maybe we'd both lost it already.
i'd lost it already, definitely.
i'd lost the girl who love me the most,
lost the girl who care for me,
i'd lost it all.
you're different,
and i lost the old you.
i miss the old you.
and you have gone and would never come back.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Friday, February 8, 2013
x
i can over look any flaws,
but you dont have to throw this at me.
we'd been at it for so long
compromise for so long.
how could i not hate your career when it's what that takes you away from me?
u never put yourself in my shoes now.
u dont even bother.
i'm utterly hurt.
utterly disappointed.
maybe you're just as so,
i dont know.
but the attitude you're giving me,
is totally different from the attitude of yours at work.
saying "im tired" whenever we hit a bumpy road now ?
that's not like you when you're @ work.
tired of what?
work, or our relationship?
now that we put every cards on the table, u dont even bother to play
u even pass me your cards asking me to throw whatever i want.
how can i be not mad,
how can i be not agitated
when the one dearest to me is doing this to me
but you dont have to throw this at me.
we'd been at it for so long
compromise for so long.
how could i not hate your career when it's what that takes you away from me?
u never put yourself in my shoes now.
u dont even bother.
i'm utterly hurt.
utterly disappointed.
maybe you're just as so,
i dont know.
but the attitude you're giving me,
is totally different from the attitude of yours at work.
saying "im tired" whenever we hit a bumpy road now ?
that's not like you when you're @ work.
tired of what?
work, or our relationship?
now that we put every cards on the table, u dont even bother to play
u even pass me your cards asking me to throw whatever i want.
how can i be not mad,
how can i be not agitated
when the one dearest to me is doing this to me
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Bakery
Yes! Feel so good to be on off in the middle of the week! Gonna meet Adel today and we're gonna go her place and do some baking!
***
Screw baking :(
The fucking pineapple paste is fucking difficult to shape. It's like hell's kitchen back there.
But we had fun.
Definitely(:
***
Screw baking :(
The fucking pineapple paste is fucking difficult to shape. It's like hell's kitchen back there.
But we had fun.
Definitely(:
050213
I'm back.
Here again.
think I fuck myself up too much,
Losing streak in the league.
This is one stupid phase
***
Wake up early,
Put on my smart 4 and off I went for my MA. Hate gng to ma in uniform. But who cares since I'm going back to camp after that.
***
We're so jaded together.
So jaded..
Here again.
think I fuck myself up too much,
Losing streak in the league.
This is one stupid phase
***
Wake up early,
Put on my smart 4 and off I went for my MA. Hate gng to ma in uniform. But who cares since I'm going back to camp after that.
***
We're so jaded together.
So jaded..
Monday, February 4, 2013
Goodbye
Monday.
Alittle different from the routine monday. But well, it's a bad thing that pushes routine out of monday, so I'm not really looking forward to it..
***
Because of what happened yesterday, I applied urgent OL. Have to go over to malaysia, for a day. Even though I would very much go for two. Sigh, medical appointment tomorrow..
***
Our car reached the church. It looked different from what I expected. Nothing grand, just a huge piece of land with a few scattered buildings, some house. Library, class room and a kindergarden. And there at the service hall holds the funeral..
It's not boring, certainly doesn't. Instead.. I felt a tinge of coziness in here. Relatives, families. We'd all gotten so much into our routine so much that we only get to see each other either on the happiest occasion, or the saddest one..
***
After we came back, lights at the hall came to life, the empty chairs were filled, we sat right at the back, someone even pass a memorial service book to me. We went through speeches, gospels, and I stared at the book as the priest drones on.
How many service has this book been through? I moved my fingers along the edge of the book.. Feeling it as if I could felt the countless sorrows held by the many people who'd been through. Now it's my turn.. I stared at the casket, analyzing it's height and width, I could imagine my aunt lying in there...
***
It's over. Everything.. We stood by the side, chattering awake, making small jokes.
***
I'd never seen a dead person before, never ever. And it's my first time today. My first time ever. And I swear.. I walked over slowly, after everyone'd left, together with my mum and brother. Hands over my mum's shoulder while clutching tightly onto my brother's arm. There I walked slowly.. And there I saw my aunt..
