his time in social media than work, yet it's his face that gives him credit for. His ill gotten promotion started tongues wagging behind his back, so is his crazy party life. Girls threw themselves onto him, and he threw them off after using them. After a crazy day at work, there he was, only with his solitude in his elevator on his way home.
---
He woke up on the dot everyday, preparing himself, making sure he didn't miss out anything before he hastily left the house. Why is he always late even when he set the alarm up early?
A typical JC-uni graduate, he spent most of his lives facing books, rather than talking to people.
The marks wars taught him how to go solo, and little did he realize, that socializing is just as important as studying. He would missed out every one meeting from his old friends, and confine himself in the comforts of his room, mugging aggressively, as if building stockpile for the war.
And yet as prepare he was, he was unprepared during the many interviews.
It was only one company that took him in, offering a measly 1.7k for his degree, yet he have no choice but to take it anyway. Yet he was given tons of work, and ad hoc errands.
It's always so difficult to please his boss.
Didn't father and mother say all will be well if we get good grades?
Why school didn't teach us how to please the boss?
---
Shaking her legs on a high stool whilst watching her favourite movie on funshion, you could definitely felt her annoyance in her "WHAT?" when u asked her a question. Sitting by the push cart, watching shows just so time can pass faster. With just an o level cert and an abortion experience under her belt, there's nothing much less she can do besides posting cleavage photos in her instagram. Her tribal rose tattoo engraved behind her back after her first serious boyfriend left her gave her nothing but pain. Moving on, the guys she met are all jerks, and yet she fall for the same trick, again and again, until her recent abortion.
Yet she seek comfort from the rose, strong, sturdy, protecting itself from outsiders with her little thorns.
Who would know of her stories?
---
"Bye!" He wave goodbye to his fellow cliques before departing. He just can't wait to get home to catch the latest episode of one piece. Opening his manga app the moment he's alone, he continue from where he'd left off in his manga. Working in the IT sector, he was cut off from feminine contact right after his poly days, much less in Army which comes right after that. After nicking 5 years off and working in the it sector, he faces the least human contact and only interacts with gadgets and such. His little tech buddies are much less the same and it's always talks about anime, games or the upcoming geek movies that's going to be up.
Back into his room after work, with his babe posters staring back at him, he heaved a sigh, not knowing how else to get out of his life.
---
She woke up every morning, before lazing in bed with alittle snooze boost before dragging herself out of bed. Work yet again. The women in the mirror gave her strength, when she looked at herself, dolling up, carefully planting her make up. She could easily sneak into the bunches of typical OLs, yet not one knows how hard she work everyday. Entertaining clients, entertaining bosses, putting bread on the table. It's alittle too young to be talking about money, but as the eldest of the lot, she chose to give up her uni dreams so as to gel the household.
Alone, she felt. Distant, from her boyfriend. The long relationship falter as they were worlds apart. Plunging into self sabotage, he is as just as helpless as she herself is. Like they're between a glass wall. Yet, their hands connect in between the panels, smiling to each other.
"i love you.." he whispered,
"& i always will" he said, as tears stream down his face.
her other hand clenched tightly, hating how destiny have woven.. yet, unregretful for the beautiful love.
---
the baby's cries sounded like a siren amongst the house. She woke up with a jolt, not even glacing at the clock which shows 4am before tending to the baby. It was before she know it, when her actual 5.30 alarm sounded. Her husband still sleeping soundly opened his eyes lazily before dragging his feet up. As if on auto pilot after the usual morning greetings, the couple shuffled their feet, as if in sync, with each tending to their own business, not even crossing the each other's path. This smooth transition brings them back to the dining table when they have their dinner the night before. A simple french toast with eggs, he held the bread while position himself to face the TV, when it beamed to live, showing channel news asia.
***
the door bell rings-
"here comes the baby sitter" he said as she did his tie and he tided up her clothes, & clipped her hair. They looked at each other deep in the eyes when the knocking broke off their eye contact.
It's time to wake up.
---
He closed his eyes in annoyance when he heard that familiar beep just as he drove pass the ERP. It seems like the ERP would never miss him out. He clenched tightly onto his steering wheels in frustration as he was reminded to top up his cash card by the card reader.
"top up again, how dare they?" yet he can do nothing about it.
