Ah, the cooling morning breeze.
My 3 days break make it felt like weekends and today felt so much like monday.
I woke up, get prepped and head off nevertheless with a smile on my face since weekends begins tomorrow.
***
I'd got work todo.
Now I see, what work it is.
Work. to change myself,
Change my life,
Enrich my mind,
Judgment.
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Requiem
Brother,
My dearest brother.
One of my dearest brother,
A brother whom I'll stand by at his wedding, shaking his hand as he receive the girl of his dreams at the chapel.
We sat there.. Together, sipping coffee, waiting for an answer that never seem to come. I don't know how long we would be sitting there for but seems like it won't be anytime soon.
The leap of faith, the girl that'll indefinitely change your life. The girl that you're suppose to look for. The girl who'll be in your all, came to your life, like fairy tale, appearing to be the one that you'd been looking for. We rejoice the good ol' days, we look back at how it really could have been better if the princess didn't have cold feet.
Why.. Why?? Would she go back and succumb to salvery when she could elope to the city of dreams with the prince? That.. We'll never know..
But brother, you would be fine. You will find happiness, answers.. And peace.
***
My dearest brother.
One of my dearest brother,
A brother whom I'll stand by at his wedding, shaking his hand as he receive the girl of his dreams at the chapel.
We sat there.. Together, sipping coffee, waiting for an answer that never seem to come. I don't know how long we would be sitting there for but seems like it won't be anytime soon.
The leap of faith, the girl that'll indefinitely change your life. The girl that you're suppose to look for. The girl who'll be in your all, came to your life, like fairy tale, appearing to be the one that you'd been looking for. We rejoice the good ol' days, we look back at how it really could have been better if the princess didn't have cold feet.
Why.. Why?? Would she go back and succumb to salvery when she could elope to the city of dreams with the prince? That.. We'll never know..
But brother, you would be fine. You will find happiness, answers.. And peace.
***
Monday, March 4, 2013
大火
作詞Lyricist：姚若龍
作曲Composer：馬奕強
有座巨大的停了的時鐘
傾倒在趕路的途中 擋我 向前走
有隻黑色的老鷹在俯衝
叼走了你送的承諾 回頭 冷冷看我
有陣將眼淚掃落的狂風
掀起了隱藏的疼痛 把我 變赤裸
我為蔓延的回憶除草了
心中卻長出盛開的 寂寞 原來是夢
有些傷痕像場大火 把心燒焦難以復活
不碰了好像忘了 恐懼卻在腦海住著
重複卡在一個 重要的時刻 不自覺就會退縮
連幸福也克制著 覺得什麼都會變的
防備著平靜到最後 連愛也透著冷漠(獨自寂寞)
有人說我的微笑是暖的
心裡卻很難被感動 狠狠 解剖我
從不是有意想害誰難過
甚至會沮喪一直沒突破 沉重的殼
有些傷痕像場大火 把心燒焦難以復活
可是我 想要忘了 恐懼如何把我上鎖
期待陽光熾熱 愛來的時刻 能用力去擁抱著
多幸福就多快樂 不讓未知成為負荷
投入的留下了每一刻 不怕的人 最富有
人太脆弱 會不停錯過
太多寶貴的 都需要跋涉 才可以獲得
太多璀璨的 越隔著夜色 越光芒四射
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Sadtheday
Sad, truly sad..
I reluctantly wriggled my toes into my socks, slipped my toes into my boots..
Darn.. I can still feel the warmth of my boots. It'd only been less than 18 hours ago before my weekends started.
Damn duty. But yea, it's called duty for a reason, so I'll have to get my sorry ass in camp. I'm somehow forward to it. Spend the night loading up movies, not sleeping really a lot. Well u're forced to get ample rest, and there're 4 other sorry asses waiting for you over there.
I'll just get it over and done with. Then I'm done for march(:
Quietly serve and quietly leaves. Just like the gentle wind..
I reluctantly wriggled my toes into my socks, slipped my toes into my boots..
Darn.. I can still feel the warmth of my boots. It'd only been less than 18 hours ago before my weekends started.
Damn duty. But yea, it's called duty for a reason, so I'll have to get my sorry ass in camp. I'm somehow forward to it. Spend the night loading up movies, not sleeping really a lot. Well u're forced to get ample rest, and there're 4 other sorry asses waiting for you over there.