She looked.. Inanimate, cold, quiet, peaceful. I couldn't recognize her. Maybe I can't even accept it as my brain keeps telling me it's a wax figure, or it looked like one due to the make ups. I saw her, once, I stared really hard at my aunt, whose eyes are shut, hands on her chest. I waited, blink and stared again. I don't know what am I waiting for. A miracle? I don't know. It's like I'm waiting for her to move, I stared at her face, waiting to catch the slightest bit of movement.. But.. No.. She's not going to move..
It's like she in a deep sleep.. And I left her be..
***
11pm and I'm on my way back. Though it'd only been 6 short hours, I felt tired.. Mentally tired.. I still cannot accept it, I can't look at her children in their face, telling them everything will be alright. How could I when we all know that things will never be the same again?
***
Alittle different from the routine monday. But well, it's a bad thing that pushes routine out of monday, so I'm not really looking forward to it..
***
Because of what happened yesterday, I applied urgent OL. Have to go over to malaysia, for a day. Even though I would very much go for two. Sigh, medical appointment tomorrow..
***
Our car reached the church. It looked different from what I expected. Nothing grand, just a huge piece of land with a few scattered buildings, some house. Library, class room and a kindergarden. And there at the service hall holds the funeral..
It's not boring, certainly doesn't. Instead.. I felt a tinge of coziness in here. Relatives, families. We'd all gotten so much into our routine so much that we only get to see each other either on the happiest occasion, or the saddest one..
***
After we came back, lights at the hall came to life, the empty chairs were filled, we sat right at the back, someone even pass a memorial service book to me. We went through speeches, gospels, and I stared at the book as the priest drones on.
How many service has this book been through? I moved my fingers along the edge of the book.. Feeling it as if I could felt the countless sorrows held by the many people who'd been through. Now it's my turn.. I stared at the casket, analyzing it's height and width, I could imagine my aunt lying in there...
***
It's over. Everything.. We stood by the side, chattering awake, making small jokes.
***
I'd never seen a dead person before, never ever. And it's my first time today. My first time ever. And I swear.. I walked over slowly, after everyone'd left, together with my mum and brother. Hands over my mum's shoulder while clutching tightly onto my brother's arm. There I walked slowly.. And there I saw my aunt..
She looked.. Inanimate, cold, quiet, peaceful. I couldn't recognize her. Maybe I can't even accept it as my brain keeps telling me it's a wax figure, or it looked like one due to the make ups. I saw her, once, I stared really hard at my aunt, whose eyes are shut, hands on her chest. I waited, blink and stared again. I don't know what am I waiting for. A miracle? I don't know. It's like I'm waiting for her to move, I stared at her face, waiting to catch the slightest bit of movement.. But.. No.. She's not going to move..
It's like she in a deep sleep.. And I left her be..
***
11pm and I'm on my way back. Though it'd only been 6 short hours, I felt tired.. Mentally tired.. I still cannot accept it, I can't look at her children in their face, telling them everything will be alright. How could I when we all know that things will never be the same again?
***
Fri
Friday.
It's here again, the day that I'd been living for this week.
I was sleeping on my face when my alarm rang. My week have been pretty much fun filled already. So much for sprinkling the magic. Got myself up, deal with the usual backache, and heave my self up and off my bed. Had a sweet sleep.. Must be the beer doing their work yesterday. Prep and off I go, moving very very slowly, as if I'm made of glass. I'm just fucking tired. Fucking tired.
The bus thing, they ought to do something about it. This company rather let it's hundreds of foreign talents flooded the bus rather than getting a bus for them and this clog could get really nasty.
Ah off the fuck with this shit. Right now I'm concentrating on how fun my weekends could get. Meeting Y on friday, heading down jb with my guys on saturday. I could probably do with a haircut too.
***
Didn't really slept a wink today. Spend the day out there, connecting with people. Well I does really feels good sometime, talking with people, connecting with people. Even buzzed up afew old friends from whatsapp, 1 of them even had a girlfriend already!
Its all good, I guess.
***
Head out to town with Y, usual pizza. Usual strolling around, before rushing back to meet up with Sherm.
And tgt w/ Chang, we're all heading to jb.
Learn some lessons and yea, culture shock yo.
***
2 v gao kopi makes me slept only @ 7. Pcb
It's here again, the day that I'd been living for this week.
I was sleeping on my face when my alarm rang. My week have been pretty much fun filled already. So much for sprinkling the magic. Got myself up, deal with the usual backache, and heave my self up and off my bed. Had a sweet sleep.. Must be the beer doing their work yesterday. Prep and off I go, moving very very slowly, as if I'm made of glass. I'm just fucking tired. Fucking tired.