Helpless, bounded by the income ceiling, he could no longer get out of the middle class household.
His heavy bank loan in his 4-room flat took a huge toll on him and he could not think of any practical idea than to work his ass off.
He opened his letter box, and cursed again as he draw out the usual telco bills.
The kids turned up their head to the familiar faces when they head the metal door cranked open.
Running up to her father, she exclaimed "Papa wo jin tian de ting xie na yi bai fen! ni jiang yao mai wan ju gei wo de!"
"oh, fuck me."
---
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
help
it'd been ages since i'd been here and there're tons of things that i would actually like to share with everyone here,
Such as the impressive upcoming GTA 5 that have been hitting the roof,
the end of season 3 rewards in the league of legends,
and afew others which might have slipped off my mind.
I badly need to get out,
some fresh air,
anything,
people watching again..
Friday, September 6, 2013
aftershock
i badly have to write now.
and i'm certainly,
almost certain that i'm not in the right state of my mind now.
dazed?
stoned?
which is a better word?
i couldn't tap into my brain to make a choice.
maybe because i'd never made any life changing decision,
or maybe i'm just being indecisive.
i dont know where to go anymore
the fear we all had,
where no amount of courage could overcome the feeling of the unknown.
it'll engulf us.
all in one piece.
i'm prepare to dive,
i know things can never be the same again.
and i'm certainly,
almost certain that i'm not in the right state of my mind now.
dazed?
stoned?
which is a better word?
i couldn't tap into my brain to make a choice.
maybe because i'd never made any life changing decision,
or maybe i'm just being indecisive.
i dont know where to go anymore
the fear we all had,
where no amount of courage could overcome the feeling of the unknown.
it'll engulf us.
all in one piece.
i'm prepare to dive,
i know things can never be the same again.
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Ambition
I'm wide awake.
Must be the kopi.
What comes came so suddenly that it took me off my feet.
But yesterday, I smiled to myself as I was walking down. A wide grin, the widest grin yet.
It was uncontrollable you know.
Always when I said, I couldn't feel the kick yet.
I'm not that kind who bully xin jiao with senority if you know :3
Anyways this tradition is just like some harmless school hazing.
It came so fast that made me felt lost actually. Where I would actually want to go.
Funny when you said it. Its like you know what you don't want however you dont know what you want.
Elimination method doesn't work, because there're still chunks of 'dont knows' you have to filter through.
My brain started pulling itself together. And my engine started running. Gears locking together spinning away the dust that settled in. A job, I need a job. An ambition perharps. No doubt, a goal.
I remembered once when I'm young, when we all have to stand up to tell our class about our ambition. Everyone had theirs; astronaut, teacher, policeman, chef, fireman. But when it was my turn to call, i stood up, taking only a deep breathe when I look deep into my teacher's eyes and asked, "what's the top paying job in the world? Then that'll be my job"
"A lawyer.." she replied. My class awed by the conversation that had transpire then.
"Then I will be a lawyer"
"You sure?"
"Yes!"
"You have to wear some ugly maggie mee wig on ur head"
"I don't mind as long as I'm rich"
"Then a lawyer you shall be"
=this post was written 2 days ago=
=i was interrupted by an event that crumbles the skies upon me before i know it=
Must be the kopi.
What comes came so suddenly that it took me off my feet.
But yesterday, I smiled to myself as I was walking down. A wide grin, the widest grin yet.
It was uncontrollable you know.
Always when I said, I couldn't feel the kick yet.
I'm not that kind who bully xin jiao with senority if you know :3
Anyways this tradition is just like some harmless school hazing.
It came so fast that made me felt lost actually. Where I would actually want to go.
Funny when you said it. Its like you know what you don't want however you dont know what you want.
Elimination method doesn't work, because there're still chunks of 'dont knows' you have to filter through.
My brain started pulling itself together. And my engine started running. Gears locking together spinning away the dust that settled in. A job, I need a job. An ambition perharps. No doubt, a goal.
I remembered once when I'm young, when we all have to stand up to tell our class about our ambition. Everyone had theirs; astronaut, teacher, policeman, chef, fireman. But when it was my turn to call, i stood up, taking only a deep breathe when I look deep into my teacher's eyes and asked, "what's the top paying job in the world? Then that'll be my job"
"A lawyer.." she replied. My class awed by the conversation that had transpire then.