I'll just get it over and done with. Then I'm done for march(:
Quietly serve and quietly leaves. Just like the gentle wind..
Friday, March 1, 2013
MAAD
My heart skipped a beat when I realize that the obedience wives club is performing today. Thought it's next friday as I got the date wrong. I immediately summoned aaron up on whatsapp, dragging him to go with me.
We started our little journey after a brieft catchup dinner @ plaza's macdonald's.
Situated at the red dot museum, we could never imagine what awaits for us there right after we got down the mrt and stroll towards maxell. Wow.. I went wow. Literally...
It's a cool place.
Or a hub, we call it. Food, wine, bistro, pub. Food aside~ there's a whole lot of cool fleas, lining up along the outside, and clutter in the inside. Shops, exhibition, art fest, innovation fair, home decor shops and everything. Artist, musicians, everyone just gathers there, like a small community.
The air felt different, the people felt different. Not a those stereotypical mainstream people which you might saw from elsewhere. They are different, and they dare to be. Respecto~
A patch of mat lays in a corning, right infront of instruments and audio set ups. The bands roar to life, uplifting the atmosphere (or killing it). Operating from 5am-midnight, MAAD would definitely be a place where I would go again, definitely (:
P.S. Got no idea, why I love our local art scene so much.
Quiet night indeed, and my only regret is missing the performance I wanted to catch. We strolled down ann siang, beer in hand, exploring streets, and even the duxton. Thought we could make it to it's 50th storey sky garden, darn it's locked! Can somebody 'sign' us in please???!!
We started our little journey after a brieft catchup dinner @ plaza's macdonald's.
Situated at the red dot museum, we could never imagine what awaits for us there right after we got down the mrt and stroll towards maxell. Wow.. I went wow. Literally...
It's a cool place.
Or a hub, we call it. Food, wine, bistro, pub. Food aside~ there's a whole lot of cool fleas, lining up along the outside, and clutter in the inside. Shops, exhibition, art fest, innovation fair, home decor shops and everything. Artist, musicians, everyone just gathers there, like a small community.
The air felt different, the people felt different. Not a those stereotypical mainstream people which you might saw from elsewhere. They are different, and they dare to be. Respecto~
A patch of mat lays in a corning, right infront of instruments and audio set ups. The bands roar to life, uplifting the atmosphere (or killing it). Operating from 5am-midnight, MAAD would definitely be a place where I would go again, definitely (:
P.S. Got no idea, why I love our local art scene so much.
Quiet night indeed, and my only regret is missing the performance I wanted to catch. We strolled down ann siang, beer in hand, exploring streets, and even the duxton. Thought we could make it to it's 50th storey sky garden, darn it's locked! Can somebody 'sign' us in please???!!
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Sigh
"That'll be 3.80"
"U wanna wash hair anot?"
"U wanna wash hair anot?"
"No"
"Okay"
I'm relief it's finally over.
Yes, my hair cut. Today, is the first time that I'm cutting my hair without bathing before that, straight after camp. Well I don't know. Maybe it'd become like a habit, I'm use to bathing, smelling all nice with smooth hair before cutting it. A ritual? or I did it out of respect for the hairdresser? Well it's something that I always have to do before my haircut.
but I'm too shag to think today. So much have happened. So tired, suddenly I just wanna serve (my ns) quietly, get it over and done with. I know it's nothing new to felt underappreciated. But getting scolded and threatening to charge me just because I came work late despite taking medicine and sick? Getting scowled at, despiting taking pride in my work which have a pathetic payout and saying u would not have sympathy for me. I'd taken it all, in the saf. Humiliation, insults.
Not that I would run to my parents, since I'd learn a fair share of sucking it up.
I just need my superior to be alittle understanding, I don't need any fucking sympathy. So what that my life's not fucking sheltered? I know being late
Is my fault. But you do not have to shred off all the single bit of the due respect and spit on it? I
The 2nd incident of the year, that made me hate wearing green alittle more.
We're here to prepare for war, not to...
shall not dwell in it anymore. What else could beat my first ever coming confinement, the one I got for getting off the vehicle too slow. He even reported it as "refusal" to get off vehicle. Injustice, really.. Injustice. I don't even dare tell my parents about it. It makes me feel so ashamed of myself (at that point of time) to be wearing the Singapore Army Uniform. I use to take pride it in, my job, the people, the environment, how exciting it is. How we learn from each other... Less the injustice.