The bus thing, they ought to do something about it. This company rather let it's hundreds of foreign talents flooded the bus rather than getting a bus for them and this clog could get really nasty.
Ah off the fuck with this shit. Right now I'm concentrating on how fun my weekends could get. Meeting Y on friday, heading down jb with my guys on saturday. I could probably do with a haircut too.
***
Didn't really slept a wink today. Spend the day out there, connecting with people. Well I does really feels good sometime, talking with people, connecting with people. Even buzzed up afew old friends from whatsapp, 1 of them even had a girlfriend already!
Its all good, I guess.
***
Head out to town with Y, usual pizza. Usual strolling around, before rushing back to meet up with Sherm.
And tgt w/ Chang, we're all heading to jb.
Learn some lessons and yea, culture shock yo.
***
2 v gao kopi makes me slept only @ 7. Pcb
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Taken
Off you go,
Taken, and gone with the wind.
Your soul, floated up to the heavens,
For all the good you did,
Never did we expect it comes so suddenly,
Jaded, faded, you go,
Peacefully to the town of gold,
Living in his arms eternally.
May you find peace, amongst the quietest city,
Where the rustling leaves blow
You smile, free from pain,
Free from all, problems ceased.
Rest in peace
...
Today is a weird day.
Strangely, I feel this surge of energy.
Did I purged that out to counter the news?
That.. I never know.
but I did enjoy myself, with a tinge of emptiness.
The news didn't come so suddenly, expected, but.. Alittle too soon..
Motivated, been motivating myself.
Work or not, I wanna live my life, run with the winds, do what I like. Ogling at babes. spend on what I like.. For life's too short for regrets.
Planned an artsy Sunday with ernest, and I invited aaron as well.
Remembered when I talked about me wanted to find back some lost connection?
Well, this social link, I call them yappa and nesty. yes, stupid nicknames :P
---
Head over to chinatown with yappa first before nest join us @ sam.
Nice, had a meal of mac and also some random fan meeting w/ the cast of ah boys to men.
It's random, but it's nice seeing tosh and his crew rocking the crowd at china town.
Smart move director neo :P definitely.
Oh, why china town? Because we use to go there often.
Fans of toys, fingurines, and lots of random stuff. Sunday is when the floors of china town square comes alive, coughing up a small community of fans and nerds alike.
It's a nice little community, weapon collectors, anime fans, card traders u can find them all.
There's a little jack of all trades in me, hence this trip.
---
Met Ernest later and there we go, exploring and playing with visual arts. I can never describe how I like interacting with them. I'm not a fan of photo taking, but trust me, I become a totally different person once I step into an art musuem, ideas starts brimming, humour, cliche, and a whole lot of unexpected shit that the little artsy blood starts flowing thru my brains throwing in random ideas.
We ended the day with a foot long subway and an impromtu movie session.
Hansel and Gretel: witch hunters.
It's okay.
But spend most of the time with my eyes glued to Gemma Arterton gosh how can hansel stand such a hot sister? :P
Literally drooling all over the cinema floor when the credits starts rolling. And aye, it's a soso movie, light laugh, predictable, pretty much? Ruthless witch brawling and well I'll give it a 6/10.
And there we go, home (:
Taken, and gone with the wind.
Your soul, floated up to the heavens,
For all the good you did,
Never did we expect it comes so suddenly,
Jaded, faded, you go,
Peacefully to the town of gold,
Living in his arms eternally.
May you find peace, amongst the quietest city,
Where the rustling leaves blow
You smile, free from pain,
Free from all, problems ceased.
Rest in peace
...
Today is a weird day.
Strangely, I feel this surge of energy.
Did I purged that out to counter the news?
That.. I never know.
but I did enjoy myself, with a tinge of emptiness.
The news didn't come so suddenly, expected, but.. Alittle too soon..
Motivated, been motivating myself.
Work or not, I wanna live my life, run with the winds, do what I like. Ogling at babes. spend on what I like.. For life's too short for regrets.
Planned an artsy Sunday with ernest, and I invited aaron as well.
Remembered when I talked about me wanted to find back some lost connection?
Well, this social link, I call them yappa and nesty. yes, stupid nicknames :P
---
Head over to chinatown with yappa first before nest join us @ sam.
