Monday again,
Yes again.. Weekend seems to pass in a flash. I let my brain dwell in the weekends for abit before jolting out of bed. Prep up, and there I go.
"Let's get this over and down with shall we?" I told myself.
Music plugged in, there I was, strolling down to the bus stop, enjoying the morning breeze with alittle blocked nose. There I saw, people of all sorts. Getting ready for monday. That haggard looking office guy, wearing a medium size sling bag, newspaper folded, clasped in between his right shoulder as he trotted down to the bus stop. I'd finally saw sometime I thought would only exist in the anime. Secondary school girl, sitting at the passenger seat of the car, bun in her mouth, while trying to do her pony tail. But of course, not as pretty.
Few cars down the line, I noticed a father and son. The dad's tapping on his steering wheel impatiently as the car moves slowly against the wave of morning traffic while the son, wearing his army uniform, hugging onto his huge brown bag looks out of thw window with a stern face.
It was after afew more cars that my bus stop came into view. I stood there, playing lazily with my trackpad as I tried to find music. God, I haven't been updating my berry at all. Guess this goes down to my to do list.
TO DO LIST
1. Run (if not shag)
2. Update blackberry
3.
All quiet monday. That's all I ask for
Mantra of the week: hey now hey now, don't dream it's over~
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
ficial
so fun to watch.
superficial idiots running in circles,
thinking they'd got it all.
can't help but feel sorry for them :(
superficial idiots running in circles,
thinking they'd got it all.
can't help but feel sorry for them :(
Monday, April 15, 2013
dig
confused, confused, forever confused.
threading in circles.
where should i go?
what do i seek?
always i asked.
but what remains, are nothing but more questions.
the deeper i dig,
the more questions i had, as if like they cell division.
i found nothing,
down in the depth,
i wonder.
and i never stop wondering.
threading in circles.
where should i go?
what do i seek?
always i asked.
but what remains, are nothing but more questions.
the deeper i dig,
the more questions i had, as if like they cell division.
i found nothing,
down in the depth,
i wonder.
and i never stop wondering.
Friday, April 12, 2013
oblivion
it'd been waiting.
yes, this day for ages.
after the short KTV session,
i rushed off, leaving the rest there.
got up the bus,
i smiled to myself,
"the time to meet the boys"
there i was,
hairs up, on the bus,
i'm so sorry for the 3 hours wait.
i missed dinner, but that wasn't all.
thanks for setting a midnight movie just for me.
yes, i'd been waiting.
this persona of mine have been edging to come out,
yes, this particularly weird persona of mine.
it's hard to believe when i can actually speak good english when i'm with them.
sarcasm, downright immoral, down grading girls, asshole, jerk.
and my brain function alot quicker, i daresay~
i'm like the asshole of the crew, but i like how i could chain jokes, at the very least, lightening up the atmosphere with my jokes and actions alike.
and i like how smooth i actually speaks.
darn i miss this guy.
***
catching up, and while we're discussing our future...
"so how? after ORD do what?"
"so what's your plan?"
"u say first la, just now we discuss already, now your say then we say"
" *thinks* well i'm thinking whether to work or study"
"*laughs and put his hand around me* RONNIE WO MEN ZHE BIAN ZUI DAN XING DE JIU SHI NI LIAO"
"chee bye la, not funny la, *attempts to stomps off while laughing*"
(fuck me seriously)
it's really funny when i think of it.
i would never know, our group will go this way, with frank back to indo, two of them decided to sign on,
leaving me and sam. & to think sam abandoned me and went ahead to apply already.
*ahhh sigh*
(fretting over future and stuff)
starts to share my side lines where i did during free time and they'd been like urging me forever to go to sales/business.
"u talk so fast, go sell flat la"
"u haven seen the elimination game i played on the newspaper yet. Hell No"
"sell flat, 1 month sell one, can relax liao ma"
"fuck la, i really dont know what to do"
"aiya, study first then think lor"
"probably..."
made a mental note to think of at least something in this coming week.
***
00.05, we set sail to oblivion.
crusing in oblivion.
beautiful, sceneric. it's like a grand tv expo where the glamorous scenes flare up to life at the sliver screen.
before we were awed by the twist,
we were literally sent to oblivion on our seats.
but, it ends off, with a beautiful ending.
nevertheless, a solid 3.5 for cruise.
"nabeh lah what show lai?"
"ya lor, always kana cock show de leh"
"how?"
"guys, guys, guys, i'd gave up the movie halfway through. i'm just taking short naps and opening my eyes hoping to catch some tits action. they lost me there"
"aiya waste time, just now still thinking shld sleep anot"
"sleep la, lim peh sleep sia"
"so where is the alien ah?"
"2 hours i still cannot catch any ball leh"
"nabeh, first shuttle island, now this"
"shuttle island not bad what"
"slow movie la"
"k la k la, next time we watch sure hit one la, iron man 3 this kind la, on bo?"