Moving on, 1 more day to weekends, yet I'm not even looking forward to it. Duty fml zzz.
Unusual ways to burn calories!
*(From dailypix.me!)
Eat plain popcorn
Shake leg
Skip steps when climbing stairs
Text like mad (1hr = 132 cal.)
Eat while standing
Laugh (15mins = 50cal.)
Rearranging furnitures (30mins = 256cal.)
Eat spicy food
Put on lip gloss (765 x = 100cal.)
Take a cold shower
Give massage (30mins = 100cal.)
Hair drying
Stand on your tippy toes
Sit on a balance ball
Huat!
No matter how down your life is, it's not over -Ronnie Tan
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
nth
so many problems, unsolved.
so many hurdles
so many words,
so many things i have to say.
but when you're here,
i'm speechless,
nothing else matters anymore...
so many hurdles
so many words,
so many things i have to say.
but when you're here,
i'm speechless,
nothing else matters anymore...
Monday, February 25, 2013
Pas de deux
Yesterday,
I could smell the winds of blues blowing already. Been on this emo-wreck phase, and to top it off, I'd got duty.
Gyess I could do with some day off my computer and emo-ing.
***
I couldn't sleep a wink, I'd been having insomia for like 2/3 weeks and it's killing me the fact that I can sleep the moment I close my eyes. Rolling around, trying to clear my thoughts, then again realize I'm thinking of things to clear my thoughts which ironically ruined the whole point.
Unmotivated, lazy, totally opposite of goal driven and I feel so much like a burst tyre, except I'm getting fatter with all the food.
Woke up at 5 where I decide to just get out of bed and chill on my computer. I'm so awake, wide awake. I couldn't even close my eyes as my sense of awareness heightens. The sound of the fan irritates me as I subconsciously counts the rhythm, wait for the wind, I could hear everything, amidst the stupid ringing sound that would probably stay with me for the rest of my life. I could hear the music from my brothers room, could even feel the lights underneath my door that was on.
"So fuck this shit"
"Since u want it that way" I told my body which didn't want rest.
Got up and on my computer, before slumping my heavy body onto my chair while waiting for my pc beamed to life.
Watched drama while stuffing snacks into my mouth.
FML.
Left the house before I blurry double check my bag for duty.
***
I miss our paux de deux.
The one and only, irreplaceable one.
The graceful steps,
How we give, how we take, vice versa.
How closely knitted,
The joyous energy,
Floating through the air.
A fairy tale, woven out of fate and destiny.
paux de deux,
Graceful steps throughout the dusk.
Till we see the morning sun,
It'd been an enjoyable worthy run
***
My bus throttled down the uneven roads, as I hit away on my berry keypad. Maybe this is the best way I release.
**
I could smell the winds of blues blowing already. Been on this emo-wreck phase, and to top it off, I'd got duty.
Gyess I could do with some day off my computer and emo-ing.
***
I couldn't sleep a wink, I'd been having insomia for like 2/3 weeks and it's killing me the fact that I can sleep the moment I close my eyes. Rolling around, trying to clear my thoughts, then again realize I'm thinking of things to clear my thoughts which ironically ruined the whole point.
Unmotivated, lazy, totally opposite of goal driven and I feel so much like a burst tyre, except I'm getting fatter with all the food.
Woke up at 5 where I decide to just get out of bed and chill on my computer. I'm so awake, wide awake. I couldn't even close my eyes as my sense of awareness heightens. The sound of the fan irritates me as I subconsciously counts the rhythm, wait for the wind, I could hear everything, amidst the stupid ringing sound that would probably stay with me for the rest of my life. I could hear the music from my brothers room, could even feel the lights underneath my door that was on.
"So fuck this shit"
"Since u want it that way" I told my body which didn't want rest.
Got up and on my computer, before slumping my heavy body onto my chair while waiting for my pc beamed to life.
Watched drama while stuffing snacks into my mouth.
FML.
Left the house before I blurry double check my bag for duty.
***
I miss our paux de deux.
The one and only, irreplaceable one.
The graceful steps,
How we give, how we take, vice versa.
How closely knitted,
The joyous energy,
Floating through the air.