Nice, had a meal of mac and also some random fan meeting w/ the cast of ah boys to men.
It's random, but it's nice seeing tosh and his crew rocking the crowd at china town.
Smart move director neo :P definitely.
Oh, why china town? Because we use to go there often.
Fans of toys, fingurines, and lots of random stuff. Sunday is when the floors of china town square comes alive, coughing up a small community of fans and nerds alike.
It's a nice little community, weapon collectors, anime fans, card traders u can find them all.
There's a little jack of all trades in me, hence this trip.
---
Met Ernest later and there we go, exploring and playing with visual arts. I can never describe how I like interacting with them. I'm not a fan of photo taking, but trust me, I become a totally different person once I step into an art musuem, ideas starts brimming, humour, cliche, and a whole lot of unexpected shit that the little artsy blood starts flowing thru my brains throwing in random ideas.
We ended the day with a foot long subway and an impromtu movie session.
Hansel and Gretel: witch hunters.
It's okay.
But spend most of the time with my eyes glued to Gemma Arterton gosh how can hansel stand such a hot sister? :P
Literally drooling all over the cinema floor when the credits starts rolling. And aye, it's a soso movie, light laugh, predictable, pretty much? Ruthless witch brawling and well I'll give it a 6/10.
And there we go, home (:
Saturday, February 2, 2013
laze
so have to share this before it gets taken down.
i know ah boys to men 2 is out in cinema now, well if you have forgotten the prequel
watch ah boys to men part 1 movie with english and chinese sub.
not superb quality, but it's good enough for free
woke up pretty late, stupid kopi ytd, si bei gao. lim bei 8am then sleep.
lazing at home, procrastinating for my supposed haircut.
darn :(
i know ah boys to men 2 is out in cinema now, well if you have forgotten the prequel
watch ah boys to men part 1 movie with english and chinese sub.
not superb quality, but it's good enough for free
woke up pretty late, stupid kopi ytd, si bei gao. lim bei 8am then sleep.
lazing at home, procrastinating for my supposed haircut.
darn :(
Friday, February 1, 2013
THURS 300113
Here we are again, sipping beer, chionging the free snacks at chevrons. Beers are only going off at 2.20 per pint, furthermore, the snacks so far have unlimited free refill. There we are, in our smart 4, no giving two fucks, gobbling down bowls and bowls of snacks and then refilling them. Ended my day with a mc chicken @ mac. Huat
Thursday is.. Well quiet I think. The jungle is just fine. Gentle rustling of leaves, swaying trees and I'm out connecting with people. Building social links again. I'd been.. Lazy I guess? Hibernating in the cave, no even leaving it for a moment.
***
Bought a pair of running shoes from the emart. And I hope I would motivate myself to for god sake even start running. Wish I could run as much as I did in pokemon.
Thursday is.. Well quiet I think. The jungle is just fine. Gentle rustling of leaves, swaying trees and I'm out connecting with people. Building social links again. I'd been.. Lazy I guess? Hibernating in the cave, no even leaving it for a moment.
***
Bought a pair of running shoes from the emart. And I hope I would motivate myself to for god sake even start running. Wish I could run as much as I did in pokemon.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
A
btw. just realize that G3 is my number 888 post.
HUAT AH!
***
it hasn't change.
it always never..
why would i always get an inevitable insomnia when i'm going to meet you the following day?
HUAT AH!
***
it hasn't change.
it always never..
why would i always get an inevitable insomnia when i'm going to meet you the following day?
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
G3
Today...
well there's a number of shit that crops up every now and then today.
only good thing?
G and clocking up to 4 hours worth of sleep.
& not getting caught for being late.
seems like i'd been missing all of my bus today.
seeing them leave the bus stop right in my face just makes me feel fucking dulan.
---
down to HV,
coffee talks. quiet. nua.com
***
been procrastinating for quite sometime
yes,
quite sometime
about all the post that i'd missed.
oh fuck
&(*&^$#(*&*&^!(*@#@!
back to HV,
guess that's the highlight of the day and night.
met G for coffee,
my first expensive coffee of the year.
yes, coffee bean,
just cant bring myself to reject G since i'd been putting him off for quite sometime :x
so there we go,
sitting there, lazing around the usual talk,
it'd always been the same o' topic.
and i think we really never get bored out of it.