"on on, we plan again"
"well, it's actually a very good movie, beautiful if you think about it"
"you guys seen source code? it's something along the line of this"
"aiya nvm, watch sure hit one"
"k lah, steady"
"eh when wan go genting?"
"ya hor! we 21 liao hor!! *exclaims"
"lai liao lai liao!"
"remember how we use to gamble anot"
"ya! like dog sia, pon school watch SLEAGUE"
and the chatter goes on~
looks like we haven changed after all.
& i never regret fucking my poly life big time for this shit.
HUAT
yes, this day for ages.
after the short KTV session,
i rushed off, leaving the rest there.
got up the bus,
i smiled to myself,
"the time to meet the boys"
there i was,
hairs up, on the bus,
i'm so sorry for the 3 hours wait.
i missed dinner, but that wasn't all.
thanks for setting a midnight movie just for me.
yes, i'd been waiting.
this persona of mine have been edging to come out,
yes, this particularly weird persona of mine.
it's hard to believe when i can actually speak good english when i'm with them.
sarcasm, downright immoral, down grading girls, asshole, jerk.
and my brain function alot quicker, i daresay~
i'm like the asshole of the crew, but i like how i could chain jokes, at the very least, lightening up the atmosphere with my jokes and actions alike.
and i like how smooth i actually speaks.
darn i miss this guy.
***
catching up, and while we're discussing our future...
"so how? after ORD do what?"
"so what's your plan?"
"u say first la, just now we discuss already, now your say then we say"
" *thinks* well i'm thinking whether to work or study"
"*laughs and put his hand around me* RONNIE WO MEN ZHE BIAN ZUI DAN XING DE JIU SHI NI LIAO"
"chee bye la, not funny la, *attempts to stomps off while laughing*"
(fuck me seriously)
it's really funny when i think of it.
i would never know, our group will go this way, with frank back to indo, two of them decided to sign on,
leaving me and sam. & to think sam abandoned me and went ahead to apply already.
*ahhh sigh*
(fretting over future and stuff)
starts to share my side lines where i did during free time and they'd been like urging me forever to go to sales/business.
"u talk so fast, go sell flat la"
"u haven seen the elimination game i played on the newspaper yet. Hell No"
"sell flat, 1 month sell one, can relax liao ma"
"fuck la, i really dont know what to do"
"aiya, study first then think lor"
"probably..."
made a mental note to think of at least something in this coming week.
***
00.05, we set sail to oblivion.
crusing in oblivion.
beautiful, sceneric. it's like a grand tv expo where the glamorous scenes flare up to life at the sliver screen.
before we were awed by the twist,
we were literally sent to oblivion on our seats.
but, it ends off, with a beautiful ending.
nevertheless, a solid 3.5 for cruise.
"nabeh lah what show lai?"
"ya lor, always kana cock show de leh"
"how?"
"guys, guys, guys, i'd gave up the movie halfway through. i'm just taking short naps and opening my eyes hoping to catch some tits action. they lost me there"
"aiya waste time, just now still thinking shld sleep anot"
"sleep la, lim peh sleep sia"
"so where is the alien ah?"
"2 hours i still cannot catch any ball leh"
"nabeh, first shuttle island, now this"
"shuttle island not bad what"
"slow movie la"
"k la k la, next time we watch sure hit one la, iron man 3 this kind la, on bo?"
"on on, we plan again"
"well, it's actually a very good movie, beautiful if you think about it"
"you guys seen source code? it's something along the line of this"
"aiya nvm, watch sure hit one"
"k lah, steady"
"eh when wan go genting?"
"ya hor! we 21 liao hor!! *exclaims"
"lai liao lai liao!"
"remember how we use to gamble anot"
"ya! like dog sia, pon school watch SLEAGUE"
and the chatter goes on~
looks like we haven changed after all.
& i never regret fucking my poly life big time for this shit.
HUAT
Thursday, April 11, 2013
flyday
After the crazy ktv session yesterday,
I could barely walk back.
Dragged my feet and I let the showers take me.
After that it was all drifting...
Drifting in and out of sleep...
8.13am,
I woke up, shut off the alarm,
Too tired to even curse myself..
12.13pm
Woke up, took my berry and slumped onto my bed, idly using my phone. Sending the usual wake up messages.
12.30pm
Eyelid fluttering,
In and out I go again..
12.51pm
I tried to open my eyes, I survey my phone with half an eyelid open, and it was all dark before I know it.
01.01pm
Told A to give me a call when it's time for preparation.
02.13pm
I jolted up from my dream. Realizing I'm there too long. Too late, 3 miss call and I literally chiong to prepare.
02.23pm
Done with my showers and all. hastily grab the gatsby wax and start making my hair.