A fairy tale, woven out of fate and destiny.
paux de deux,
Graceful steps throughout the dusk.
Till we see the morning sun,
It'd been an enjoyable worthy run
***
My bus throttled down the uneven roads, as I hit away on my berry keypad. Maybe this is the best way I release.
**
Sunday, February 24, 2013
V
I miss u,
I don't want to hear your voice,
For it would only break my heart more.
Its never easy to take my mind off you.
Purging into numbness again.
The inevitable emptiness.
Then we will falter..
***
Set an alarm, but woke up before the alarm could sound. Guess I really hate wasting my weekends.
A day down a the V again, before having lunch over the last episode of season 3 of how I met your mother before heading down. Humid it is, guess we eventually settle down. Sort of became a habit to blog otw back since it's such a long bus ride back~
Usual coffee talks. And what's more?
***
Heading back early thou, brothers gathering over at my place, dinner, bai nian. And hopefully a great lan session to end the week.
I don't want to hear your voice,
For it would only break my heart more.
Its never easy to take my mind off you.
Purging into numbness again.
The inevitable emptiness.
Then we will falter..
***
Set an alarm, but woke up before the alarm could sound. Guess I really hate wasting my weekends.
A day down a the V again, before having lunch over the last episode of season 3 of how I met your mother before heading down. Humid it is, guess we eventually settle down. Sort of became a habit to blog otw back since it's such a long bus ride back~
Usual coffee talks. And what's more?
***
Heading back early thou, brothers gathering over at my place, dinner, bai nian. And hopefully a great lan session to end the week.
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Gretel..
Coffee talks about life.
I'd share more than what I expected, maybe I'm drunk I guess. Or I'd let yet another person into my life.
we're both deep in our own different ways.
And it all came streaming in. Sighs. Life..
***
We'd both came a really long way I guess. Far too long, my dearest. So long until maybe I don't know what I'm fighting for.. Maybe I'm just living base on selective memories already, happy moments that I lived in that make me hold on.
I'd lost track,
I'm lost. I'd come so far, it'd been such a long journey that I'd ran out of bread crumbs to throw on the ground already. I'm lost..
Nice hansel and gretel analogy,
But I have to admit, it'd been too far for us to go back to where we were anymore. We'd lost it. Hand in hand, we'd both lost it. Along the way, we just lost the track of the bread crumbs that guide us along the journey of life already.
And there we are, still wondering aimlessly in that forest.
Oh my dearest gretel.
I love you,
*laughs*
"Worth still, I can't even find the fucking chocolate candy house to kill the witch"
"Cheebye"
***
Maybe we're still finding answers to our lives. Hope that someday down the road, we'll be down at V, sipping coffee, contented with the answers that we seek..
I'd share more than what I expected, maybe I'm drunk I guess. Or I'd let yet another person into my life.
we're both deep in our own different ways.
And it all came streaming in. Sighs. Life..
***
We'd both came a really long way I guess. Far too long, my dearest. So long until maybe I don't know what I'm fighting for.. Maybe I'm just living base on selective memories already, happy moments that I lived in that make me hold on.
I'd lost track,
I'm lost. I'd come so far, it'd been such a long journey that I'd ran out of bread crumbs to throw on the ground already. I'm lost..
Nice hansel and gretel analogy,
But I have to admit, it'd been too far for us to go back to where we were anymore. We'd lost it. Hand in hand, we'd both lost it. Along the way, we just lost the track of the bread crumbs that guide us along the journey of life already.
And there we are, still wondering aimlessly in that forest.
Oh my dearest gretel.
I love you,
*laughs*
"Worth still, I can't even find the fucking chocolate candy house to kill the witch"
"Cheebye"
***
Maybe we're still finding answers to our lives. Hope that someday down the road, we'll be down at V, sipping coffee, contented with the answers that we seek..
Thursday, February 21, 2013
F4ll
All of this is eating me away.
Tearing my soul,
Messing my thoughts
Time and again,
And again,
Yet again.
I'm falling..
Tearing my soul,
Messing my thoughts
Time and again,
And again,
Yet again.
I'm falling..