"such is life"
and come to think of it, we're both so different,
coming in from different world,
threading on different social link,
yet he come to me like an old friend,
i know you're reading this, and yes you got me D:
& yes, i'm still gonna say it.
this new glow embracing you, i'll say it's definitely of something good. this would be what completes your best suit.
G had evolved. Literally, this new glow,
and of course, the atmosphere today is less depressing. i'm sure we all will find what we seek.
thank you for tonight,
everything,
how our social link build on restless nights
thank you steam
been neglecting quite alot of my social links and,
i didn't want it to be left there, collecting cobwebs.
the walls of our room is crumbling.
yet we sat there, sipping coffee watching things burn.. with a weak smile on our face.
***
topped up my card,
$20, and the lady accidentally keyed in $50.
MANAGER ONLY COME OVER BEFORE I LEFT.
WTFKNNCCBDULAN, felt that i just lost $30.
***
afterall,
it's home. home.
well there's a number of shit that crops up every now and then today.
only good thing?
G and clocking up to 4 hours worth of sleep.
& not getting caught for being late.
seems like i'd been missing all of my bus today.
seeing them leave the bus stop right in my face just makes me feel fucking dulan.
---
down to HV,
coffee talks. quiet. nua.com
***
been procrastinating for quite sometime
yes,
quite sometime
about all the post that i'd missed.
oh fuck
&(*&^$#(*&*&^!(*@#@!
back to HV,
guess that's the highlight of the day and night.
met G for coffee,
my first expensive coffee of the year.
yes, coffee bean,
just cant bring myself to reject G since i'd been putting him off for quite sometime :x
so there we go,
sitting there, lazing around the usual talk,
it'd always been the same o' topic.
and i think we really never get bored out of it.
"such is life"
and come to think of it, we're both so different,
coming in from different world,
threading on different social link,
yet he come to me like an old friend,
i know you're reading this, and yes you got me D:
& yes, i'm still gonna say it.
this new glow embracing you, i'll say it's definitely of something good. this would be what completes your best suit.
G had evolved. Literally, this new glow,
and of course, the atmosphere today is less depressing. i'm sure we all will find what we seek.
thank you for tonight,
everything,
how our social link build on restless nights
thank you steam
been neglecting quite alot of my social links and,
i didn't want it to be left there, collecting cobwebs.
the walls of our room is crumbling.
yet we sat there, sipping coffee watching things burn.. with a weak smile on our face.
***
topped up my card,
$20, and the lady accidentally keyed in $50.
MANAGER ONLY COME OVER BEFORE I LEFT.
WTFKNNCCBDULAN, felt that i just lost $30.
***
afterall,
it's home. home.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
NIN9
happiest saturday of the year, so far!
i can go to duty tomorrow feeling happy already,
although my room is in quite abit of a mess right now.
did quite an amount of spring cleaning, vacuuming, wiping.
and finally i'd did something splendid once again in a very long time.
digged out my antique hifi set, and an idea pop in my mind.
there i go, cutting wires, twisting and plugging it in.
and yes, before i know it, i'd made myself a 6 speakers output system.
& i'm very proud of it :D
topped it off, i manage to make contact with the owner of kpopexplorer who acknowledge me being the first few and longest supporter. kpopexplorer is a site where i manage to expand my music tastebuds, korean indie are simply too beautiful to resist.
Lucite Tokke
Taru
Standing Egg
Windy
Raspberry Field
and many more...
***
watched a movie that i'd been wanting to catch since a long time.
9.
stunning graphics, guess i expected alittle too much from the film. But still, hurray to tim burton :D
however, little did i know, 9 is actually a creation by a student called Shane Acker
9 short film from Shane Acker on Vimeo.
a wonderful short film, but u cant view it here. just google it up (:
it was nominated for an award, but it lost to another short film, the moon and the son.
do check it out.
duty tomorrow, sigh duty tomorrow..
i can go to duty tomorrow feeling happy already,
although my room is in quite abit of a mess right now.
did quite an amount of spring cleaning, vacuuming, wiping.
and finally i'd did something splendid once again in a very long time.
digged out my antique hifi set, and an idea pop in my mind.
there i go, cutting wires, twisting and plugging it in.
and yes, before i know it, i'd made myself a 6 speakers output system.
