the perks of being...

it's when we hang out when i felt it's right out of the movie.
it's really nice, and fun.
J forever calling shot gun, while S leads the way.
i'll be sitting at the back, enjoying whichever adventure the 2 of them would bring me into
always they told me to participate,
and so i did.
told you it's like the movies
so we took a good ol' drive.
to JB,
all the good food,
and some ice chilled beer.
it's really nice,

back at 5,
& i almost died at work the day after.
totally worth it (:

the wedding.

finally,
she wed.

there we go again,
to witness the beautiful event of the second twin.
i could see the wrinkles in my elder's forehead,
lining up above their brows,
marking their age upon earth.

i daresay,
marriage is a sacred event,
where happiness took place,
laughter lightens up the ballroom,
where we drank,
we laugh,
we toast to the joy we had,
it's happy,
i was, indeed truly happy.

i saw how they walk down the aisle,
all of us know what's coming next.
the local life,
the path where we would face the same challenges,
the huge debts bestowed upon us,
how raising kids is such an expensive chore,
having a car is considered a luxury,
how we get soften by illnesses and time
but at that moment,
you know it's all worth it.

Richard and i drank again,
heartwarming i guess.
we're all smiles,
he's his usual high.
alot of people said i got his genes for drinking,
not exactly, i guess.
maybe i'd got his genes for seeking happiness from drinking.
how i got so moved when he said,
how terrible he felt, seeing his mom like that,
he isn't always good with expressing his feelings,
but when i saw him holding her hands, looking at her with his eyes.
i know that moment is true.
that moment, that i would never forgets,
my ice-cold dad, being his trueself for the first time.

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i felt like a drama,
when i bought my girlfriend towards my grandma,
hearing her calling her "ah ma".
that's i believe,
is the bliss of growing up.

===

i bought u into my world,
the party, the liquor,
the fight of social status,
the superficial,
the party lights, and the ever squeezing crowd.
the norm?
i'm not sure about that,
maybe everyone just wants to escape,
for that bit, and be a retard.
but i guess, this is one weird, beautiful night.

"we're made for greater things"

nothing special of sort.
just have this weird feeling,
the peculiar need to write,
it could be nonsense,
well i'm not sure where my fingers are heading,
but i'll just have them dance and see what comes out of it.

my week's pretty routine recently,
clocking an average $8 an hour paycheck,
what i did was basically making phone calls over and over again.

albeit the lost of passion for the league,
i dwell soulless when i get back,
probably nothing much to look forward to, until my next escape.
life's okay, i guess?
my timeline is literally frozen.
frozen by routine,

sourcing for good place to eat,
to chill,
and i guess i managed to found one while scrolling through my weekly dosage of I-S Magazine.
district 10.
google it up.
i need a new place for drinks.



that thunder,
i wonder if you can hear it.

i'm just unusually motivated today,
i'm all hyped up.
i wanna do something
i wanna create something
i just want to get out of my life and to be born anew

i dont care whether is it the gypsy syndrome or what so ever
i never want to be an NPC
u know what i'm talking about,
everyone wants to be the one;

the guy who pulls the sword out of the rock
the girl who's feet fit the glass slippers
the guy who lift up thor's hammer
the girl who marries the beast who turns into the prince
the guy who score the last minute goal
the girl who light up the orchard runway
the boy who lives

whoever we want to be,
i believe, we could make it,
if we believes,

succumb and you will fall,
into the well of frogs,
who croak and never sees it all

Mantra of the Week
"we're made for greater things"

lost

i'd lost it.
i sat at my desk,
sneaking a gentle peak to my orb that rest at the corner.
ashamed to even look at it, as if i'd done it wrong.

maybe it's time for the hiatus again.
to take a breather away from the league.

domino!

domino friday!
nth better to do other than watching little tiles falling onto each other.

G & S 4 - Domino World Record - The Longest 3D Structure

275,000 Dominoes - Enjoy Your Life (Guinness World Record

most domino toppled in a spiral)

poems 2

Seeker

where can i begin?

the love of my life

my soul mate,

i'd found them all, 

yet what else am i looking for?

Answers

the message in the bottle, 

the stars in the skies

tiny oracles

the places where answers flutter

we look everywhere, 

but where they actually lies?

20 Things To Do In Your 20s

20 Things to Do in Yours 20s from THOUGHT CATALOG

was reading my feeds again i think this is something quite worthy to share to everyone out there

&i wanted to do the little checklist test myself

1. Have a roommate you love (improvising with a friend)
2. Have a roommate you hate (improvising with a friend)
3. Fall head over heels for someone who treats you like dirt
4. Let go of someone you've been holding onto
5. Have one night you'll never forget and that you can't remember
6. Make a life changing mistake
7. Royally piss off your parents
8. Date
9. Go out to dinner by yourself
10. Take a huge risk (no balls)
11. Move
12. Get a pet (a pet fish that last for 2 days, counted?)
13. Donate your college clothes (not college clothes thou)
14. Figure yourself out 
15. Exercise
16. Pig out on junk food
17. Watch the news
18. Keep your resume updated
19. Work your ass off
20. Enjoy it

tranform

wont it be nice,
to take control of your life?
how about taking BACK control of your life?
after you'd lost control of it?