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
cold
why,
why you dont care how i feel
why you neglect me and left me there in the cold.
i dont know.
i would never know..
you wont even be there to answer my screams.
i felt as if you dont care at all..
a slightest bit of consideration, concern... none.
you'd been taken away.
i felt...
used, neglected, cold...
the feelings have diminish,
i can feel it.
so what are we holding on for..?
ihatemyselfforbeingsoweaknabehcheebyesibeidulan
//
goodbye doesn't seem that far away.
why you dont care how i feel
why you neglect me and left me there in the cold.
i dont know.
i would never know..
you wont even be there to answer my screams.
i felt as if you dont care at all..
a slightest bit of consideration, concern... none.
you'd been taken away.
i felt...
used, neglected, cold...
the feelings have diminish,
i can feel it.
so what are we holding on for..?
ihatemyselfforbeingsoweaknabehcheebyesibeidulan
//
goodbye doesn't seem that far away.
18wishes
I woke up at 5ish, I guess?
The skies are too dark,
So I just rolled back into slumber.
Been dreaming a lot, a lot,
So much that I'm feeling extra tired just so my brain's still functioning.
The first dream about friendship, 2nd about love. And the last happens after I slept again..
The skies are too dark,
So I just rolled back into slumber.
Been dreaming a lot, a lot,
So much that I'm feeling extra tired just so my brain's still functioning.
The first dream about friendship, 2nd about love. And the last happens after I slept again..
War..
*oblivious to my alarm*
I jotted out of my bed as I felt that I'd been down for too long. 7.27, as displayed on my berry. Indeed too long.
I jumped up, however extra calm, prepare as fast as I could. Wash up, smart 4, grab my things. It was only 10mins when I left.
Contemplating whether should I just take a bus coz I'll be late anyways or get a cab,I ran towards the main road before my brain can make any decision. Didn't want to be late again..
Had a hard time finding a cab, before I was literally waving frantically at one. 742.. Up the cab. What happened next lead to my utmost regret of taking a cab during peak hour. Firstly, cabs won't go to the bus lane, they will slowly move with the other cars. Why risk cutting via bus lane when u can drive slowly and earn some extra cash. Moreover, it's the peak period. I fucking swear, I'm moving on about the pace for the bus. The traffic on the road is as shitty as it could get and for that moment, I understand what the government meant by having "too many" cars on the road. I'm clocking about $2-3 plus on every traffic lights, not forgetting the distance..
Camp's only usually a 20-30mins bus ride away, and I took 30mins to get up the hill. Totally not worth it consider the fare to be $18.
$18 for a 10mins difference? Well, maybe in my context it might, because I might risk getting a confinement.
Sigh, still.. ahhh fuck it. No point dwelling
Guess I'll only have myself to blame, when my ears chose to block out the sirens from my berry.
***
A mundane day at camp, and my thoughts went back to my last dream. I dreamt that the government lost power and chaos was bestowed everywhere. Crime taking place, killing robbing and what not. Whole city's in a wreck and everyone's fleeing to the nearest refuge, malaysia. Even the custom's pretty much fucked. I see chaos everywhere, and could only gather afew bros to stay safe.
This sight is indeed, saddening. I got no idea what lead to this, but certainly, this is the last thing that I want it to happen to my city. D:
Then the days drones on..
***
Playing kpop, and doing random doodles.
Was browsing art when I noticed a tim burton inspired pictures of pokemon wjen I decided to give it a go as well~
& I drew a pretty kick ass pidgey ~ that might be my next mini project for five7ninety-three. I thought~ we'll see..
***
Day 3 for C. Isit day 3??
Yes the cage of pain.. You'll get out of there someday..
Extra tired today,
Duty tomorrow,
Hoping to pass every week smoothly and quietly.. It's like we're playing the game of life and we're stuck in pallet town.
It'll be another 7mths before I get to choose my pokemon after I took my first step out onto that grass patch. Huat.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Monday, February 18, 2013
F
几天之间统统仿佛出了错
负责开心这位
偏偏怎么不似我
每次这般也掠过
某段旧儿歌
许多东西追追赶赶补了两课
但耳边的声音
轻飘飘都击退我
晚晚对空气念过
是我有问题么
想太多想到不记得谁是我
想要哭哭我为何没停下过
发傻
心里的爱找到三吋觅鞋踏破
找到七岁的我写过一遍日记
像这么
My Future ____________
So How Are You Dear
可忆记你这个房
蓝蓝墙下我是王
无人不要慌
Trust In You Dear
请不要喊听我讲
童年寂寞也盼望
送向远方的你烛光
打开天空天空应该不会错
望向山高海深
苍天应该想试我
晚晚也安慰着我
尚有老掉情歌
工作多多到不免自然做错
赶快将那粗糙的我炼成大器
再琢磨
率性的我愿能维持十成自我
想到七岁的我迷途绵羊日记
已像这么
而你也过得可以吗
童年里那个我都哭过嘛
你是如何走过可怕
So How Are You My Dear
Trust In You My Dear
流星日月时光
请紧记你这个房
蓝蓝长梦已渐黄
仍然不要慌
心迷途何方
今天也要听我讲
如若现实欠盼望
再向远方的你探访...