& i'm very proud of it :D
topped it off, i manage to make contact with the owner of kpopexplorer who acknowledge me being the first few and longest supporter. kpopexplorer is a site where i manage to expand my music tastebuds, korean indie are simply too beautiful to resist.
Lucite Tokke
Taru
Standing Egg
Windy
Raspberry Field
and many more...
***
watched a movie that i'd been wanting to catch since a long time.
9.
stunning graphics, guess i expected alittle too much from the film. But still, hurray to tim burton :D
however, little did i know, 9 is actually a creation by a student called Shane Acker
9 short film from Shane Acker on Vimeo.
a wonderful short film, but u cant view it here. just google it up (:
it was nominated for an award, but it lost to another short film, the moon and the son.
do check it out.
duty tomorrow, sigh duty tomorrow..
Thursday, January 24, 2013
snake
Thursday.
i touched a python.
i watched a movie.
feels like friday.
duty on sunday.
completed limbo.
korean movie: hello ghost (english subs)
please please, if you have time to spare, watch this movie.
love the twist. love the movie.
casual, funny, touching, epic and beautiful.
another 4.5/5
would recommend this to anyone i know.
i touched a python.
i watched a movie.
feels like friday.
duty on sunday.
completed limbo.
korean movie: hello ghost (english subs)
please please, if you have time to spare, watch this movie.
love the twist. love the movie.
casual, funny, touching, epic and beautiful.
another 4.5/5
would recommend this to anyone i know.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Rmb
I looked at your face again, one last time before turning away.
Monday have been kind. Very kind. Still surreal, back in camp with my comrades, fighting war. Staying as positive, as possible.
Work all day round, indeed, a busy worker have no time to be sad.
So what if we fall out at 6.20pm, nth new right?
Before I knew it, I'm holding onto the red plastic bag with my take away Econ rice, swinging away towards my home. And I made a difference, I didn't order my favorite fries today. And on my way to your place after that. My precious social link. The one whom I sought a future with. We did. Nothing, except feeling cozy, lazy on the couch while watch a movie off my iPad.
A moment to remember,
Touching, real touching. An underrated beautiful movie. It's on par with koizora I swear.
I won't wanna forget you..
Sent from my iPad
Monday have been kind. Very kind. Still surreal, back in camp with my comrades, fighting war. Staying as positive, as possible.
Work all day round, indeed, a busy worker have no time to be sad.
So what if we fall out at 6.20pm, nth new right?
Before I knew it, I'm holding onto the red plastic bag with my take away Econ rice, swinging away towards my home. And I made a difference, I didn't order my favorite fries today. And on my way to your place after that. My precious social link. The one whom I sought a future with. We did. Nothing, except feeling cozy, lazy on the couch while watch a movie off my iPad.
A moment to remember,
Touching, real touching. An underrated beautiful movie. It's on par with koizora I swear.
I won't wanna forget you..
Sent from my iPad
Monday, January 21, 2013
Wae
Rainy Sunday.
I woke up.
8am.. I blinked afew times before confirming this is not a dream.
I felt.. Reborn. I felt like shit..
Why..
I have no reasons to drink,
No troubles that's worth confiding in alcohol.
I have a nice warm family, a brother that loves me deep inside just as much as I love him. A couz whom I spend my life with as blood brother. Not to mention, I have the best gf in the world.
Brothers who will stood by me through thick and thin, even though we're not really connected in our mind but we still have telepathy. Especially V, we're always so close, yet so far. But again, we're still awkwardly similar in our own way. And Y, 11years down into brotherhood. That's about half of my life now. We grew up together, head down to town and pasar ris since we're pri 6, we emo today, we live through the discman days. Chinos, beverage slacking and pool. We did them all, even before we went to secondary school.
This couldn't go on forever, but also afew more brother sprinkled around here and there. You guys should know who you'll be.
***
Isn't that what life should be?
My life should be..?
Taking alcohol out of the equation, just me, and my love ones. Catching flicks at my place, usual pizza party, lan games and kkm. Talking about our dreams and bathing in our past glories, not forgetting cruising at town, people watch, shopping. Simple, yes. Very simple. Why would I be wasting stash, burning notes for poison?
This strange potion, that drug your mind, purge your heart. I think.. I just had enough of this. I breaks my heart when I see me breaking yours.
***
Seeing your refreshes my mind.
Seeing you makes me smile.