"Then I will be a lawyer"
"You sure?"
"Yes!"
"You have to wear some ugly maggie mee wig on ur head"
"I don't mind as long as I'm rich"
"Then a lawyer you shall be"
=this post was written 2 days ago=
=i was interrupted by an event that crumbles the skies upon me before i know it=
Sunday, September 1, 2013
helpless
helpess.
i just want this week to pass.
without any worries,
without any hiccups,
i just want to be free...
again.
i badly want this to come,
&i wont look back.
i just want this week to pass.
without any worries,
without any hiccups,
i just want to be free...
again.
i badly want this to come,
&i wont look back.
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
play ; therapy
My last psychotherapy.
It's beautiful.
It touched my heart.
it touched me so bad that i want to remember all of it.
this moment whereby i play back my life, and play it on the paper right in front of me.
the most beautiful 5 stage of my life.
i can never forget,
how such tiny toys can reply the scenes of my life, bringing the miniature right onto me.
how i changed, from a colorless boy, to someone who found his first best friend,
how i learn how to cherish friendship, and found a buddy that been with me throughout my lifetime,
how i changed, to some noisy bickering rowdy bastard.
how i toned down, and run blindly after the girl of my dreams.
how i gave her all my firsts, without regret, despite all the hurts and heartbreak, and how i'm willing to go thru it all over again just that it's worth it and it attributes to who i am.
how i found that guy gangs are not that bad after all, recruiting the brotherhood. no matter how different we are, but we stand united, together against all odds.
and slowly, the phase of life when i met friends who're worth of a keeper, friends worth connecting for, going that extra miles for, and friends that i'll look after and keep them with me.
it all ended with a beautiful painting that i'd conjured with my memories,
the different phases of life and how much i'd changed.
i'm grateful, for what bestowed upon me. i always learnt how to appreciate.
admiring the finest painting,
i took a snap shot in my mind and keep it deep in my heart.
of course, not forgetting the current hiccups that i'd been getting.
i want to be free.
i want to be set, free..
It's beautiful.
It touched my heart.
it touched me so bad that i want to remember all of it.
this moment whereby i play back my life, and play it on the paper right in front of me.
the most beautiful 5 stage of my life.
i can never forget,
how such tiny toys can reply the scenes of my life, bringing the miniature right onto me.
how i changed, from a colorless boy, to someone who found his first best friend,
how i learn how to cherish friendship, and found a buddy that been with me throughout my lifetime,
how i changed, to some noisy bickering rowdy bastard.
how i toned down, and run blindly after the girl of my dreams.
how i gave her all my firsts, without regret, despite all the hurts and heartbreak, and how i'm willing to go thru it all over again just that it's worth it and it attributes to who i am.
how i found that guy gangs are not that bad after all, recruiting the brotherhood. no matter how different we are, but we stand united, together against all odds.
and slowly, the phase of life when i met friends who're worth of a keeper, friends worth connecting for, going that extra miles for, and friends that i'll look after and keep them with me.
it all ended with a beautiful painting that i'd conjured with my memories,
the different phases of life and how much i'd changed.
i'm grateful, for what bestowed upon me. i always learnt how to appreciate.
admiring the finest painting,
i took a snap shot in my mind and keep it deep in my heart.
of course, not forgetting the current hiccups that i'd been getting.
i want to be free.
i want to be set, free..
Friday, August 16, 2013
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
sluts and the falcon
"We don't get to choose where we came from, but we can choose where we go."
the perks of being a wallflower,
a beautiful film, and finally it bloomed.
a very soothing character movie,
how it all developed,
how deep it is.
and how the story slowly gets tied to you
misfits,
homosexuality,
drugs,
psychos,
& the tunnel song
"We are infinite".
the perks of being a wallflower,
a beautiful film, and finally it bloomed.
a very soothing character movie,
how it all developed,
how deep it is.
and how the story slowly gets tied to you
misfits,
homosexuality,
drugs,
psychos,
& the tunnel song
"We are infinite".
Payday 2
why payday?
because everybody needs a payday.
yes, the long awaited payday 2 is out,
and to top it off a set of webisobe is release to keep us in the mood.