02.36pm
Walking to bus stop.
02.59pm
Seriously, 960 cannot be fucking trusted. Usually it's 2 960 before other buses come again. But I'm sitting there, 2 961 pass by, 3 170 and 2 160. And there's still no sign of 960 until about half and hour later. D:
Nvm today will be awesome.
Just felt so angry and guilty that I'm late. If not, we'll be at haji already.
***
we transpired into somewhat a different place. So surreal, feels like we're in another country. After a somewhat long walk and despite the disappointment in the sales, we pulled out
***
Think it's time to start reading in camp again. Borrowed 3 books, let see if I'll finish them all.
I could barely walk back.
Dragged my feet and I let the showers take me.
After that it was all drifting...
Drifting in and out of sleep...
8.13am,
I woke up, shut off the alarm,
Too tired to even curse myself..
12.13pm
Woke up, took my berry and slumped onto my bed, idly using my phone. Sending the usual wake up messages.
12.30pm
Eyelid fluttering,
In and out I go again..
12.51pm
I tried to open my eyes, I survey my phone with half an eyelid open, and it was all dark before I know it.
01.01pm
Told A to give me a call when it's time for preparation.
02.13pm
I jolted up from my dream. Realizing I'm there too long. Too late, 3 miss call and I literally chiong to prepare.
02.23pm
Done with my showers and all. hastily grab the gatsby wax and start making my hair.
02.36pm
Walking to bus stop.
02.59pm
Seriously, 960 cannot be fucking trusted. Usually it's 2 960 before other buses come again. But I'm sitting there, 2 961 pass by, 3 170 and 2 160. And there's still no sign of 960 until about half and hour later. D:
Nvm today will be awesome.
Just felt so angry and guilty that I'm late. If not, we'll be at haji already.
***
we transpired into somewhat a different place. So surreal, feels like we're in another country. After a somewhat long walk and despite the disappointment in the sales, we pulled out
***
Think it's time to start reading in camp again. Borrowed 3 books, let see if I'll finish them all.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
080413
I reluctantly trotted out of my house after double checking my back pack, slamming my wooden door shut, there i left for camp, with a heavy feet.
Where have my drive gone to?
*sigh* I don't know.
I deeply wanted change,
Always I ask questions about life,
Yet deep inside, I know the first step would jolly well be stop procrastinating, yet somewhere inside me, isn't awake by any of these idealogy.
***
I start cursing myself yet again.
To top it off on my monday blues, I couldn't even get on the fucking bus because it's too crowded...
Duty today.
Days when your intuition failed you.
Mantra of the week:
I will stop judging
Where have my drive gone to?
*sigh* I don't know.
I deeply wanted change,
Always I ask questions about life,
Yet deep inside, I know the first step would jolly well be stop procrastinating, yet somewhere inside me, isn't awake by any of these idealogy.
***
I start cursing myself yet again.
To top it off on my monday blues, I couldn't even get on the fucking bus because it's too crowded...
Duty today.
Days when your intuition failed you.
Mantra of the week:
I will stop judging
Friday, April 5, 2013
250313 Front
25th March, Monday
There you go...
I took a deep breathe before closing the wooden door and shutting the metal gate of my house.
A strong front before I went out to face others.
The morning winds blew pass my face as I walked slowly down the steps.
Slowly down the grassy slope.
Sprinted for the bus,
I felt like a robot.
***
U don't get the song..
Well so do I. But, that song makes me feel like it's about being strong..
***
Tiring day again.
Can't decided whether should I cut my hair anot and before I know it...
"That'll be 3.80,
Want wash hair anot?"
Think I just had my hair cut by the same person. Guess she must be cursing inside when she have to cut some nsf hair, sweaty and all after a day of work D:
And I wasn't treated gently at all as she shaves my side hastily as if an amateur peeling a skin of an apple.
There you go...
I took a deep breathe before closing the wooden door and shutting the metal gate of my house.
A strong front before I went out to face others.
The morning winds blew pass my face as I walked slowly down the steps.
Slowly down the grassy slope.
Sprinted for the bus,
I felt like a robot.
***
U don't get the song..
Well so do I. But, that song makes me feel like it's about being strong..
***
Tiring day again.
Can't decided whether should I cut my hair anot and before I know it...
"That'll be 3.80,
Want wash hair anot?"
Think I just had my hair cut by the same person. Guess she must be cursing inside when she have to cut some nsf hair, sweaty and all after a day of work D:
And I wasn't treated gently at all as she shaves my side hastily as if an amateur peeling a skin of an apple.
300313 saturday
Listless again,
I sat down there at V again, taking occasional sips at my gigantic cup of cafe mocha while doing some casual reading on my berry.
The weather is being a total asshole today as I would choose to stay at home if not for coffee.