Seeing u takes away whatever bad inside me.
We then head out, for our first date of the year. Hand in hand, we stroll down to town. How long have it been? I really missed us. It'd been so long since I last hold your hands, I almost lost it. Madness.
We caught a flick, at the usual cinema. Cineleisure, town have certainly gone through a lot of changes. But we haven. This place, flooded with memories, although my 32MB memory only allows me to put my finger on Alice in Wonderland, and Due Date. The good ol days where we came out during weekdays and ninja student price.
Snuggling on the cheapo couple seat and digging our fingers furiously into the box of popcorn.
The impossible.
If you think 127 hours is gory enough, then you haven seen this shit. Brutally haunting. Yet a touch of beauty. It's a beautiful film, really. I swear we couldn't have finish the food if we eat any slowly. This flick's a total heart wrecker. Lady behind us crying like her father's funeral. A solid 4.5/5. True story.
And we ate like dinosaurs.
Menu
- bee hoon
- best fries forever
- large popcorn combo
- baked rice
- soup
- pizza
- pasta
So wanna take a gun and shoot myself.
alas, every dream have to end, we made our way back. I'm feeling more depress than ever. Wish time can even slow down or stop, for a moment. How long a moment, I don't know.
Comes monday, here we go again..
I woke up.
8am.. I blinked afew times before confirming this is not a dream.
I felt.. Reborn. I felt like shit..
Why..
I have no reasons to drink,
No troubles that's worth confiding in alcohol.
I have a nice warm family, a brother that loves me deep inside just as much as I love him. A couz whom I spend my life with as blood brother. Not to mention, I have the best gf in the world.
Brothers who will stood by me through thick and thin, even though we're not really connected in our mind but we still have telepathy. Especially V, we're always so close, yet so far. But again, we're still awkwardly similar in our own way. And Y, 11years down into brotherhood. That's about half of my life now. We grew up together, head down to town and pasar ris since we're pri 6, we emo today, we live through the discman days. Chinos, beverage slacking and pool. We did them all, even before we went to secondary school.
This couldn't go on forever, but also afew more brother sprinkled around here and there. You guys should know who you'll be.
***
Isn't that what life should be?
My life should be..?
Taking alcohol out of the equation, just me, and my love ones. Catching flicks at my place, usual pizza party, lan games and kkm. Talking about our dreams and bathing in our past glories, not forgetting cruising at town, people watch, shopping. Simple, yes. Very simple. Why would I be wasting stash, burning notes for poison?
This strange potion, that drug your mind, purge your heart. I think.. I just had enough of this. I breaks my heart when I see me breaking yours.
***
Seeing your refreshes my mind.
Seeing you makes me smile.
Seeing u takes away whatever bad inside me.
We then head out, for our first date of the year. Hand in hand, we stroll down to town. How long have it been? I really missed us. It'd been so long since I last hold your hands, I almost lost it. Madness.
We caught a flick, at the usual cinema. Cineleisure, town have certainly gone through a lot of changes. But we haven. This place, flooded with memories, although my 32MB memory only allows me to put my finger on Alice in Wonderland, and Due Date. The good ol days where we came out during weekdays and ninja student price.
Snuggling on the cheapo couple seat and digging our fingers furiously into the box of popcorn.
The impossible.
If you think 127 hours is gory enough, then you haven seen this shit. Brutally haunting. Yet a touch of beauty. It's a beautiful film, really. I swear we couldn't have finish the food if we eat any slowly. This flick's a total heart wrecker. Lady behind us crying like her father's funeral. A solid 4.5/5. True story.
And we ate like dinosaurs.
Menu
- bee hoon
- best fries forever
- large popcorn combo
- baked rice
- soup
- pizza
- pasta
So wanna take a gun and shoot myself.
alas, every dream have to end, we made our way back. I'm feeling more depress than ever. Wish time can even slow down or stop, for a moment. How long a moment, I don't know.
Comes monday, here we go again..
Friday, January 18, 2013
thirst
Nothing beats an impromptu lan session with my army social link. We got like what? Ten over people? It's a fucking crowd I know, even thou we all play different games, it's still pretty much enjoyable despite losing 2 consecutive rounds in the league. They really should be more strict on the anti-leaver system.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Kards and decisions
I reluctantly put on my pt kit, the slipping into my smart 4. No more slacky weekdays, standing there using my phone when the crowd drones. My officer had flipped down all the cards, leaving us only with the one and only.