4 episodes currently,
enjoy,
Let the heist begin
because everybody needs a payday.
yes, the long awaited payday 2 is out,
and to top it off a set of webisobe is release to keep us in the mood.
4 episodes currently,
enjoy,
Let the heist begin
here
where are you going?
i'm right here baby,
arms outstretched awaiting for your coming.
what's with the tears?
why the smudged mascara my lady
for i'm here,
to drive away all your fears.
we'll be happy,
i promise,
we'll be happy,
so will be our little tortoise,
in our little patio with the fishes,
where we sat there and reminisce
we'll be happy,
won't we?
i'm right here baby,
arms outstretched awaiting for your coming.
what's with the tears?
why the smudged mascara my lady
for i'm here,
to drive away all your fears.
we'll be happy,
i promise,
we'll be happy,
so will be our little tortoise,
in our little patio with the fishes,
where we sat there and reminisce
we'll be happy,
won't we?
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
conjuring
Based on a true story.
The conjuring;
things aside, movie was a fantastic 4star and it must be watched :D
did some reading on the truth of the true story:
Monday, August 12, 2013
Wisdom teeth I (R)
I thought I would better document this down. Alittle hilarious, more of a dark comedy if you were to put it.
As a boy with many fears, my fears come from when I'm young, the fear of dying if you miscue the fireman's pole in the playground, fear of height, water, and the list goes for a long time and I'm pretty sure it'd bored you out.
Long story short, within our national service, there's a loophole for this mini rite of passage that most guys would go thru before they ORD; the wisdom teeth extraction.
Yes, if we must do it, and it's free, most people does it as this is the period when wisdom teeth are formed. I experienced slight pain in chewing and little did I know I had 4 wisdom teeth that had to be plucked, and being a guy with a list of fears, I chose to go with GA, the once that would knock u out and before you know it, tadah!
In a series of events, I ended up having to do LA @ ttsh.
I always thought that ttsh is very far, inaccessible and all, but little did I know, it's just a stone throw away from the nearest mrt station (novena). And there's even an underpass that brings you right to the door step.
I ended up climbing the stairs as the lift are always full, after a 15minutes wait, I decided to bail and took the stairs instead. Situated at the 6th storey, I was a good 40 minutes early and I went on with the usual administrative procedure, the registration and so forth. Time flies when in fear and before I know it, I was called in and did my blood pressure check before heading into the theatre. And the mi see laugh at lim peh when I say I'm scared :(
I know how u guys like to tell patient everything's gonna be alright but.. :( the pain begin when there's several injections are done to the gum, I tried my best to sleep with my mouth opened, but I failed. I ended up pinching my hands to distract me from then pain.
"Na ma eh chee bye, pain till I thought the operation is over alrdy"
But everything had just began..
I was blindfolded, covered up with several cloth and I can feel the apparatus laid neatly onto my chest and my 1 peck belly. A few jabs was even when I decided to ask my doctor how do u know whether can I feel the pain.
Oh wells, and there wasn't much pain. Drilling and pulling begins and I could feel the pressure being applied into my gums and teeth.
"Quick! Keep think of something"
"I imagined a switch room when I off the nervous system,"
"I swear I sang nursery rhythms in my heart when it took place. Teletubbies, barney.. When it drown in the loud drilling sound of the machine."
"I tried blocking off the noise, talking to myself while trying to keep my mouth open"
"I imagined I doing what I like"
"I shouted ord lo"
"I imagine me swimming in bank notes in my luxurious bath tub"
"Me sipping beer while enjoying the view in my future home"
"Back to singing teletubbies song"
"Sang alittle of land before time when I cursed myself for forgetting the lyrics"
I was also swinging my legs, lifting them up every now and then. Wildly I guess o_o pcb machiam filming exorcism.
And with a final pull, my teeth was out.
Could totally feel the stitching and the strings when they pull and maneuver it swiftly across my mouth.
And fuck, the top teeth. One more to go wtf?
but it came out before I could finish singing the teletubbies song.
And comes the stitching. Asked for a facemask since I'll be public transporting back. Waiting for my medication now, hope all goes well...