***
Was playing idly with the trackpad on my berry as the chatter drones on. Tired? Well I don't know. I haven been sleeping a lot lately. Insomnia? Doesn't look like it, just felt the nocturnal side of my coming back again after a while. The light of my electronics never fail to draws me over like moth to flames, slacking till odd hours in the mornings, feeling awake, functioning on low sleeping hours once again.
***
Moodless, but still I'm determine not to go back to square one. I plot my schedules, taking mental note of the 2 runs per week into consideration, the read ups that I'd been putting off. it's like I have a never ending list of 'read later'.
I'm typing away, oblivious..
This strange feelings evoked within me.
Day 5?
I'll get better..
I sat down there at V again, taking occasional sips at my gigantic cup of cafe mocha while doing some casual reading on my berry.
The weather is being a total asshole today as I would choose to stay at home if not for coffee.
***
Was playing idly with the trackpad on my berry as the chatter drones on. Tired? Well I don't know. I haven been sleeping a lot lately. Insomnia? Doesn't look like it, just felt the nocturnal side of my coming back again after a while. The light of my electronics never fail to draws me over like moth to flames, slacking till odd hours in the mornings, feeling awake, functioning on low sleeping hours once again.
***
Moodless, but still I'm determine not to go back to square one. I plot my schedules, taking mental note of the 2 runs per week into consideration, the read ups that I'd been putting off. it's like I have a never ending list of 'read later'.
I'm typing away, oblivious..
This strange feelings evoked within me.
Day 5?
I'll get better..
020413
Boon or bane,
Pros and cons,
I weigh what have to be weigh and always I asked myself,
What worst could happen??
Indeed, this week is no easy feat.
Despite having 2 incoming medical reviews, rmj, heavy load, and 4 on going periodic medical appointments, my heart skipped a beat when I was pronounced "fit" by this new medical officer who deem me fit for bmt.
Still calm, I tried to argue my way through, not that I don't want to go for it, what if, I go for it and out of course again? I was actually put fit, until I was to be screened again during bmt? Given my medical condition now, not only do I not want to disappoint anyone, I don't think I can really do jackshit as I think I can only be present for field camp and that's all I can do. But what else can I do? But push my appointments closer so at least it could be a clear cut thing of whether can I pass or not.
Guess what's only troubling me ultimately at tekong is the 2 weeks confinement and hair cut. Once u'd been through hell, you don't want to go back there again man.
A tough week indeed, day 2 and everything is taking it's toll on me. Changes, plans and what not. What else could I do when I ultimately have to resign to my fate for now. Guess the least I can do is to try cushion the fall..
Just when I thought that was all..
My PC crashed on me.
Hard disk just failed to boot up the OS,
Helplessly I tried again and again, hands on the button, pushing each time my pc failed me.
And guess I can't do nothing unless a clean install. Attempting to back up overnight.
I still believe that tomorrow will be better.
Pros and cons,
I weigh what have to be weigh and always I asked myself,
What worst could happen??
Indeed, this week is no easy feat.
Despite having 2 incoming medical reviews, rmj, heavy load, and 4 on going periodic medical appointments, my heart skipped a beat when I was pronounced "fit" by this new medical officer who deem me fit for bmt.
Still calm, I tried to argue my way through, not that I don't want to go for it, what if, I go for it and out of course again? I was actually put fit, until I was to be screened again during bmt? Given my medical condition now, not only do I not want to disappoint anyone, I don't think I can really do jackshit as I think I can only be present for field camp and that's all I can do. But what else can I do? But push my appointments closer so at least it could be a clear cut thing of whether can I pass or not.
Guess what's only troubling me ultimately at tekong is the 2 weeks confinement and hair cut. Once u'd been through hell, you don't want to go back there again man.
A tough week indeed, day 2 and everything is taking it's toll on me. Changes, plans and what not. What else could I do when I ultimately have to resign to my fate for now. Guess the least I can do is to try cushion the fall..
Just when I thought that was all..
My PC crashed on me.
Hard disk just failed to boot up the OS,
Helplessly I tried again and again, hands on the button, pushing each time my pc failed me.
And guess I can't do nothing unless a clean install. Attempting to back up overnight.
I still believe that tomorrow will be better.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
April Fool
"Hello Sir, welcome to macdonald"
Was contemplating on what to have after a tiring day, I finally, reluctantly decided to get mac after a 10 minutes cruising around the mall, not forgetting the kopitiam that like to ka tok people.
A long and difficult day indeed as I'd test my inner self. The usual monday blues, dragging my feet across the road, down the usual grassy slope, phone in my hand as I load up a and prepare my reading materials for the day, got up the bus the minute I reach the bus stop, however little did I know, the ultimate april fool's joke have yet to come..