Wednesdays and any other odd weekdays, we're gonna be back to participating live activities. Let me try enjoy this once more.. I hope?
*i began to hasten my pace and head back to my house. Fuck, I'm alrdy nearing my bus stop. Just realized that I'd forgotten my shoes. Fuck.
Ran back for my size 9.5 and ran down the grassy slope.
Manage to skip live activities as they ran out of bands to issue. Huat~
Nothing exuberant, just mundane.
Sitting by the medical centre while the tv drones on..
Fucking dog, why are u so anal.
I won't curse your parents. Your parents are far better off without you.
Made the best out of the worst and I had my first roti john of the year with vash. Huat ah!
***
You're slipping away,
Yes you're slipping away.
U kept your anchors to my dismay
You're gone from the fray.
While I stood by the bay.
Wednesdays and any other odd weekdays, we're gonna be back to participating live activities. Let me try enjoy this once more.. I hope?
*i began to hasten my pace and head back to my house. Fuck, I'm alrdy nearing my bus stop. Just realized that I'd forgotten my shoes. Fuck.
Ran back for my size 9.5 and ran down the grassy slope.
Manage to skip live activities as they ran out of bands to issue. Huat~
Nothing exuberant, just mundane.
Sitting by the medical centre while the tv drones on..
Fucking dog, why are u so anal.
I won't curse your parents. Your parents are far better off without you.
Made the best out of the worst and I had my first roti john of the year with vash. Huat ah!
***
You're slipping away,
Yes you're slipping away.
U kept your anchors to my dismay
You're gone from the fray.
While I stood by the bay.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Monday, January 14, 2013
140113
Monday.
I woke up before my alarm did the job.
I drift back to sleep again,
Woke up by my alarm again,
Set my usual 3 minutes countdown timer and laze on my bed.
Did the usual preparing.
& I tried to make myself feel refresh..?
Slow walk down the flight of stairs.
Down the grassy slope.
Monday. I never really hate it until now. And it obviously wasn't so bad back in school.
Click.
Was totally looking forward to my halfday..
Sigh.. Guess wearing green in a place filled with negative energy didn't really give me much to look forward to already..
We're all crazy and we have our own way of dealing with stuff.. like the late fall out that made us missed all the bus.
Click.
Back home after all the fucking and off I go. Sprinkling magic.
CZ12 with my boys. My couz and vash.
Hilarious. Just hilarious, like any other jackie chan's movie. Pocketed another movie this week. After the movie, I don't really feel like going home just yet, so we decided to help couz look for his lost cat. It'd been 2 days since the icon of the house gone missing and I guess his sis must be devastated. We combed nearby estates, stick posters and what not. I'm not tying to try this new experience, obviously not when I'm suppose to be wishing for smth happen so I can help. But it certainly felt different. Taking walks around the estate, weather's too our advantage, chilly windy nights. Looking at bushes, blocks.
Were happily pasting the posters before we just got caught by the police. Owww! Busted D:
I woke up before my alarm did the job.
I drift back to sleep again,
Woke up by my alarm again,
Set my usual 3 minutes countdown timer and laze on my bed.
Did the usual preparing.
& I tried to make myself feel refresh..?
Slow walk down the flight of stairs.
Down the grassy slope.
Monday. I never really hate it until now. And it obviously wasn't so bad back in school.
Click.
Was totally looking forward to my halfday..
Sigh.. Guess wearing green in a place filled with negative energy didn't really give me much to look forward to already..
We're all crazy and we have our own way of dealing with stuff.. like the late fall out that made us missed all the bus.
Click.
Back home after all the fucking and off I go. Sprinkling magic.
CZ12 with my boys. My couz and vash.
Hilarious. Just hilarious, like any other jackie chan's movie. Pocketed another movie this week. After the movie, I don't really feel like going home just yet, so we decided to help couz look for his lost cat. It'd been 2 days since the icon of the house gone missing and I guess his sis must be devastated. We combed nearby estates, stick posters and what not. I'm not tying to try this new experience, obviously not when I'm suppose to be wishing for smth happen so I can help. But it certainly felt different. Taking walks around the estate, weather's too our advantage, chilly windy nights. Looking at bushes, blocks.
Were happily pasting the posters before we just got caught by the police. Owww! Busted D:
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