stay strong...
stay strong...
负责开心这位
偏偏怎么不似我
每次这般也掠过
某段旧儿歌
许多东西追追赶赶补了两课
但耳边的声音
轻飘飘都击退我
晚晚对空气念过
是我有问题么
想太多想到不记得谁是我
想要哭哭我为何没停下过
发傻
心里的爱找到三吋觅鞋踏破
找到七岁的我写过一遍日记
像这么
My Future ____________
So How Are You Dear
可忆记你这个房
蓝蓝墙下我是王
无人不要慌
Trust In You Dear
请不要喊听我讲
童年寂寞也盼望
送向远方的你烛光
打开天空天空应该不会错
望向山高海深
苍天应该想试我
晚晚也安慰着我
尚有老掉情歌
工作多多到不免自然做错
赶快将那粗糙的我炼成大器
再琢磨
率性的我愿能维持十成自我
想到七岁的我迷途绵羊日记
已像这么
而你也过得可以吗
童年里那个我都哭过嘛
你是如何走过可怕
So How Are You My Dear
Trust In You My Dear
流星日月时光
请紧记你这个房
蓝蓝长梦已渐黄
仍然不要慌
心迷途何方
今天也要听我讲
如若现实欠盼望
再向远方的你探访...
stay strong...
stay strong...
Armor: iota of truth
there're days when i was unknowingly smarter.
alittle more intelligent,
guess that's when my brain juice starts flowing into the right place.
still no scientific explanation for this occurrence
but since my poly days, i call it.
"trance"
it happened again, in C's care as we're talking.
***
you should live your own life.
it'd been so long that you'd entwine yours with someone.
i want you to go live your life,
do something you want.
learn something, do something stupid, anything.
just for yourself.
-analogy comes here-
U can't always be her knight in shiny armor
(U can't always be the knight in the shiny armor).
For u have to live for yourself.
that armor is too heavy.
Put it down once in awhile,
But then again, u will only have to wear the armor until u found the kingdom worth.
Worth fighting for,
Worth wearing the armor and defending for..
"i want you to go live your life,
U can't always be her knight in shiny armor, u have to live for yourself.
it's time to put down that heavy armor,
until you found a kingdom worth fighting for"
Keywords.
what happened next was a turn-off as i burst out laughing:
"KNN SOLI FOR RUINING THE MOMENT, BUT THAT'S SOME DEEP SHIT"
---
i was totally psyched by this analogy, it's pretty cool i swear.
and i starts throwing in keywords and all because i forgot how i said it the moment it came out of my mouth.
well it is along the line of this, but i swear at that moment, i string them up alot better.
it could've just been part of a script.
yea, like a show.
how ironic when life is just like any drama.
the world is a gigantic stage,
and all of us are our own lead.
no, NG
no CUTs,
one take, one shot.
that's all you have at life.
alittle more intelligent,
guess that's when my brain juice starts flowing into the right place.
still no scientific explanation for this occurrence
but since my poly days, i call it.
"trance"
it happened again, in C's care as we're talking.
***
you should live your own life.
it'd been so long that you'd entwine yours with someone.
i want you to go live your life,
do something you want.
learn something, do something stupid, anything.
just for yourself.
-analogy comes here-
U can't always be her knight in shiny armor
(U can't always be the knight in the shiny armor).
For u have to live for yourself.
that armor is too heavy.
Put it down once in awhile,
But then again, u will only have to wear the armor until u found the kingdom worth.
Worth fighting for,
Worth wearing the armor and defending for..