now here's a real deal for me.
i'd been losing my sense of direction for quite sometime now,
and i'm still not sure when when would i find the right way.
but maybe i'm not that lost now.
i'd been chucking off tons of to do lists,
escaping lots of reminder emails,
not doing anything,
bumming around,
rooting my sorry ass on my chair and not leaving unless it's toilet breaks,
doing nth only to find myself pushing away articles and things to do only to find my sorry soul rotting away in summoner's rift.
i have to get out,
i need to get out,
out of here.
fresh air.
i'm,
suffocating.

at the very least,
maybe i'm slowly finding my way back on track.
i began exercising,
i tried to make running a routine, still trying to do so,
i keep up with the world everyday, i'm reading my feeds daily, still.
i got back into reading, just done with 2 novels that i'd been procrastinating with.
(if you really wanna know, it's the fault in our stars and the perks of being a wallflower)
i tried to think positive everyday,
everyday is like a challenge for me, i learn to love my job, i learn to tell myself to stay strong,
i started to be independent,
i began sleeping early,
i'm functioning on 10 hours of sleep,
i cut down my computer usage,
i'm no longer used to starring at screens for a long time,
i cut down gaming, i found lesser joy in it, my war cries soften in the taverns, & i'm losing touch.
it'd forgotten my totem, my summoning orb,
guess it's time to wake up.

but i'm still pushing several things aside.

& i'm still working on it.
this video kinda daunt on me how much a person can change.
someone once told me, "you can blame your parents if you're born poor, but you can only blame yourself if you die poor"
it's right isnt it?
so, fuck everything, i'd lost my footing, and it's time to get back on track.

meanwhile...


Homeless Veteran Time lapse Transformation



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Extraordinary People - The Boy Who Lived Before

this is an extraordinary documentary and makes you think.

so what were you when you lived before?

so here's something to share with you people!

TGIF

h

what else do i have?
when you're all i have.

heartmelt

I'd always been a fan of masked heroes,
but what about being one for 1 day?
i'm not talking about kickass,
i'm talking about one day, waking up and see your town turned into gotham city,
and you're batman.

on the 15th of Nov, Make-a-Wish would actually be turning San Francisco into Gotham City for Miles!

"The day starts with a breaking news story. San Francisco's Police Chief asks if anyone knows the whereabouts of Batkid because he needs his help solving crime and bringing the bad guys to justice. Our little Batkid, Miles, in training with adult Batman, is ready to answer the call! Of course Batkid will be riding around the City, saving the day and performing feats of derring-do!After rescuing a damsel in distress from the cable car tracks in Nob Hill, and capturing the Riddler in the act of robbing a downtown vault, Batman will eat his lunch at the Burger Bar in San Francisco – directly above Union Square. While at Burger Bar, he will get a call on his batphone to go to the window – where he will look down and see a huge group of volunteers jumping up and down asking for Batman’s help. Why?Because the Penguin will be kidnapping a famous Gotham City mascot! The getaway car will be visible on Union Square (a convertible so that everyone can see what is happening), and the chase will be on!After catching the Penguin, Batman will make his final stop at City Hall, where the Mayor and the Police Chief of Gotham City will thank him and give him the key to the city. We plan on having hundreds of volunteers and donors collected to cheer and thank our Batman!"

from gizmodo.com

what's happening inside me is beyond description,
and maybe the closest i could get is, "warm and fuzzy" :3

It's just so sad that this little child is currently fighting against leukemia at such young age.
not doing any comparing, but life starts when we roll the dice.
it's so saddening to see such a cheery looking kid having to been through all this since young,
and i'm praying that things will turn out better for him as time goes.
Yet what make-a-wish is doing made me felt so warm and fuzzy on what people can do to contribute to the society.
even at least a little.

that made me question myself, on what else can i do, for the society.
at least alittle.
YOLO right? it'd always been on my to do list and i'm sure this is quite a clear wake up call on what i can do to help one day.
maybe helping up at old folks home?
or food delivery for the needy?
i'm not superman, but i guess it all comes from the heart.
& i'm really glad how foundations like these make the world a better place to live in.

god, it's sooooo cute in that batman costume (:
but i know Miles would alway be a true hero!
we all know that!

Click the link before for more info!

Miles' Wish To Be a superhero | News | News & Events | Make-A-Wish® Greater Bay Area



#makeawishneverfailstomeltmyheart

short.

a short weekend, i guess.
a short 3 days break, before reality struck again.
i'd been at it for 2 weeks,
still surviving.
how our little commune survive the working life.



been watching short films lately, and here're some that i'd like to share on my blog
do check out the "short film" label for more likes of them.

Long Distance Relationship



Sincerely, The End



Choice, (adel really needs this)



Sign



Ending my short-short film post with 2 more with our local flavors.
do check out JTV(: a youtube video channel made by jack neo himself and there's a whole lot of awesome stuff there!

Note



Adversity

dream

ever wondered what could be the actual ending of inception?
yea it's an old film, i know i know.
but i came across this video that makes me rake up all memories of the film and relook my case.
and you should too (:



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ironically, and no pun intended, definitely;
i kinda lucid dream today.
is it all that to it is?
keeping the characters alive in the dream?
i would to you know.

i'd always been a dreamer.
i love dreaming,
i love having fun in my dream,
endless boundaries,
i love how fates can be woven together in dreams,