It was only after I got up the bus, did I noticed that my sites are not loading, as my phone's reception changed to SOS. Thinking it's a phone problem, I just did the usual restarting, taking out the battery.. And my worst fear was confirmed when I realize that the reception won't budge no matter how many times I restart.
It all ultimately came upon me when I went in the advance settings and it says 'no valid sim card detected'.
I tried to be as calm as possible, holding back until I had a chance to change sim with my friend. Alas, all was confirmed when my sim card was pronounced dead.
***
And there I go, heading to causeway wasting my precious time just for a sim card. But I'm glad that I manage not to let starhub charge me for it (:
Strolling towards the bus interchange and before I knew it, I'm sipping green tea, reading on my phone, on the way home...
Hmmm productive not as I ended up surfing the web lazily, doing some casual reading and watching drama with my left hand propping my head up, while the other playing with the cursor while I try to multi-task.
Tough week ahead.
Mantra of the week: tomorrow will be better.
Was contemplating on what to have after a tiring day, I finally, reluctantly decided to get mac after a 10 minutes cruising around the mall, not forgetting the kopitiam that like to ka tok people.
A long and difficult day indeed as I'd test my inner self. The usual monday blues, dragging my feet across the road, down the usual grassy slope, phone in my hand as I load up a and prepare my reading materials for the day, got up the bus the minute I reach the bus stop, however little did I know, the ultimate april fool's joke have yet to come..
It was only after I got up the bus, did I noticed that my sites are not loading, as my phone's reception changed to SOS. Thinking it's a phone problem, I just did the usual restarting, taking out the battery.. And my worst fear was confirmed when I realize that the reception won't budge no matter how many times I restart.
It all ultimately came upon me when I went in the advance settings and it says 'no valid sim card detected'.
I tried to be as calm as possible, holding back until I had a chance to change sim with my friend. Alas, all was confirmed when my sim card was pronounced dead.
***
And there I go, heading to causeway wasting my precious time just for a sim card. But I'm glad that I manage not to let starhub charge me for it (:
Strolling towards the bus interchange and before I knew it, I'm sipping green tea, reading on my phone, on the way home...
Hmmm productive not as I ended up surfing the web lazily, doing some casual reading and watching drama with my left hand propping my head up, while the other playing with the cursor while I try to multi-task.
Tough week ahead.
Mantra of the week: tomorrow will be better.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
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Friday, March 29, 2013
ruby sparks
a playful concept of Pygmalion mythology,
a movie that voice out my fantasy,
a movie that i could relate too.
idealism,
dark,
comedy,
romance,
perspective.
all this, packed into one movie that is bound to swept you off your feet.
yes, i was swept off my feet by this movie.
Ruby Sparks is no doubt yet another girl i can add to the list of my fictional dream girls, together with a few others.
i have a quiet friday,
lying next to you, with you digging your nails into my hair, moving in gentle motion as i could felt your nails sends millions of shock wave through my nerve.
I closed my eyes, and enjoy the moment.
Bathing in bliss i guess.
who else, would let me play my PC in my room while she head back to my house with a foot long subway sandwich and 2 bags of LAYS?
we finished up the other half of ruby sparks, before lazing on the bed because of the afternoon rain, drifting to slumber.
a blissful sleep as i'm glad we're alright now.
we had dinner over running man, as i eventually gave in when girl gives me puppy eyes.
well, puppy eyes doesn't really work on me,
but alittle self reflection told me i'd been quite an ass so i just give in :3
and yes, we clocked the rest of our day in bed...
Calvin have Rudy,
i have Adeline.
Thank you Zoe Kazan.
For writing this beautiful piece of movie that touched my heart and my soul.
i would never forget this movie.
i made a mental note to add this movie to my "Movies to keep folder",
yes, it's my own tiny Oscar "nominees".
I walked her home,
held her hands while a sachet of my 5 hour old kopi dangles over the other.
i could feel the huge feelings of reluctance as my feet fill up my $2 osaki slippers.
i could feel the chilly night breeze embracing us as my hands slipped into hers,
entwining her fingers.
then we walked, along the path of life that would never end...
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Thristday
I sat inside the car feeling listless as the loud chatter goes on. Winding down windows, hitting on girls, some part of me just couldn't care less as I slouched at the back of the seat.
I look dreamily out of the window, thoughts swirling my head while looking at the fleeting traffic...drowning in my thoughts.
***
Yesterday's duty is beyond what I'd expected. Conversations that last forever, laughter, and noisy chatter until 3am.
It all ends and there I was, lying motionless as my berry beamed to life, playing music that kept me company throughout the night.
***
I was desperately looking at the clock, waiting for the siren. I wanted to leave this place, I wanted to escape.. But where?
This weird definition about depth is getting into me.
How could I scorn the superficial when I behave like one.
Things I wanted to work hard for? Things that would bring me out of procrastination. Maybe someone who would enlighten me...