"i want you to go live your life,
U can't always be her knight in shiny armor, u have to live for yourself.
it's time to put down that heavy armor,
until you found a kingdom worth fighting for"
Keywords.
what happened next was a turn-off as i burst out laughing:
"KNN SOLI FOR RUINING THE MOMENT, BUT THAT'S SOME DEEP SHIT"
---
i was totally psyched by this analogy, it's pretty cool i swear.
and i starts throwing in keywords and all because i forgot how i said it the moment it came out of my mouth.
well it is along the line of this, but i swear at that moment, i string them up alot better.
it could've just been part of a script.
yea, like a show.
how ironic when life is just like any drama.
the world is a gigantic stage,
and all of us are our own lead.
no, NG
no CUTs,
one take, one shot.
that's all you have at life.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
5TH
I woke up, feeling terrible.
It's not the hangover, nor is it that I'm drunk. It just happened. Dehydration. My throat was throbbing dry, and I find it hard to even swallow my saliva, it definitely is not directly cause by alcohol, because I used to do much better than that. No dehydration problems, but this shit comes suddenly.
A sign to quit drinking?
I don't know, but I would much prefer a cup of cafe mocha anyday compared to a shot of tequila. That's why I'm heading to V today. Well new year have pretty much been an eye opener to me, meet tons of new people, relatives, being together with everyone and I even had a shot at gambling as well. Used to be an addict, but not anymore. Bought 2 uniqlo shirts for new year, wanted to get M but got an L instead as my arms are too long. Sounds more stupid when I compare arms with Aaron, mine was only afew cm longer -.-
I'd thrown up my sail, waiting for the wind. Life hasn't all been smooth sailing yet, but I believe the wind will come.
***
Went down after I drank quite an amt of water and decided to take lunch downstairs. My usual style is much different as I prefer to takeaway, bringing it back to the comforts of my home and how I met your mother. Looks like I'm alittle tight on time today. And little did I know I'm about to bump into a chio bu~ average build, abit skinny, local ahlian girl next door pai. Gim moh (gold hair) somemore! Keekkekekeke gim moh~
Looks like there's hope finally for senja already kekkeke~ and I realized she painted a gemini sign on her nails. Awww not another gemini D:
***
Today's good.
Really good. I felt surprising relieved thou. Well sometimes it's really strange when 2 people can click. Endless topic come streaming in, irrelevant rants. Guess that's what friends are for. Sometimes, it's quite good to go one on one with a brother, just talk, coffee. Did a lot of those with yap, didn't know I could pull it off with G as well.
& we're both no gay pls. I could bet that we're the last 2 guy in the world who would turn gay. Lim kopi, talk cock, beo zhar bo.
what more could I ask for when saturdays can be so peaceful like that. It's so. Zen. A still pond, no ripples. G would be a perfect social link for the corporate world.. At this rate that we're talking about work. Never thought I would find it good to talk about work. Politics, happenings. Guess why people do want to keep up with the news.
Surprising that how I found a keeper on steam. Surprisingly..
***
On the other side, things weren't that smooth for C. Thrown into the abyss of confusion, I'm alittle affected to. A brother of mine, blood bonded. We literally grew up together, together even before we could speak. Struggling alongside life. it's just tragic..
***
As much as I would love/like a happening life. That's just a mask. It eats into me, I guess? But deep inside. I still love quiet weekends. Cruising around town, babe gazing, coffee, playing some light jazz while reading on my bed, LANing with my brothers in the league and cursing at our defeats over kkm.
Oh kkm!
Kekoumian (可口面) they call it.
& it's literally KOKA Noodles.
Located @ blk 163, the lights would only be on from 230am in the morning, and you would see the coffeeshop being brought to life, by this uncle. U would no doubt argue that 3.50 for a maggie mee?! But trust me, it really bought everyone in the community together. It'd even became a culture for everyone in bukit panjang..
Sadly, he changed the timing to 5am now and it'd been replaced some shitty fishball noodle shop who serves an obvious less tasty pathetic serving noodles for the same price.
Seriously? Kkm 5am - 3pm? :(
It's sad. It's fucking sad. Just felt like a part of my life had just disappeared..
***
I heaved a sigh before smiling weakly to myself and dig my hands into my pockets, prepared to stroll home with some nice music. Nabeh, broke into a sprint as I saw my estate bus coming.
Such is life, indeed..
a music before i go..