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Micheal & Sally
We all know what period is it now,
the chinese would know,
the people in Singapore should know,
and my brother still jio me to watch horror during this period of time.
but i daresay that since it wasn't advise to be out of the house, staying in and watching movies is quite a good idea.
we had a marathon of alot of movies this days and i would like to share with you guys!
*ratings are base on 5 stars
The Exorcism of Emily Rose [***]
True Story, well 3 stars for the non fiction factor, however it's quite dragging and boring.
Coming Soon [****]
It's not that bad, quite a scare. And i manage to find the full movie online with english subs! Enjoy~
Evil Dead [****]
Considered one of the good movies at that time when it was out, R21, it's worth a watch. This remake certainly is a good one. They'd got blood, gore, and the plot is well space as you got to see how each die before moving on, of course in a gloreeeey way.
Yes I can see Dead People [**]
This Dark Humor is not going anyway if not for the little comedy skit at the start and the chio bu. This plot is just... errr.. But i guess the sound effects and music are (Y). Classic Hong Kong Movie Style.
Vulgaria [***]
I don't know how we ended up watching this, the sexual scenes are ironically on the downside but i daresay the dialogues are good, and we would say no to Dada Chen's nipples?
Wrong Turn 5: Bloodlines [****.5]
The Classic franchise is back, this dark comedy horror have so much drama that keeps you clenching on the edge of this seat. Forget everything else, this can provoke laughter and screams. And for those who know, the 3 indestructible brothers are so classic that ironically they're the main leads of the show. Babes and Gore, perfect for geeks and guys alike~ No spoiler, but who will survive this? Now who's up for some popcorn?
18 Floors Underground/Lift to Hell [?]
We didn't complete it, but we would probably rate it 1.5 since we manage to survive 30 mins from that movie. CG effects certainly isn't anyway close to awesome and... lack of X factor. Wanna judge? here's the full movie below.
18 Floors Underground/Lift to Hell (English Subs)
the chinese would know,
the people in Singapore should know,
and my brother still jio me to watch horror during this period of time.
but i daresay that since it wasn't advise to be out of the house, staying in and watching movies is quite a good idea.
we had a marathon of alot of movies this days and i would like to share with you guys!
*ratings are base on 5 stars
The Exorcism of Emily Rose [***]
True Story, well 3 stars for the non fiction factor, however it's quite dragging and boring.
Coming Soon [****]
It's not that bad, quite a scare. And i manage to find the full movie online with english subs! Enjoy~
Evil Dead [****]
Considered one of the good movies at that time when it was out, R21, it's worth a watch. This remake certainly is a good one. They'd got blood, gore, and the plot is well space as you got to see how each die before moving on, of course in a gloreeeey way.
Yes I can see Dead People [**]
This Dark Humor is not going anyway if not for the little comedy skit at the start and the chio bu. This plot is just... errr.. But i guess the sound effects and music are (Y). Classic Hong Kong Movie Style.
Vulgaria [***]
I don't know how we ended up watching this, the sexual scenes are ironically on the downside but i daresay the dialogues are good, and we would say no to Dada Chen's nipples?
Wrong Turn 5: Bloodlines [****.5]
The Classic franchise is back, this dark comedy horror have so much drama that keeps you clenching on the edge of this seat. Forget everything else, this can provoke laughter and screams. And for those who know, the 3 indestructible brothers are so classic that ironically they're the main leads of the show. Babes and Gore, perfect for geeks and guys alike~ No spoiler, but who will survive this? Now who's up for some popcorn?
18 Floors Underground/Lift to Hell [?]
We didn't complete it, but we would probably rate it 1.5 since we manage to survive 30 mins from that movie. CG effects certainly isn't anyway close to awesome and... lack of X factor. Wanna judge? here's the full movie below.
18 Floors Underground/Lift to Hell (English Subs)
Friday, August 9, 2013
Ethos Books
Ethos Books is the one to go if you're thinking of supporting the local art scene with nowhere to start/go.
As someone who love the local arts scene, reels and reads are definitely my thing,
however this is one of such that i would like to share with people as i'm immersing into the vanishing point by felix cheong. Yep, i borrowed it from the library.
I was in, ever since Gone Case, it was always a fabulous read, keeping me in, a different type of reading i would say, given our rich culture which definitely is one of the factors that gives off a different feeling.
Just a sort section to share (:
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