I look dreamily out of the window, thoughts swirling my head while looking at the fleeting traffic...drowning in my thoughts.
***
Yesterday's duty is beyond what I'd expected. Conversations that last forever, laughter, and noisy chatter until 3am.
It all ends and there I was, lying motionless as my berry beamed to life, playing music that kept me company throughout the night.
***
I was desperately looking at the clock, waiting for the siren. I wanted to leave this place, I wanted to escape.. But where?
This weird definition about depth is getting into me.
How could I scorn the superficial when I behave like one.
Things I wanted to work hard for? Things that would bring me out of procrastination. Maybe someone who would enlighten me...
Sunday, March 24, 2013
TGIS
Sunday.
Finally my week have come to an end.
Sitting on the bus, on the way to V, scrolling my msg history while my delicate brain is trying to remember what have I done for the past week.
Just backtracked like 2 weeks worth of posts. Well I'm not really sure who really reads my blog out of all this traffic, but if u do, scroll down, it's worth a read.
And THANK YOU. If you're actually reading this. You'll be blessed, if you know me, let me know. I do have some random friends who reads, and it's really nice to know if my posts or words had made any impact or transpire you to look at the world in any other special way which u didn't expect yourself to be.
A sincere thank you for everyone who'd read, including the closet readers overseas. Everyone. All I can wish for is what comes after will be all good and I hope my blog can be of use to let ur brain juice churn out something at the very least, beneficial for your journey of life itself.
Not acting like I'm famous or what in anyway, but if you're a forumer, u shld know what is SIC. Sharing is caring~ that's why u can see tons of nonsenses on my blog.
[Highlights of the Week]
Monday: RUN
Tuesday: ADEL
Wednesday: KTV
Thursday: BK BOMB w/ B&C + RUN
Friday: KKM w/ B&G + LAN x POWER NASI LEMAK
Saturday: ADEL + McCAFE x LAN
Sunday: V w/ G
Yes 2 LAN session. Never judge a summoner who live for the league. :3
***
Thought it all would turn out well again. But I guess not. I think I need to move on, learn to move on and at the very least, try.. To get out of this phase.
I feel so heavy inside,
I feel like crying,
Yet no tears come.
My emo posts,
U just bluntly read through as it if's none of your concern.
U didn't even address it,
U didn't want to talk to me about as if my posts is for some other girl.
U didn't.. Even care.. If I'm so so on the verge of break down.
U didn't even reply to all of my questions alrdy, despite me asking, afew times more..
I'm not saying u didn't do ur part, nor am I trying to point fingers. But just so that, u didn't even try to talk about it,
No matter what I write, how much I write, u just let what's there stays there.
Maybe u got too much on ur plate to worry about.
Maybe.. I don't even have a place on your worry plate anymore..
Maybe..all of this is a mistake.
Finally my week have come to an end.
Sitting on the bus, on the way to V, scrolling my msg history while my delicate brain is trying to remember what have I done for the past week.
Just backtracked like 2 weeks worth of posts. Well I'm not really sure who really reads my blog out of all this traffic, but if u do, scroll down, it's worth a read.
And THANK YOU. If you're actually reading this. You'll be blessed, if you know me, let me know. I do have some random friends who reads, and it's really nice to know if my posts or words had made any impact or transpire you to look at the world in any other special way which u didn't expect yourself to be.
A sincere thank you for everyone who'd read, including the closet readers overseas. Everyone. All I can wish for is what comes after will be all good and I hope my blog can be of use to let ur brain juice churn out something at the very least, beneficial for your journey of life itself.
Not acting like I'm famous or what in anyway, but if you're a forumer, u shld know what is SIC. Sharing is caring~ that's why u can see tons of nonsenses on my blog.
[Highlights of the Week]
Monday: RUN
Tuesday: ADEL
Wednesday: KTV
Thursday: BK BOMB w/ B&C + RUN
Friday: KKM w/ B&G + LAN x POWER NASI LEMAK
Saturday: ADEL + McCAFE x LAN
Sunday: V w/ G
Yes 2 LAN session. Never judge a summoner who live for the league. :3
***
Thought it all would turn out well again. But I guess not. I think I need to move on, learn to move on and at the very least, try.. To get out of this phase.
I feel so heavy inside,
I feel like crying,
Yet no tears come.
My emo posts,
U just bluntly read through as it if's none of your concern.
U didn't even address it,
U didn't want to talk to me about as if my posts is for some other girl.
U didn't.. Even care.. If I'm so so on the verge of break down.
U didn't even reply to all of my questions alrdy, despite me asking, afew times more..
I'm not saying u didn't do ur part, nor am I trying to point fingers. But just so that, u didn't even try to talk about it,
No matter what I write, how much I write, u just let what's there stays there.
Maybe u got too much on ur plate to worry about.