It's not the hangover, nor is it that I'm drunk. It just happened. Dehydration. My throat was throbbing dry, and I find it hard to even swallow my saliva, it definitely is not directly cause by alcohol, because I used to do much better than that. No dehydration problems, but this shit comes suddenly.
A sign to quit drinking?
I don't know, but I would much prefer a cup of cafe mocha anyday compared to a shot of tequila. That's why I'm heading to V today. Well new year have pretty much been an eye opener to me, meet tons of new people, relatives, being together with everyone and I even had a shot at gambling as well. Used to be an addict, but not anymore. Bought 2 uniqlo shirts for new year, wanted to get M but got an L instead as my arms are too long. Sounds more stupid when I compare arms with Aaron, mine was only afew cm longer -.-
I'd thrown up my sail, waiting for the wind. Life hasn't all been smooth sailing yet, but I believe the wind will come.
***
Went down after I drank quite an amt of water and decided to take lunch downstairs. My usual style is much different as I prefer to takeaway, bringing it back to the comforts of my home and how I met your mother. Looks like I'm alittle tight on time today. And little did I know I'm about to bump into a chio bu~ average build, abit skinny, local ahlian girl next door pai. Gim moh (gold hair) somemore! Keekkekekeke gim moh~
Looks like there's hope finally for senja already kekkeke~ and I realized she painted a gemini sign on her nails. Awww not another gemini D:
***
Today's good.
Really good. I felt surprising relieved thou. Well sometimes it's really strange when 2 people can click. Endless topic come streaming in, irrelevant rants. Guess that's what friends are for. Sometimes, it's quite good to go one on one with a brother, just talk, coffee. Did a lot of those with yap, didn't know I could pull it off with G as well.
& we're both no gay pls. I could bet that we're the last 2 guy in the world who would turn gay. Lim kopi, talk cock, beo zhar bo.
what more could I ask for when saturdays can be so peaceful like that. It's so. Zen. A still pond, no ripples. G would be a perfect social link for the corporate world.. At this rate that we're talking about work. Never thought I would find it good to talk about work. Politics, happenings. Guess why people do want to keep up with the news.
Surprising that how I found a keeper on steam. Surprisingly..
***
On the other side, things weren't that smooth for C. Thrown into the abyss of confusion, I'm alittle affected to. A brother of mine, blood bonded. We literally grew up together, together even before we could speak. Struggling alongside life. it's just tragic..
***
As much as I would love/like a happening life. That's just a mask. It eats into me, I guess? But deep inside. I still love quiet weekends. Cruising around town, babe gazing, coffee, playing some light jazz while reading on my bed, LANing with my brothers in the league and cursing at our defeats over kkm.
Oh kkm!
Kekoumian (可口面) they call it.
& it's literally KOKA Noodles.
Located @ blk 163, the lights would only be on from 230am in the morning, and you would see the coffeeshop being brought to life, by this uncle. U would no doubt argue that 3.50 for a maggie mee?! But trust me, it really bought everyone in the community together. It'd even became a culture for everyone in bukit panjang..
Sadly, he changed the timing to 5am now and it'd been replaced some shitty fishball noodle shop who serves an obvious less tasty pathetic serving noodles for the same price.
Seriously? Kkm 5am - 3pm? :(
It's sad. It's fucking sad. Just felt like a part of my life had just disappeared..
***
I heaved a sigh before smiling weakly to myself and dig my hands into my pockets, prepared to stroll home with some nice music. Nabeh, broke into a sprint as I saw my estate bus coming.
Such is life, indeed..
a music before i go..
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
h
you, predator
always seeking the weak,
seeking the ones,
ruining the lives of others, tainting your own.
cassanova or romeo i dont give 2 fuck.
you irks me.
hcny.HUAT
always seeking the weak,
seeking the ones,
ruining the lives of others, tainting your own.
cassanova or romeo i dont give 2 fuck.
you irks me.
hcny.HUAT
Saturday, February 9, 2013
lost
maybe we'd both lost it already.
i'd lost it already, definitely.
i'd lost the girl who love me the most,
lost the girl who care for me,
i'd lost it all.
you're different,
and i lost the old you.
i miss the old you.
and you have gone and would never come back.
i'd lost it already, definitely.
i'd lost the girl who love me the most,
lost the girl who care for me,
i'd lost it all.
you're different,
and i lost the old you.
i miss the old you.
and you have gone and would never come back.
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