Maybe.. I don't even have a place on your worry plate anymore..
Maybe..all of this is a mistake.
逞强
Tired? Yea, i probably guessed so. I'm too tired to think about things.
It's a hell of a day today. top it off, i'm functioning my weekends with a block nose. Yes, that suck.
Probably have too much draft for my weekdays and i ended up scrapping all of them.
i dont even know if this gets out.
why?
it feels like i'd lost the girl who'd loved me so much in the morning.
why would things come this way.
***
"While trying to achieve purpose A, you met problem B, so do you still want to achieve purpose A, or solve problem B, if it means you might not be able to achieve purpose A?"
i hope this is not the upcoming PSLE question.
but... let just say, we will achieve purpose A while solving problem B at the same time.
but...objectively, since B is said to be a problem, i guess why no ignore problem B but go ahead and achieve purpose A all the same?
****
[BEFORE READING ANY FURTHER]
for that special someone,
please play the following video before scrolling down and reading any further.
this is not an instruction, this is an ORDER. (:
>>>>> READY?
>>>> PLAY ALREADY ANOT?
>>> U SURE AH?
>> OKOK. TRUST U
>LETS GO
****
bao.
we'd come so far.
we're been thru so much.
i'm weak,
i'm tearing.
this night,
i felt so overwhelmed by helplessness.
the slow songs of sorrows,
filled my years,
the singers, singing, conveying their sadness,
as if mourning for me.
sometimes you're so right, that i think i can never be wrong.
my mind is cluttered with strings of sentences that i could never form a passage with.
i dont want to lose you.
but if destiny calls,
i still dont want to lose you.
someone in life where i can truly be myself
someone whom we could be laughing about the good old times when we're together.
the foolish things we'd done.
the childish dance.
i dont know.
but i would want to be there,
feel happy, for you if one day, you're walking down the aisle,
but i'm not on the other side.
not towards me,
but maybe towards a guy that you deserve.
guess he also deserve my fist to his face... if he treats you bad.
but i would really like to beat him up.
but i'll be happy,
if you are. in that white beautiful gown. even when you're not mine.
but of course i will cry blood.
and my heart will be streaming tears all over my body and i would also be literally peeing blood tears and pee itself. and eventually my eyes would cry a mixture of blood and tears as well.
i will hold your hand, one last time,
nothing else, but a hand shake, with my tear soak hand.
the hand that use to wipe your tears..
okay, humour aside...
the 3 types of people in your life that you would meet in your life.
1. People you keep
2. People you remember
3. People you only say hi and bye to
you would never fall into the third catergory.
of course, there's an invisible fourth category,
people who u doesnt even remember when you walk pass him at orchard road.
but ah, u can't even remember, so not counted right?
but then again, you will never go pass 2.
at the very least.
my mind plays back the years we'd been through,
a weak smile, at how everyday can be so "happening" sometimes.
there's always something new.
i hope we can solve it,
overcome anything that get into our way.
so many years and we never fall short on obstacles.
sometimes, the quarrels we have, u can see me laughing thru the phone, even though we're scolding,
sometimes, we just lost the reason to.
sometimes, it just comes to a point, whereby we both dont know what are we quarreling for.
sometimes... we just might have to take a step back and accept our differences.
good days, bad days,
i really want to thank you for the great time we had.
maybe somehow, we lost it.
the bread crumbs.
the candy house.
you will forever be important to me.
and you will forever have a place in my heart.
a place in my heart where it belong to you, you and only you..
a room where no one could see,
where no one can enter.
i love you.
this i can promise you..
because..
i can never promise how good our lives would be
i can never promise you how awesome our kid would be
i can never promise you how rich i would get
i can never promise you i would get a 6 pac soon (fuck my life)
but..
i can promise you, i will work hard, for everything that is ahead of us.
the feelings you evoke.
i could never ever describe it.
never..
i let the showers rained upon me,
this sense of relief when you're here.
i can live without anything as long as you're here, let alone the basic necessity for human survival.
i can don't on my com
phone? why let the unnecessary siren disturb our blissful slumber?
who needs an ipad?
music? silence is golden.
you know..
when you're here,
nothing matters anymore..
It's a hell of a day today. top it off, i'm functioning my weekends with a block nose. Yes, that suck.
Probably have too much draft for my weekdays and i ended up scrapping all of them.
i dont even know if this gets out.
why?
it feels like i'd lost the girl who'd loved me so much in the morning.
why would things come this way.
***
"While trying to achieve purpose A, you met problem B, so do you still want to achieve purpose A, or solve problem B, if it means you might not be able to achieve purpose A?"
i hope this is not the upcoming PSLE question.
but... let just say, we will achieve purpose A while solving problem B at the same time.
but...objectively, since B is said to be a problem, i guess why no ignore problem B but go ahead and achieve purpose A all the same?
****
[BEFORE READING ANY FURTHER]
for that special someone,
please play the following video before scrolling down and reading any further.
this is not an instruction, this is an ORDER. (:
>>>>> READY?
>>>> PLAY ALREADY ANOT?
>>> U SURE AH?
>> OKOK. TRUST U
>LETS GO
****
bao.
we'd come so far.
we're been thru so much.
i'm weak,
i'm tearing.
this night,
i felt so overwhelmed by helplessness.
the slow songs of sorrows,
filled my years,
the singers, singing, conveying their sadness,
as if mourning for me.
sometimes you're so right, that i think i can never be wrong.
my mind is cluttered with strings of sentences that i could never form a passage with.
i dont want to lose you.
but if destiny calls,
i still dont want to lose you.
someone in life where i can truly be myself
someone whom we could be laughing about the good old times when we're together.
the foolish things we'd done.
the childish dance.
i dont know.
but i would want to be there,
feel happy, for you if one day, you're walking down the aisle,
but i'm not on the other side.
not towards me,
but maybe towards a guy that you deserve.
guess he also deserve my fist to his face... if he treats you bad.
but i would really like to beat him up.
but i'll be happy,
if you are. in that white beautiful gown. even when you're not mine.
but of course i will cry blood.
and my heart will be streaming tears all over my body and i would also be literally peeing blood tears and pee itself. and eventually my eyes would cry a mixture of blood and tears as well.
i will hold your hand, one last time,
nothing else, but a hand shake, with my tear soak hand.
the hand that use to wipe your tears..
okay, humour aside...
the 3 types of people in your life that you would meet in your life.
1. People you keep
2. People you remember
3. People you only say hi and bye to
you would never fall into the third catergory.
of course, there's an invisible fourth category,
people who u doesnt even remember when you walk pass him at orchard road.
but ah, u can't even remember, so not counted right?
but then again, you will never go pass 2.
at the very least.
my mind plays back the years we'd been through,
a weak smile, at how everyday can be so "happening" sometimes.
there's always something new.
i hope we can solve it,
overcome anything that get into our way.
so many years and we never fall short on obstacles.
sometimes, the quarrels we have, u can see me laughing thru the phone, even though we're scolding,
sometimes, we just lost the reason to.
sometimes, it just comes to a point, whereby we both dont know what are we quarreling for.
sometimes... we just might have to take a step back and accept our differences.
good days, bad days,
i really want to thank you for the great time we had.
maybe somehow, we lost it.
the bread crumbs.
the candy house.
you will forever be important to me.
and you will forever have a place in my heart.
a place in my heart where it belong to you, you and only you..
a room where no one could see,
where no one can enter.
i love you.
this i can promise you..
because..
i can never promise how good our lives would be
i can never promise you how awesome our kid would be
i can never promise you how rich i would get
i can never promise you i would get a 6 pac soon (fuck my life)
but..
i can promise you, i will work hard, for everything that is ahead of us.
the feelings you evoke.
i could never ever describe it.
never..
i let the showers rained upon me,
this sense of relief when you're here.
i can live without anything as long as you're here, let alone the basic necessity for human survival.
i can don't on my com
phone? why let the unnecessary siren disturb our blissful slumber?
who needs an ipad?
music? silence is golden.
you know..
when you're here,
nothing matters anymore..
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
20 March Wed
Wednesday.
I sat there, stoned while the sound of the karaoke drones on. The alcohol kicked in, I was in a daze, grabbing the mic, reading the lyrics half heatedly while trying to fit my voice to the melody.
Tired.
Why do you guys seem so superficial.?
I sat there, stoned while the sound of the karaoke drones on. The alcohol kicked in, I was in a daze, grabbing the mic, reading the lyrics half heatedly while trying to fit my voice to the melody.
Tired.
Why do you guys seem so superficial.?
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
19 March Tuesday.
Tuesday, I'm up early I guess. Left early. It felt so surreal to be early. I'm like a good 10minutes early?
Slept earlier than usual the night before. So much for being productive. Did some running and some casual reading. Still feeling sore from my legs D:
Read up one hot / cold showers, warm / cold drinks or whether even it is beneficial our body.
Slowly, I drifted to work..
I'm only waiting for u.
Just you.
The thought of meeting you later on keeps me alive.
***
There's always something new every now and then.
What could make a tuesday better than us acting like a cantonese couple?
Slept earlier than usual the night before. So much for being productive. Did some running and some casual reading. Still feeling sore from my legs D:
Read up one hot / cold showers, warm / cold drinks or whether even it is beneficial our body.
Slowly, I drifted to work..
I'm only waiting for u.
Just you.
The thought of meeting you later on keeps me alive.
***
There's always something new every now and then.
What could make a tuesday better than us acting like a cantonese couple?
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